I get out of bed and put the book back in my Mom's room before heading outside to try and find Lucas. Sure enough he's right where I left him, cutting the Amphisbaena into pieces. I was supposed to do that so it looks like he got stuck with that job. Mom and Dad weren't in the house and they are not out here. Where could they be? Whatever, I have to apologize first.

"Big Bro!"

I call out to him. He doesn't turn around though.

"Bro!"

I call out again thinking he just didn't hear me, but he still is not responding. Is he ignoring me? Is he mad at me for how I acted before?

"Lucas!"

This time I grab his shoulder to get his attention. This time he whips around and slaps away my hand!

"Don't touch me you-you..monster!"-Lucas

"Wha-!"

What the hell is he talking about? I may have acted strange, but he shouldn't be this upset with me!

"Big Bro...I'm sorry for how I acted earlier so...please don't be mad anymore."

"I'm not angry about that! Did you think I wouldn't notice what you were doing!"-Lucas

Oh shit! He didn't see what I did, did he?

"What are you talking about!"

Just feign ignorance and pretend you don't know anything. Pretending is what I do best after all.

"What you did to that Goblin. I went inside to check on you because I was worried. Dad said you were napping so I peeked in your room. You weren't napping at all... How could you do such a horrible thing? I thought you were-"-Lucas

He stops himself mid-sentence before he could finish, avoiding eye contact.

"Do they know?"

He shakes his head. He knows who I'm referring to. Mom and Dad. It would be a disaster if they saw what I was doing. They might think I'm actually evil if they saw that now that I don't have Tayrn's blessing to blame for the way I act.

"They went to visit Aunty right after I went to check on you. Look at you, Cyril! You don't even seem to care about what you did! You are only worried about them finding out!"-Lucas

"I didn't know what I was doing! I just! I can't explain what happened."

I can't tell him why I did that. That I had an unnatural urge to hurt someone to that degree.

"Please, I'm just as confused as you Big Bro. I only came out here to apologize for the way I acted. Please please forgive me."

"Is that why you wanted to fight me? So you could do something like that?"-Lucas

He gives me a furious look like he was about to explode. I can't deny that. The reason being, that was exactly what I was going to do. I was going to beat him to a bloody pulp.

"No! No I would never try to hurt Big Br-"

"Don't call me that!"-Lucas

Trying to assure him I would never do something like hurting him I reach out my hand. Lucas pushes me away before I could even get close, causing me to fall on my bum.

"..."

"..."

Both of us just sit there in silence. I remain on the ground. Only staring up to Lucas not knowing how to react to the blow. He refuses to meet my gaze. Still looking as pissed as before his next words cause my heart to shatter.

"I won't tell either of them. Do not ever call me by that name again! Only my little brother is allowed to call me that. And you are no brother of mine! [Leg Enhance 1]!"-Lucas

After saying this he dashes away leaving a dust trail behind. He had to have used body enhancement magic, else he would never be able to move that fast. I remain as still as a possum playing dead before slowly getting up.

What the fuck did I do? Always... Always such a... Why do I always have to fuck everything up! You always do mess something up Cyril! You're finally happy and you sabotage yourself! Blood drips from my palms as I turn my hands into a fist, my nails digging into my skin. All this in an attempt to hold myself back from screaming my lungs off in fear of someone seeing me in such a pitiful state. I have to let it out! I have to get away from here!

So I run. I run as fast as my powerless tiny legs can go. Not being able to hold it in any longer I start crying the same way I did my first day here. This was all before reaching the gate. Luckily the same guards were standing at the front gate. They were taken aback by my crying making it easier to knock them out.

Still running through the forest while I uncontrollably cry I decide to come to a halt after running for such a long time. It has to have been at least twenty minutes since what happened. Unfortunately, I collapse to my knees as soon as I do. This entire time I was driven by my grief and anger to get away from my problems. This is the most extreme rage I have ever felt.

"ARGGHHH! GOD DAMN IT!"

I pound my fist with what little strength I have left. A sharp pain bursts from my hand as I do so. I don't even notice it.

*Thud*

"FUCK!!! WHY!! AFTER EVERYTHING!"

I can't help but remember everything that's happened to me thus far. The unbearable pain I recieved from my old parents. That stupid dog! Tayrn! And Those cock sucking insane morons that killed me! At first I thought the worst was behind me. I had a loving family. Parents that loved me. A brother that would do anything to set a good example for me and I betrayed his trust! I ruined it all!

Another slam to the ground.

*Thud*

"AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH! WHY!"

*BAM*

*Rumble~*

This time the ground rumbles when it comes into contact with my fist. Again, I don't notice.

"CAN'T YOU DO!"

*Rumble~*

"ANYTHING RIGHT!"

*BOOOOM!!!*

This time it isn't a rumble like before. An ear-splitting boom erupts from my clenched hand as I pound the dirt soaked with my own blood, the earth beneath me crumbles away, and a shock wave explodes from my surroundings knocking over trees.

"GOD DAMN YOU! SON OF A BITCH!"

A mysterious black mist begins surrounding my body whilst I curse at no one in particular. This anger has nearly taken control. What was grieff in the beginning has turned to uncontrollable rage.

Now it becomes completely pitch-black as that mysterious mist becomes a solid sphere around me.

(Don't you hate it?)

That same deep and assertive voice from back then resounds in my head.

"Who the hell are you! Get out of my head!"

I have been questioning my sanity all do so to hear a voice in my head doesn't help at all. I start banging my head against the ground now hoping this would make whoever the hell is in it fall out.

(You hate it right? You want your problems to disappear don't you?)

"Piss off!"

(I can make it go away for you! Just gIVE ME CONTROL!)

"I-I hate...I hate..."

I don't know what it is I'm supposed to be mad at. Is it myself? My parents? Tayrn? Lucas? With all these emotions swirling around it is hard to think. My senses are telling me not listen to this voice no matter what. If I give in then i know something will happen. Something I would never be able to live with.

"No! Did you not hear what I said?! I said PISS OFF!"

(AAAGGHHHH)

Using all the energy I have left to push myself to get up, I stand my ground in an attempt to rid myself of this aggressive voice insisting that I "Give him control". The black sphere that was once surrounding me disperses. Turning from a solid back to a mist before finally it disappears.

*pant pant*

At last, I pushed it away. Now how in the shit am I supposed to get home?

"Come to think of it....Where the hell am I...?"

Is the last thing I say before falling face first, passing out.