I was waiting for Audra behind the tree.

-peek a boo!

-oh you scared me. don’t be loud they may hear us.

-alright your majesty!

-don’t call me like that. I hate it.

We talked for about half an hour. I like it how she understands me all the time. I always stare at her eyes and forget everything else. I know I'm a cheater but I can't let her go. I'm addicted to her.

Audra hid behind the bushes when a maid approached us.

-is she gone?

-yes. Come out.

-I have to go. It's late.

I sighed:

-alright! Take care.

I smiled and she disappeared. I was dreaming about her and didn’t even notice that Caroline sat near me.

She sighed then I looked back. she said:

-oh honey did I scare you?

-Caroline! No no you didn’t.

I didn’t know what to say so I asked the first thing that came to my mind.

-did you sleep well last night?

She answered and I could feel the sarcasm in her words. She said she was dreaming about me all night long. That made me feel guilty again.

She spent the morning with me. It was like torture for me. I can't break her heart and also can't let Audra go.

I was tired of all these things. I wanted to run away with Audra. I can't stay here and watch Audra suffer. She loves Caroline so much. I don’t want her to suffer too. I'm the one guilty here but what am I supposed to do?

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I met Audra in the garden. she wasn’t energetic like regular days.

-what's wrong? You seem like someone's rejected your love.

I wanted her to laugh but she didn’t say anything.

-let's just talk to her. I know she will understand.

-what are you talking about? If you were her would you understand? Would you accept it when your husband and friend cheat on you?

She started crying.

-ugh! Please don’t. Crying can't change anything.

I can't deny that I was about to cry too.

-but we can't continue this forever.

She wanted to say something but hesitated.

-I will run away and no one will ever heard a thing about me. you can forget me and we wont break Caroline's heart.

-are you insane or something?

-I'm serious now.

-don’t talk nonsense please. I can't forget you. Do you even think about me? how can I live with someone I don’t love?

-then what should we do?

-I have no idea.

I always want to enjoy every second with her. When I hold her hands I forget everything else except her, but Caroline's hands just make me nervous and guilty.

What should I do?...