"Shen Shu, do you have to be armed like this?" Fu Shenyan's face is not very good, some vicissitudes.

I smile, there is not much emotion in the tone, "how dare I, Mr. Fu Weiwu, almost killed me in one night, I'm afraid I can't avoid it."

I shook my head, voice is very light, "just suddenly think of something, feel funny."

"What are you laughing at?" Noticing my movement, Fu Shenyan suddenly opened his mouth, and his eyebrows were heavy.

Think of here, I can't help but low eyes self mockery smile, this life, doomed to only go on?

Life has passed a quarter, and I seem to have been confused.

Have not experienced the sweetness of love, have not learned how to love a person, how to enjoy a person's love.

I don't speak any more. I look at the lovers hugging each other on the roadside. It seems that I have never had a good love relationship with a person in the past 20 years.

He was silent for a moment, nodded slightly, "OK, if you have any questions, please come to me at any time."

Slightly shook his head, I bowed my head and touched my stomach, "Fu's audit should be almost over, I can't live for a while and a half, I'd better finish the Huayu case!"

I know he wants to take me out for a break, but I don't want to go anywhere now.

He slightly frowned, handsome face a bit more profound, "your stomach is also big, Huayu case you temporarily settle down, we take a time, go out for a walk!"

Selfish, paranoid, cold eyes, how can I become like this?

"Fu Shenyan, I've lost myself too long!" Since I met Fu Shenyan, I didn't seem to be me.

I look at the scenery outside the window, and my eyes are getting farther and farther away.

Today, when I was discharged from hospital, Fu Shenyan drove the car very slowly. He seemed to want me to enjoy the scenery along the way.

At the weekend, the Jacaranda on the central road of Jiangcheng opened, and the sky blue flowers on both sides of the street set off a bit of vitality for this originally boring city.

I know it's a disease, but I can't help thinking that.

The more I think about it, the more I have the impulse to kill my child.

As long as I don't have this child, I can completely leave Fu Shenyan and live the life I want to live.

I don't know if there's something wrong with me. When I'm in a daze, I don't want this child more and more.

If he doesn't come, I don't care. Sister Zhang stews for me in different ways every day.

After repeated several times, he didn't come to the hospital much. He always had money and nurses and nurses would take care of me.

Fu Shenyan basically came to the hospital every day and occasionally talked to me, but we all ended up fighting.

My abdomen bulged into a small hill. Sometimes I would feel it and stare at the ceiling.

Quiet lying in the hospital for a week, calculate the time, the child has been three months, my stomach seems to be a little pregnant.

In the next few days, a lot of things happened. Chen Xingfa's headlines, Lu Xinran's recognition of his ancestors, Shen Yu's return to Jiangcheng for development, many things, but I didn't pay attention to them.

I'm a little depressed, I'm a little frustrated when I'm lying in the hospital bed, and when I get to a certain position, I'll lose my hope for life.

Maybe the atmosphere was too low, Fu Shenyan was not willing to communicate with me too much, so he went straight out of the hospital.

Fu Shenyan

"What's the matter?" He wanted to ask, but I didn't want to.

There was silence in the car.