She placed her elbow on the table with her jaw resting on her hand in deep thought, today is the day of the next meeting and she couldn't make a decision to vie for the position of the leading surgeon of the operation on the VIP patients, after all, there are many experienced and older surgeons in the hospital who are more skilled than she is.

"Yu Yan!" she waited a while for her answer but she didn't get any.

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"Yu Yan!" An Ke called louder, Yu Yan immediately jerked out of her thoughts then she looked up to see An Ke standing beside her, she sighed and looked up again, she was very startled when she heard someone shouting her name but seeing that it was An Ke she was relieved.

"What are you thinking about, we are going to be late for the meeting," An Ke queried with a quizzical look on her face, Yu Yan quickly dispelled the worried look on her face to avoid her dwelling on it.

"It's nothing, let's go," she responded then she stood up from her seat and grabbed her coat from the hanger in the office then she pulled An Ke's hand to leave the office seeing that she still had an inquisitive look on her face.

They arrived at the meeting room then they took their seat next to their fellow third-year residents, as soon as everyone arrived the chief surgeon stood up to speak.

"As we all know, this is the last meeting where we will decide the surgical crew of our VIP patient so this meeting will be a quick one because we have to do a simulation of the surgery before the surgery itself, is there anyone who would like to vie for the position of the leading surgeon," the chief surgeon looked around but everyone had a hesitant look on their faces.

Although he is the chief surgeon, his area of speciality is not cardiology so he couldn't take the position of the lead surgeon.

"Is there no one among the specialist surgeons who think they can take the role?" the chief surgeon asked again, he couldn't blame them for hesitating, after all, if the surgery is unsuccessful then the consequences the hospital and the surgical crew will have to bear won't be small.

{Should I...}

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"I am not a genie but If you tell me what you want then I might help you make a difference"

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{Should I trust him and take the risk?}

She was too nervous to raise her hand, she worked hard to come this far, what if this one surgery waste's all her effort.

{No good thing comes without risks}

"Is there..."

"Surgeon Yu Yan what are you doing?" the chief surgeon asked in shock, seeing her hand raised, the other surgeons turned to her with their brows knitted and a confused look on their face.

"I...I.."

"Yu Yan, what are you doing?" An Ke whispered to her while nudging her shoulder, her other friends who had also joined the meeting were looking at her with round eyes and signalling her to drop her hand, she slowly brought it down then she raised it again.

Seeing Yu Yan raise her hand, Yue Ling who was also contemplating whether she should take the role also raised her hand.

"I would like to vie for the role of the leading surgeon!" Both of them chorused in unison they glanced at each other for a sec and turned to look at the chief surgeon.

"Are you in your right mind?" Mrs Nanjing and the team leader of the cardiology blurted out in shock, then they composed themselves seeing the eyes looking at them.

"Chief, they can't be considered, they are just third-year residents and this surgery is too complicated for a specialist surgeon, not to talk of a third-year resident," Mrs Nanjing argued, she couldn't risk letting a bright surgeon like Yu Yan destroy her career and implicating her team.

"I agree," the team leader of the cardiology department added.

"But..." Yu Yan wanted to argue but she was stopped when the chief surgeon raised his hand to silence her.

"No resident surgeon will be allowed to participate in this surgery, his children have already stated that they only want the best of the best surgeon and the most experienced surgeon to assist them," the chief stated much to her disappointment.

She lowered her hand and head in embarrassment and disappointment, she knew that they must be looking at her with a mocking gaze at the moment while her friends would still be surprised by her outrageousness, she regretted raising her hand and having that little bit of hope.

{Even if anyone is chosen, it won't be a middle-class surgeon like me}

They have always given her the suicide cases and the lower class patients to handle so she was even laughing at herself for trying to operate on such a high-class patient, for the first time in a while she felt her confidence broken.

"If we are talking about an experienced surgeon who is the best of the best, aren't we referring to Mr Lian Wei..." one of the surgeons remarked, they all raised their eyes to look at her.

That's right...Mr Lian Wei is sitting right here so how could they have forgotten about him...?

"Mr Lian Wei, you have performed this surgery overseas before, why did you remain silent through the meeting?" Mrs Lucy who is the team leader of the cardiology question inquired but the man in his forties didn't seem to be listening.

"Mr Lian Wei!" the chief surgeon called, then he finally brought his mind back to the meeting.

"I don't think you have been listening to everything we have been saying, We are asking you to lead the operation on our VIP patient," the chief surgeon announced but the man looked startled when he heard him.

"Ehn...me, why suddenly?"

"What are you talking about Mr Lian Wei, you are the most experienced and skilled Specialist cardiologist in this hospital,"

"Who else is more suitable for this operation than you, you have operated on many hopeless patients successfully both overseas and in China,"

"We believe you can do this,"

{Right...If I am leaving this field, I might as well make another record with my last surgery}

"If that is what everyone thinks then I won't refuse the role of the lead surgeon,}

Tat!

Tat!

Tat!

They all started clapping their hands with smiles on their faces even though some of them felt jealous of him, who wouldn't be jealous of him when he is the most skilled cardiologist in the hospital and beyond the hospital, he has operated on many rare patients and he has very wide connections both home and abroad.

"Why is he acting so humble today, this is quite unlike him?" An Ke whispered to Yu Yan but Yu Yan just nodded her head, she was in no mood for gossip, she just watched the man whose position seemed too far from hers.

{Right...He is here,}

She wished the meeting would end so she can just have a personal space for herself.

"Since that is settled then I will appoint Mrs Lucy as the first assisting surgeon and Yue Ling as the second assisting surgeon, I will put out a list of the other surgeons who are part of the surgical crew later today, the surgery will be carried out on Friday," With that, the chief surgeon stood up from his seat and exited the meeting room, following murmurs and congratulations around the room.

She glanced at Yue Ling who was being congratulated by others along with Mrs Lucy and Mr Lian Wei with envy, even Yue Ling was appointed as the second assisting surgeon clearly because of her high status, Yue Ling who noticed the stare turned towards her direction with a smirk on her lips and her brow raised.

She is clearly mocking her!

She immediately stood up from her seat and exited the meeting room with her friends following behind her, they clearly noticed the short moment of mockery.

"Yu Yan!" Jia Yu called as they tried to catch up with her, she stopped and sniffed her nose with a fake smile on her face.

"Are you okay,"

"Of course I am,"

"I thought we talked about this and we advised you not to, I know this might make you sadder, but even if you are clearly skilled, this surgery is too complicated for you," Ji Chen remarked.

"I know that but...." she sniffed her nose to hold back her emotions

"I really wanted to be in the surgical crew and I knew I was overstepping my bounds, even if it is the position of the second assisting surgeon, I wanted to be part of it," Ji Chen placed her head on his shoulder and hugged her with his hand patting her back.

Her weakness....embarrassment and rejection.

"I don't know why you really wanted to do this but we still have long years ahead of us," Ji Chen comforted with a soft voice, then he released her from his hug, she saw that they still had a worried look on her face and she hated to see it.

"You guys don't have to be worried, I do understand that we have long years ahead of us," she assured to dispel her worry then she tried her hardest to put out the most sincere smile she could show at that moment.

They felt reassured seeing her smile then they all departed to their departments.

"This girl is really aspirational....just like him," Mrs Nanjing who has been watching them from a distance remarked.