Lying on the bed looking at the ceiling for a long time in a daze, I came back.

I may be really sick, or perhaps, that extremely selfish, is the original me.

This

"Xiao Shu, will you listen to me first?" He put down his water cup, looked at me and said, "listen to me first, but you must keep calm, OK?"

"So..."

He nodded, looked at me and said, "well, I know you're worried about four seasons. We should go to four seasons."

For a moment, I looked up at him, "Shen Yu, we shouldn't talk here now."

He nodded, not too much.

After a moment of silence, I said, "I'll go to the hospital, but not now."

There is no way to cure the accumulated scars over the years. We can only bury them. After a long time, they are buried under the skin. It seems that there is no big problem. But once the wounds are pulled up, we can see the rotten wounds.

Most of the time, I have no way to control my anger and indifference.

Up to now, I don't know what's wrong with me. I only know that I'm not good now.

Not clear?

"Either leave him completely, or you go to the hospital, get psychotherapy, and start over with him. It's not clear that you are like him."

I was silent, looking at the glass in front of me a little lost, "so, what do you want to say?"

He sat up straight and sighed, "Xiaoshu, you know more about happiness than I do? You don't want to answer me because you have already begun to bear the burden and care in this relationship. No matter how you treat Fu Shenyan, you have a bad feeling towards him. In your heart, you still resent him, right? "

What is the definition of happiness? Happiness, if only can be defined by happiness, is the definition of happiness too narrow?

Life is so long, trivial is a story, since it is a story, how can there be no joys and sorrows?

I always feel that he is criticizing, which makes me a little fidgety. I can't help frowning and saying, "Shen Yu, can you tell me what is happiness?"

He pursed his lips. "Are you happy? It's not a question of whether it's good or not. "

I frowned, a little unhappy, but was staring at him, or said, "between me and Fu Shenyan, has always been very good."

"Just answer my question."

He suddenly looked at me seriously. I felt uncomfortable. I pursed my lips and said, "what's wrong with me?"

He raised his hand and touched his nose, coughed and said, "well, I did come to talk about the four seasons with you, but now the most important thing is you. The four seasons have Fu Shenyan, Cheng family and Shen family. Let's talk about your problems first, OK?"

I frown, some displeased, "Shen Yu, I thought you came to talk about the four seasons with me."

He poured himself a glass of water, looked at me and said, "Xiaoshu, are you happy with Fu Shenyan?"

Sitting on the sofa, I didn't speak, just waiting for his words.

I moved away and gave him a place to enter the room.

He gave a hum and motioned me in.

I raised my hand and pinched my eyebrows. Shaking my head, I said, "it's OK. Is there any news about the four seasons?"

Seeing my face haggard, he frowned, "didn't you sleep well last night?"

Fu Shenyan was not in the hotel. After washing, I was ready to go out, but I met Shen Yu who was ready to knock on the door.

I asked him tentatively, "so, have you found four seasons? Is that right? "

He nodded, but he didn't look well.