It's now February 26th, a friday. Gilinsky is out at a free meet and greet to promote his new album at the grove, and I was online looking for jobs in graphic online designing on my laptop in the living room. That's what i majored in community college, in four years I learned so much so why not get a Job? I don't want gilinsky to be the main source, even if he has six figures.

Have we came out yet as a couple? No. but at this point i've gotten used to it, god knows when it'll happen. He knows i love him for HIM, so i'm ready when he is.

The dogs are also on the couch with me, each has probably gained 3 pounds lately, peter just looks like a cute marshmallow, and Rick looks like he ate our whole pantry. I'll ask Josh to walk them then take them to the groomer, he has a car and has taken the dogs places, so that's cleared.

I'm looking into google, Bing, and Apple. I've worked for small things like smaller companies just starting, I even helped design the album cover for cardi Bs latest album, well i helped filter the colors and such online but it counts 100%.

Josh has been a pretty good man. I still don't know if Gilinsky has spoken to him, but we will see one day, it still creeps me out a bit. He's cleaning our bedroom right now, I think almost about done.

Rick the dog is basically my best friend when V isn't here. She's just on her last two days of vacation, she decided to go to portugal for two weeks with her sister and best friend. From photos it's beautiful! She always sends me videos of herself and as well as we facetime.

Minutes later Josh comes down the steps, weirdly enough he was quiet. He had on a T shirt with a purple butterfly and regular work pants and shoes, the ones Mr. Gilinsky has always told his workers to wear.

He just hit 2 months here with us! Time has been flying but man, before you know it I'm gonna be on tour with Jack. He's just never upset looking or quiet, he usually is always happy.

Looking up from my laptop I decided to brighten him up.

"Hey Josh how you doing? How was upstairs?" I question with a smile, rearranging my glasses.

He didn't answer and proceeded to look straight ahead with no smile or emotion. He can't be ignoring me.

"You there Josh?" Still no answer, he picks up a trash bag and furthermore makes his way to the kitchen.

I knit my eye brows together. Is he mad at me? I didn't do anything this past week I have been pretty quiet but nothing too seriously.

The kitchen door closes and I'm still sitting there questioning what the hell just happened, trying to fit two and two together. Running my hand through my blonde hair, I decided to follow him in the kitchen. I don't do well with bad blood or stress , i promise the moment after we clear up this whole mess it'll get back to reality , I just hope it's nothing too serious.

I stood up and adjusted my 'you matter' yellow hoodie and jogged on over to the kitchen to meet him over there.

"Yo Josh whats up? Are you okay? You've been kinda off all day today." I lightly chuckle, getting a water from the fridge.

"I don't know Johnson what do you think?" He quietly snapped wiping the stovetop, clearly upset. I was instantly taken back, i've never seen this side of him, like i said he's usually always bubbly.

"What do you mean? I'm very confused."

"Dude you almost fired me. Mr. Gilinsky told me how it was rude of me to barge in your guys room new year's day, and how I made you uncomfortable. Plus how I've not been doing the best job at cleaning the dogs area or dusting the TV. Why didn't you just confront me about it? This job is all that I have with my dad struggling with money, to make ends meet." He ranted, his voice was high and anger filled, along with his face being red.

My eyes grew wide, I'm guessing gilinsky just now let him know about today?

I was honestly at a loss for words.

"Josh i promise that wasn't my intention, I was just a bit creeped out. I apologize for not confronting you about it, you are a good worker, maybe gilinsky was just heated up in that moment of time. It's february and he just now told you about it." I try and clear up, I know why he would be angry but it certainly isn't that big of a deal.

"You should of fucking told me!" He slammed the wiping cloth on the floor, I jumped back from the startle in me.

"I-I didn't mean for that. Anyways, just don't take everything to heart Johnson. It's never that deep." He wiped his hands on his face, clearly in a bit distress.

"Josh calm down. You are overreacting, I told MY boyfriend how I felt and he just wanted to let you know it wasn't so appropriate. One little confrontation isn't gonna kill you nor fire you. You are dismissed." I sternly ordered him to go.

He dryly chuckled and picked up the cloth, throwing it over his shoulder.

"I cant lose this job. And you can't lose mr. gilinsky." He whispers walking out, shutting he door behind him. Silence stood in the kitchen as I stood there now surprised what just happened. He's such a sweet guy and he's only been with us for now two months. Maybe he's having an off day but shit,

What the fuck is that supposed to mean?

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Jack and I were on our way to Jon's houseparty, yet of course stuck in he middle of highway traffic. What true LA is. We were driving in his convertible Audi, which he basically gifted to me so I was driving, but I don't want it fully under my name because i wanna work for my own car. I want to buy myself a Tesla once I get the money of course, I see it in the near future.

I will say though Jack and I looked absolutely great, Like damn we know how to dress.

