Chapter 943

"I thought I would have the upper hand at that time, I assumed that she would chase after me if I left, but she didn't . I waited at the door for a very long time, and in the end, I left in anger . By the time I reached my car downstairs, I was furious, which led to a car accident . . .

"I was in a coma for about seven months . When I finally woke up, the first thing I did was check my phone, but there wasn't anything from her .

"My life or death had nothing to do with her .

"When I was discharged, I bumped into her but it ended badly .

"Only later, because of family problems, did we get back together .

"That was probably the darkest moment of my life, but during that time, she stayed by my side silently .

"The past few years, I’ve always been thinking, if it wasn't for her, how would I have endured that harsh period?

"Do you know? Ever since that period, I didn't want a corporate marriage or to become the best in the industry, I just wanted to marry her, to live my life simply . I had even gotten a ring for her to propose, but all she gave me in return was the abortion letter . "

Xu Jiamu told all the minor details of his relationship with Song Xiangsi . Yang Sisi remained silent, never once interrupting him . She gazed at him steadily, taking in his loneliness, pain and sorrow . . . At this moment, she realized that behind his warm smile was so much pent up emotion .

"Our story ended at that time, we separated for three years, neither of us approaching or contacting the other . It was a time of zero interactions .

"From the story, it seems like she’s the heartless one, right?" Xu Jiamu chuckled . "That was what I thought all this while, I saw her as cold-blooded and heartless . When we accidentally bumped into each other in Beijing afterwards, her nonchalance thoroughly broke my heart .

"At that time, I felt as though she didn't have a heart and that I shouldn't waste my emotions on her .

"I was devastated .

"I wanted to marry, to be with a simple girl, to have a child, and to live my life peacefully . "

Yang Sisi seemed to have understood everything . "Was that why you asked for my number that night?"

Xu Jiamu nodded . "I admit that it was your name that made me want to interact with you, but I never treated you as a substitute, because . . . my subconsciousness kept reminding me that you weren't her . . . I wasn't able to hold your hand, kiss, or do any other act of affection . . .

"But, I was really hoping to spend the rest of my life with you .

"At that time, I struggled to change the influence she had on my life . I stopped wearing blue suits, stopped eating from the mushroom place, stopped eating her favorite cake . . . I struggled to adapt to your lifestyle, to remember your likes . . .

"I really wanted to let you into my life, but… I realized that I couldn't . "

Xu Jiamu pressed onto his chest softly, smiling helplessly . "Because over here it's filled up, and there's no more space for anyone else . "