Chapter 252

[Koushaku] Ch 252 – Sudden News

There is a bad feeling about this .

Anyway, could it be that there was any movement in the Acacia kingdom . . . or something unwelcomed happened on the front line with the Twil’s country?

"What happened?"

"We won the war with Twil’s country . "

"Well . . . that’s really good! Why your face . . . "

The good news is not reflected on her face .

Rather it is safe to say that something disastrous happened .

"Yes, but Dean is . . . Dean is . . . "

She is scared to say it .

I mean, she must be upset that she him called Dean rather than Prince Alfred .

" . . . We also received news that Dean was killed"

In a moment, my world turned black .

. . .

" . . . ?"

I don’t understand her words .

Dead . . . What did it mean that he dies?

My mind refuses to understand . . .

But her words echo over and over again in my head .

" . . . Tanya . what happened to Dean?"

At my question, Tanya’s face gets distorted for a moment . . . but she immediately removes her expression and opens her mouth .

"It's said that he was killed by a falling arrow . "

"It's . . . . . . confirmed?"

The noise on my heart don’t let me hear well .

t's scary to hear her answer .

" . . . Yes . All the subordinates from each direction had similar reports . "

And to that answer, my heart was torn apart .

" . . . What a joke? Because of him we won? I never wanted him to go to the frontlines! So, what if the kingdom of Tasmeria has won . . . ! Why did this happen? Why??! “

With a sense of emptiness and extreme pain, I scream .

" . . . Why . . . "

The passion did not last long, though .

I wanted Tanya to tell me it was a lie .

I wanted to deny it as false information .

But when I look at her expression, I can tell .

Because, I have never seen this girl make a face like this .

My mouth shakes uncontrollably, and big drop of tears fall from my eyes .

. . . . . . What she told me, above all, I know that it’s an unmistakable fact .

A sense of loss and emptiness overcomes me .

With those emotions taking control of me, I lost all strength and was about to fall to the floor .

I quickly cling to my desk, in an attempt to recover .

At the same time, the documents that were on the desk went flying everywhere .

" . . . Lady . . . "

Tanya was approaching me, who was out of myself, step by step .

. . . . . . Stop, don't get close .

Don't make me remember it again and again with your face .

My heart screams and my body tries to move backwards .

But as she touched me, I couldn't move .

" . . . I'm sorry . Let me be alone . "

I squeezed the words out my mouth .

Tanya and Merida’s faces got distorted at my reply .

Oh . . . don't make that look . I would like to say . . . . . . I'm fine . . .

But I couldn’t say it at the end .

I stand up silently and walk out of the room .

Was this . . . our end?

I regret it so much . . . I was distracted trying to know if the way I headed was the right path or not .

Everything fades, and even though it’s visible to the eyes, we don’t take it as true, until it happens .

I don’t know what will become of me, I feel like . . . now all don’t matter anymore .

I walk supporting myself on the walls and get back to my bedroom somehow .

As soon as I opened the door, my strength went away, and I fell to the carpet .

"Dean . . . "

Big drop of tears left my eyes .

How long have I been crying like that?

I was stunned after seeing myself on the mirror but continued sitting on the spot .

When I noticed, the sunset was visible from the window .

. . . . . . I intended to rest a little as I laid in the bed .

Oh, but if I don't get back to work . . . such an idea pops up in my head .

However, my body can’t move at all, as if sewed on the spot .

I pulled out strength from no one knows where and sat again .

Speaking of which, every time I fell down exhausted or sick . . . the first thing I was worried about was work .

However, thanks to Dean's help, I always managed to manage somehow . More and more memories about him come to my head .

"Hey, help me . Dean . . . . Like all those times . . . "

Now, that I can’t get up from your loss, help me Dean . . . to continue without you . . .

I still have a pale expectation that he might appear suddenly, but . . . I know I’m only dreaming .

Even if this is just another moment when I fell, Dean will not come this time around .

. . . . . . Tanya said it .

Dean is dead .

He was killed by the falling arrows .

He died . . . he is no longer in this world .

Wherever I look, it’s a world without Dean .

I’ll never see him again nor talk to him anymore .

Thinking so far, I exhale to calm down my heart .

"Oh yeah . . . "

Tears overflowed again .

No, no, no . . . !

I can’t believe that he is gone . I don’t want to believe .

We won the war .

We won the struggle with Edward, as well as the war with the Twil’s country . But why . . . !

I pull my hair with all my strength and cry in silence .

I can’t hear his voice anymore .

I can’t see his smile anymore .

. . . . . . There is no one else for me out there anymore!

The world turned dark .

Sad, lonely, painful . . . .

Those feelings one after another afflict me .

My chest is painful . No matter how much it hurts, that feeling has taken root in my

heart and I can't help it .

The pocket watch on my chest shakes .

I took it out from under my clothes .

I still remember when he handed me this pocket watch .

Gentle and beautiful memories .

"Why . . . why . . . !"

A tremendous sense of despair accompanied by suffering as if I had lost my body overcomes me .

I squeezed it with force .

It’s painful, I don't want to admit it, and I reached out for the watch as if that could bring me back Dean .

But of course, Dean will never come back .

His image just floated in the air .

Bitterness is further raised .

I kept crying out emotionally .

Some time passed as I continued crying . . . I lost all strength once again and fell down .

I get up and tears overflow from my eyes again .

It's not a dream .

When will I be able to overcome this deep grief?

When will I be able to stand up again?

"Dean . . . are you here . . . ?"

I hate this world that made me lose the thing that was more important to me than myself, it would have been good if I never came here in the first place .

A black emotion erodes my heart and tears spill over again .

When I raised my face, it was getting dark outside .

. . . . . . as if it were a reflection of my heart .

A cloudy sky where no stars could be seen .

. . . . . . I hope another morning will not come .

It is good if a tomorrow doesn’t exist .

. . . because he is not there .

If he is not there, I can't stand it .

With this sense of loss, I will have to keep going .

I kept crying and fell again .