Each little song stings

In my colors I’ll cry all alone

Each little voice kills me more

Won't you stay here with me?

Enough about all that.

Caverns of self-pity

All I know is wallowing

I wish I could fix that

Wishes are for children

And I am a child

Are you a child?

All I want is attention

Everything is bad

Everything is good

I don't understand myself

Pity and apologies

I'm wrong

It’s all wrong

Why can't I just be happy?

so much wasted time and space

And it's all because of me

I’m a narcissistic bastard

I can't be happy

What's wrong with me?

Could I even enjoy anything anymore?

What’s happening to me?

Is anyone even there?

Please let me fly away, I'm drowning here.

(February 2019)