(outfits right here hehe)

I picked him up from the Meet and Greet so we are headed straight to the party, just gotta make a quick stop at the liquor store to get more Bud Light.

"How was your day babe? I feel like i've been talking too much about myself hahaha." Gilinsky giggles as he gives a squeeze to my thigh while he's holding it.

The light california breeze went through his hair and it was just a picture perfect moment you know. The sun setting, Joji playing softly on the radio, the breeze, and the perfect man. Moments like this make me wish I could stop time to admire.

"Well, you know, it was there." I shrug, not wanting to tell him about the josh scenario, I didn't want him to overreact.

He rose an eyebrow. "Oh come on JJ, there's bound to be something eventful that happened today." He says turning down the music just a tad bit.

"Really Jack it wasn't that eventful of a day, I mean I took a small swim and I did apply for a job at google, so those are always nice." I smile, looking straight at him because of the non moving traffic.

"That's something! Okay what about Josh, how'd it go with him? I finally sat down and spoke to him two nights ago about him walking in and how you didn't feel comfortable. Did he say anything?"

I gulped and just shook my head, like I said I don't want to cause something or drama right now, It's Jons birthday and parties are always great! Good vibes tonight.

"Nope he was nice all day! Truly G." I smiled, adjusting my glasses.

Soon enough the traffic started to move again and we were on our way to the party.

-

We walked into the backyard and instantly smell the hookah and the speakers blasting drake. Party staples for Jon. He was turning 28 and lives in a small but comfortable home in Anaheim. The backyard was pretty nice and wide, Most definitely was over than 20 people here, including our friends like Tyler, Bobby, and Sam. Some instagram models were here that I recognized from Jacks DM requests that would try to get at him, couple of Youtubers, and probably friends of his.

"Aye Jack and Jack have arrived!" Jon exclaims coming out of the home with beers in his hands, handing us each a corona light.

"Happy birthday Jon, you seriously are one of my best friends who's been with me for a while now, how does it feel being 28?" Gilinsky goes in for a hug, he returns it quickly and takes the beer from my hands as I said hi and happy birthday.

"You know, I feel the same to be quite honest with you, but more and more everyday i become grateful i'm alive." He nods, looking up to the sky.

"Anyways, thanks for coming! make yourselves at home, of course the hookahs outside, fifa in the living room, and Sam just finished cooking up some burgers and links." He smiled, walking off to go chat with other guests.

Gilinsky brought two joints for us as well so we could do that, but for now I do wanna have some fun.

"JJ Im gonna go grab some food, Ive barely ate all day. You hungry too?" Jack asked taking a whip of the alcohol.

I've just eaten some chips plus breakfast, so I think I'll just join him and eat a burger.

I smile and nod along, following him up the two stairs to get into the house.

The house was honestly so beautifully decorated. It has yellows walls and pictures hung everywhere, for sure he's family man. He does have a girl, but I don't exactly know when he's proposing.

-

It's now 12:30 am, gilinsky is high and a bit drunk and me, well i was a mess.

I'm guessing the food didn't settle well mixed with a joint and alcohol with a bit of hookah. I've thrown up two times, and it was all just the food I ate. I don't think I can handle this anymore.

I walked over to Jack who was using the hookah and talking to Bobby. The smell of it even wanted to make me sick again. Sweetened fruit punch.

"Yo G i think imma take off. I seriously feel sick as a dog and I just need lots of rest." I explain, over the bumping J cole music.

His face looked saddened as he was high, but still. My poor puppy.

"Are you gonnna call a Uber? Fffor my sake imma sleeeeep here." He tried to explain but slurred the words.

I chuckled and nodded yes, he'll just drive himself back home in the morning.

"Okay well bye bye JJ! I will miss you so much!" He smiles toothy and blows a kiss. No one still knows we are a thing, but everyone's drunk or high at this point, or dancing a lot to notice.

I waited on the front step and soon enough the uber came. A blonde haired woman maybe in her late 30s. looked sweet but also tired. I said hello and got into the backseat, just ready to go back home into my bed.

-

I walked into the house with pure tiredness and just slumped, with a feeling of wanting to throw up. I instantly made my way upstairs to my room, probably to get some medicine and vomit again.

I closed the door and threw off my hat and jewelry. As I was getting undressed, I went to get the medicine to help with the hurting.

Minutes later I was finally just in my boxers ready and tired to get into bed, as I was on my phone looking on instagram. Then here it came again.

I had to throw up.

I sighed loudly which was a bad idea, led me having it come up my throat faster. I threw my phone on my bed and ran to the toilet. What the hell is in me?

As I was puking my brains out, I heard fast footsteps coming into the room. It was josh. Look at that.

"Sir oh my god lemme help you! Are you okay?" He called our kneeling down next to me rubbing my back, as I was vomiting.

Ain't this an interesting duo?

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