It was a picture of me kissing johnsons head as we were on the couch cuddled that V took for us a month ago. The caption being "After so many months of keeping it a secret, it's here. Singer Jack Gilinsky and I are dating. We love each other so much, he's the light of my life and can't wait to continue this journey! And yes this is real haha."

Who the fuck told him it was okay to post? I'm not ashamed of him, i'm not embarrassed but him but I was going to come out with us dating on the first show of tour. And he just posted on social media? I don't even want to check my other social medias. People are going to hate on him, people are gonna find all of his information, people are going to be total douches about this and he didn't get that clearly.

And why the hell didn't he tell me? Or ask? Like this is personal shit, I would of said no but a heads up would of been nice. God I could scream right now.

As i'm sitting on the ground rereading the caption for about 10 minutes, my manger, Sandra, calls me.

With so much hesitation, I shakingly clicked the green button.

She quickly hung up the phone and I sighed, sitting up from the floor.

I decide to read the comments, might be a terrible idea.

A few were nice, saying that we were cute together and they are proud of us, which did make my heart smile I will admit. Other ones, not so much.

"Fags!"

"Come on, Gilinsky can do so much better than you"

"So he went from a hot, thick model to a scrawny white boy? Get a tan at least"

"Lmfao dude you're ugly, this shit gotta be a joke"

This is exactly what I was scared for, him getting too much hate. Plus him having anxiety doesn't help at all, I don't even want him looking threw these. What the hell was he expecting from posting the picture? All love and support, all good vibes? Clearly he doesn't know the internet.

Minutes later, I heard J humming a song as he came down the stairs to answer the postmates that just arrived. I'm not sugarcoating anything, i'm so pissed and I'll let him know.

About 2 minutes after, he walks in the kitchen with a smile, along with the bagel bag.

"Morning babe! You okay?" He asks, pausing in his footsteps to ask how I was. I bit my lip and shook my head, dry laughing.

"Am I fucking okay? Did you think I was gonna be 100% okay with this or what?" I dryly laugh and speak with my voice raised, not so much yelling, yet.

He gave me a confused facial expression, and looked down at the bag. "I thought you loved bagels G..." He said raising an eyebrow.

I walked over to him and ripped the bag out of his hand and placed it on the island. His face grew a tad bit worried, as I was getting upset by the minute.

"Stop playing dumbass Johnson. You didn't even bother to ask, or wait? God I could break something!" I ranted, using hand motions to add emphasis to this.

"Honey calm the hell down. What did I do? I just got down here and you're yelling at me!" He defended himself, touching my shoulders. I move away because I really don't want to be touched and open my phone to show him the post HE posted.

His eyes went wide and and mouth parted, like he's seen it for the first time. It's from his account I know he's seen it before.

"Gilinsky I..." He trailed off and shook his head.

"Did you think I wouldn't notice? You think my whole career doesn't revolve around the FUCKING internet? Well wake up and smell the roses JJ! It does!" I shout basically throwing my phone at him to catch.

"Jack you think I posted this? I was puking my brains upstairs and fell asleep right after! I don't even know how my phone got downstairs!" He argued back, setting my phone down on the island. I shook my head continuously and put my head in my hands.

"Johnson I cant stand when people lie, especially you, the man i love. Stop bullshitting these lies because I know you did it! God you don't understand." I shout.

"Jack you have to believe me, maybe someone hacked into my instagram or icloud. I barely remember last night but i would remember doing this!" He pleaded trying to hold me but I walk back.

"You don't fucking get it do you. I wanted to wait and tell the media at a different time. But you had to go out of your way and post." I said between my teeth, trying to hold all my anger in, clearly not working.

The worry in his eyes grows larger and as well in his voice. He hates me being angry but I cant do anything about that.

"LISTEN TO ME! I wouldn't post without your consent. Besides even if I did, why are you so worked up? You embarrassed of me? Don't wanna be seen with me?!" He asked, now getting frustrated and upset.

"Don't you dare try and turn this on me, you know that shit isn't true. You know I love you more than any being on this earth. Just admit it Johnson, I'm fucking tired!" I yell tugging my hair and putting my hands on my waist.

"I cant admit anything because I DIDNT DO ANYTHING! IT WASNT ME!" He yells, closing his eyes and knocking the air out of his own lungs.

"You are hurting me so much right now JJ. I'm fucking out. Call me when you learn not to lie." I shake my head and start walking out. He quickly walks in front of me to stop me from leaving the kitchen.

"Baby listen to me please, why can't you believe me? I promise you it wasn't me." He pleads, tears forming in his ocean eyes. My heart aches and I just want to hold him in my arms, but why does he continue to lie? I close my eyes and shake my head. "Johnson I need to go get the hell out of my way."

He doesn't listen and just wraps his arms around me, crying. My eyes water wishing I wasn't feeling so betrayed and hurt. The sent of his guava shampoo filling my nostrils as his blonde hair tickles my nose.

"I don't want to hurt you Jack. Please, get out of my way." I sternly say, peeling him off of me. I walk out and grab my keys from the side table.

I usually go to this deserted area by the Hollywood sign, watching over the city as I figure my stresses out. This one is going to take a while.

A/N

HEHEHEHE CONFLICT HAS ERUPTED! This is just the beginning of it, so buckle tf up! Also im so ready for summer to come!

- M !!