"Song Feng?" Si Ning raised a brow because he was unsure if the weird display was something Song Feng could do or if there was a screw loose on his head for him to suddenly grab his hands.

Why was Song Feng holding his hands? He had no idea if it was another way for his medical practitioner to inspect him so he could only watch as Song Feng rubbed his cheek on his hands like he was trying to seek comfort while Si Ning could feel how shaky Song Feng's hands were and how it started to get sweaty.

"After this, I will not be treating you again." Song Feng informed him then rubbed Si Ning's hands slowly, holding it in place to his cheek to avoid Si Ning slipping out his hands from his or the hands slipping away due to his sweaty hands that were holding them, he kissed the hands and looked deeply into Si Ning's eyes.

"Why?" Si Ning uttered, he had no idea why Song Feng was behaving like a puppy that wants to be caressed or why he was being stared at and it should have made him feel uncomfortable if not that he was an Actor and could hold a person gaze for long.

Then what's with the hand-kissing. This made Si Ning so confused he only stared back at Song Feng.

Instead of Song Feng replying immediately, his brows furrowed as his eyes held up some mixed emotion Si Ning had no idea about but he also stared back trying not to miss anything, having the feeling that Song Feng's behavior wasn't anything relating to his checkup.

"Uh... Because ..his Majesty ordered me... to do... so because you... will be joining the... The imperial family and the head Imperial doctor .. will be in charge of your health." Song Feng explained, his voice shaky and immediately tears started to run slowly down his face as he closed his eyes and seemed to be in great pain.

"Song... Fe...ng?" Si Ning was so confused he doesn't know if Song Feng was regretting that he would have to leave him in another doctor's hand yet he doesn't understand if it was something Song Feng should be worried about because as far as knows, the head Imperial doctor would be the Imperial family doctor and wouldn't harm him which means he would be in good hands.

Looking at Song Feng it doesn't add up for him to be crying just because Si Ning would no longer be his patient or consult him and thinking about Song Feng having other problems made Si Ning's heart skipped a beat and he wanted to ask what the problem was but seeing how the tears kept slipping out at the corner of his closed eyes while refusing to release his hands made him stopped because if Song Feng wanted to talk about it then he would and he doesn't have to force him because Si Ning had a feeling that Song Feng was about to tell him what the problem was.

"Shao Lang told.. me to tell you about my... feelings but I was waiting for.. you to realize that I love you Si Ning and... I still do." Song Feng said and he started to cry softly without releasing Si Ning's hand. "Second Prince Xiu TianZhao told me his Majesty.. knows and I think he doesn't want me to see you anymore and I thought about it that I have.. a wife now so my duty lies with her and my unborn.. child that is why I want to try and live happily with her because Mo Qi is a good woman..." He opened his eyes as hot tears trailed down his eyes, his eyes bloodshot.

"Song Feng?" Si Ning was so shocked because he never expected to be confessed to after the announcement of him getting married to the Emperor which was a label that other interested party in him should back off.

It was almost like Song Feng want to quickly tell him about his feeling before leaving because just as he said he would have no reason to meet him if he wasn't his doctor anymore. Si Ning could see how hard it seemed for Song Feng to tell him by how much he seemed to be in silent agony and how fast his eyes could turn red just by crying and that moment he felt so stupid for not even guessing that Song Feng held his hands to tell him about his feelings.

"But Si Ning it was so hard to let you... go that is why I want to say that no matter what if... you ever need my help I will gladly render it to you and if you ever want to leave to live peacefully in a cottage just like you always wanted I will follow you because you have already taken my heart." Song Feng told him.

What?

Si Ning was frozen in the spot as Song Feng's hot tears trailed down his hands which Song Feng refused to release. Song Feng confessed to him when he was drunk but now he could see that he was level-headed, seeing how a grown man was crying in front of him while telling him he was in love with him even though he had a wife that he wanted to make happy yet telling him he would leave with him made Si Ning wished he had a tiny little feeling for Song Feng but no matter what, his heartbeat didn't raise, he wasn't nervous and at the back of his mind, he wished it was Xiu Zhicheng that was telling him those words realizing this made him so shock his mouth fell open because he might have some feelings for Xiu Zhicheng but Si Ning refused to admit it because all this would soon pass and just as he had already concluded that he was only infatuated with Xiu Zhicheng.

But what was it about the cottage? Why would he want to live in a cottage and not chase after power and fame but then why would he think about Xiu Zhicheng confessing to him instead?

Si Ning was in deep thought trying to differentiate what he was feeling for Xiu Zhicheng and what he felt for Liu Ting because he could admit that he loved Liu Ting then and because he was in deep thought he didn't notice when Song Feng moved closer till their lips met and Song Feng started kissing him while he remained rigidly unable to resist or say a word as he tasted the salty taste of Song Feng tears.

The kiss carried some deep emotion because Song Feng deepened the kiss like it would be the last time something like that would happen between them as he held Si Ning's shoulder with shaky hands and Si Ning didn't resist or push him away because it was the last time he would allow Song Feng to kiss him and he was in deep thought trying to think if he was finally living the life in this era. He was kissed for some time before Song Feng draws back when Si Ning didn't respond to him then he kissed his forehead before standing up.

"I will be leaving now Si Ning and I will see you tomorrow." Song Feng said, wearing back his first professional look as he took out a handkerchief to clean his face.

Until Song Feng left that Si Ning was able to break out of his trance because he realized in this era he might not be living the life.

And what just happened?