Chapter 14 – Cowardice!

That night again I had the same nightmare. This time it was a bit different than last. Darkness was everywhere. It felt like I was floating on it. I hadn’t lost the sense of direction though. A cube made out of glass appeared out of nowhere. I felt 2 different presences. Inside cube, wolf was going wild. It was running around, hitting glass to break out of it. The second existence didn’t showed itself, but I felt as if it was the one who helped me out when I was meditating in cave at Retnus Mountain. Wolf recognized me…

[Wolf]: We meet again.

[Me]: What are you here?

[Wolf]: I’m the result of what you imagined when you were blessed with the gift.

[Me]: Yours eyes seems to lust for blood but feel lonely.

Wolf got angered at my words. It went to the middle of cube and sat in a sleeping position. Its tail came all the way to its head. For the last time:

[Wolf]: I’ll take over when time is right. When that time comes these walls want to be able to handle me anymore. Get lost!

I slowly opened my eyes. I stayed in bed for a few more minutes. I stood up and changed my clothes. It was still dark and moon was ruling over the sky. I began to run. Daily training helped me to be at my top condition at all times. I did few laps around the dorms. Heard some kind of singing in my head. I thought I had headache so went back and entered males sector. Went to my room. Heard voices coming out of it. Listened carefully, from inside some kind of musing sounds were coming, as if somebody was trying to sing. I whispered “open” and the door unlocked. I opened it carefully and went in…

[Ulfberht]: My loooooooooove. I am lonelyyyyyyyy. (It was singing)

[Me]: You suck at singing Ulfberht.

[Ulfberht]: I was not singing. By the way, it’s Lord Ulfberht.

[Me]: There is no shame in it. Stop denying. It’s just you suck at it.

[Ulfberht]: You seem troubled.

[Me]: Yeah, I have few problems.

[Ulfberht]: Do not worry about the puppy.

[Me]: What puppy?

[Ulfberht]: The wolf. It does not mean any harm to you. Last time when you kissed with Mariette, it was cheering for you. Howled a bit. Hahaaa…

[Me]: You know about the Wolf?

[Ulfberht]: Of course!

[Me]: Would you please tell me more about what is wolf and what it is doing inside me?

[Ulfberht]: Maybe!? If…

[Me]: If what?

[Ulfberht]: If you admit that I have beautiful voice!

Ulfberht was childish.

[Me]: You have beautiful voice Ulfberht.

[Ulfberht]: Good. When the spell was recited to bless you with the gift, they asked you to imagine. Most probably you have imagined the wolf you had killed back when you were a shepherd. So the gift has taken its form as of wolf and happened to take its personality after what you thought wolf was all about. It couldn’t be blood lusty as it didn’t know what bloodlust is. So good or bad, it’s all your fault.

[Me]: Lord Ulfberht, may I ask you another question?

[Ulfberht]: Yes. You may Aslan. (This shitty sword had a thing for being praised. It had a wicked personality)

[Me]: I’m having trouble with handling you. I do not know what kind of sword mastery I should learn to be able to wield you perfectly.

[Ulfberht]: You know how you do imagine/want and mana engulfs your body.

[Me]: Yes.

[Ulfberht]: When you take me into your arms imagine that I’m part of you too. During I’ll be changing my form accordingly and you will be a sword master in a moment. There is no need to learn any martial arts because after we sync properly for first time you will have them learnt and engraved to your dumb and empty brain for good.

[Me]: Thank you, Lord Ulfberht.

He began to sing again. It was annoying.

I went to classes. For the next year I learned how to fly (wind affiliation) and make fireballs and throw them around. I wasn’t the best magus candidate but was better than most. I just didn’t have that much of interest in magic. Philosophy and history were fun. I learned how to handle Ulberht properly. Its original form is massive but during the fight while changing its trajectory it could minimize its size and get big again as if reading my mind. I met Roia, Mariette and Elise regularly. Didn’t make that much of friends on my first year, as I was soo into training that I tried to avoid anything else. Basic’s had to be perfected. 5th of Elaisis we celebrated my birthday. I was 14 now. My build didn’t change that much, I was skinny muscular type now. My height didn’t increase either. Days passed by fast.

It was 8th of Arkam, and we were told to sign up for school wide tournament if we wanted to participate. On 30th of Mut, tournament winner will be announced to public and first week of Elas graduation will take place and limited number of students will be sent to as interns to respective stations of workplace by the 25th of Elas. 30th of the Elas, annual full moon will take place.

In philosophy class we had a hot debate about the number of issues but the most intriguing was mine with another fellow students called Asim. It was about saving people in extreme situations. He was son of some high court courtesan and looked down on everybody.

[Asim]: It is illogical to save a kid from a high level demon in our state as it now.

[Me]: Why?

[Asim]: Because, we wouldn’t be able to save it. Moreover we would be killed too. Don’t you understand if we leave then there will be only 1 casualty, but if we got ourselves involved the toll will increase to 2 deaths. Which option should you choose?

[Me]: Let me rephrase a bit. If that kid was your close kind, let’s say your little brother. Would you still chose not to be involved in it?

[Asim]: Of course, I would try to save my brother. That’s brother what you are talking about.

[Me]: In that case the death toll would be 2. But I don’t care about that. What I want to know is does your brother as a fellow human being is more important than somebody else who is not related to you? Is it right to compare humans and value them? The reasoning what you refer to as logical in simple words of us, the village people, is called none other than cowardice!

Next: Chapter 15 - Black