I couldn't believe what I was seeing. "O-Oh my god oh my god oh my god." I shake my head, wanting to sob and scream. Gilinsky instantly moved his head to get out of the kiss and looked at me straight in the eyes. Josh looked at me as well, smirking for whatever reason. They let go hands and G started to slowly walk near me. My blood was boiling at this moment.

"JJ baby you're back-"

"Don't you fucking call me baby. You bastard how could you!" I yell, throwing the bag of skittles to him, I wanted to hit his head. But of course my aim didn't work in my favor.

"I never posted the fucking photo what more do you need to hear to believe me! You clearly weren't worried I was gone, what were you going to find me in our home cleaners mouth!" I yelled, walking over to him. I started pushing him, hitting him with the stuffed dog I had in my arms.

Josh fled the scene and ran upstairs, probably to not get involved with our drama.

"You asshole you pig!" I yelled. I used my anger to hide out the tears wanting to spill out of my eyes, my sobs wanting to escape my throat. The room was still dark and the moon was the only light, as well as the sounds of rain hitting the windows. He didn't bother to work this out with me, not even on the phone or text?

"JJ calm down for the love of god I can explain please!" He called, backing away to not get hit, but I made sure not to miss him. He put his arms out and everything, but I was so so angry in the moment. I didn't listen, just continue to hit from frustration.

"Johnson stop for the love of god!" He tried ducking to miss the hits of the plushie. "You were the one who went to Dylans after this fight! He made your life a living hell why would you go back? For comfort sex? To get him back? This was one fight!" G rambled, standing up straight.

I stopped hitting him, and gave him the most confused facial expression I've ever given. Since when the fuck did I go to Dylans? The last thing I would do is go back with an ex who almost drove me to kill myself. "Where the hell did you hear that?" I asked, scrunching my eyebrows together.

"Josh told me before you left, you were mad and upset and said you were going with him. See I'm not all in the wrong here JJ! How could you be so stupid!" He yelled and spoke with his hands. This fucker can't be this stupid, there's no way.

And why did Josh say that? How does he know who Dylan is? How does any of this make sense? "Jack I swear I never went with that idiot! I went to the fucking beach to let off steam and anxiety you gave me. You think I am THAT stupid? Real thanks big boy. After everything you know he put me through!? I've never even brought up Dylan to Josh!" I spoke loudly, speaking with my hands most of the time.

"You're blaming me for shit i never even did! Jack you know how terrible my anxiety is please how could you? Plus you are kissing another man? OUR HOUSE CLEANER TO BE EXACT? God I can just run away from you." My voice breaks down towards the end of my sentence.

A long pause happens as I wipe my tears with the plush. You could hear a pin drop from the silence. But now it was just the rain on glass.

"I just want to make sure you didn't do that shit J. And I didn't initiate the kiss it was all Josh!"

"You didn't stop it. You don't want to be with me for things I never even did. You believe these lies instead of your boyfriend who loves you? Of course you do this is your career. Money and fame, you can't ever lose that."

"Johnson can we just talk this all out please. We can be mature about it and figure it out. Now if you need to own up to anything, go ahead." G spoke sighing, putting his face in his hands.

I dry laugh and shake my head. He won't let it go? He genuinely thinks I did it all? It makes me sick to where i want to throw up, why can't this be just a terrible dream?

"You won't let it go huh? Jack fucking Gilinsky thinks I, his loving boyfriend, did all of this. I've given you my absolute everything. I've told you things i've told no one and you think I did something to hurt you. I love you more than I've ever loved any single person or object. Clearly you don't feel the same. You believe pure lies, and you kissed another man." I dryly laughed and wiped the tears streaming down my face.

"You said you loved me and you kissed another man. I've given you the world and you laid your lips on him." I whispered. I started to back up slowly, dropping the plush dog.

"JJ don't say that. You know I love you, you know I didn't mean it. Can we please talk this out?" Gilinsky spoke.

"I cant get the image out of my head. You and him kissing. Or of you yelling at me like I killed your most expensive dog for something I frankly never did. Jack you broke my heart, you made me feel so hurt and betrayed." I spoke.

"J-Johnson we can work this out. We can hear each other out, we can resolve this can't we?" He said with hesitation in his voice I continued to walk back as I reached the entry way to the door.

"You know, I've broken up with a few people for hurting me, because as you should know people love to stomp on me. But never once, did I think I was going to break up with you." I said, more tears streaming down my face.

His face fell, as if you just told him a sad story about death.

"No no no JJ please don't do this. Please you're the best thing to ever happen to me we can sort this out." He shook his head and ran up to me. Jack intertwined our hands to together and I shut my eyes tight. I couldn't face to see him like this, but I felt so betrayed.

"Please let me go I can't bare to be here with you right now Jack. I need to go." I say determined, pulling my hands away harshly. I go to the door and turn the nob, finally going out into the poring rain.

I fall straight onto my knees and the wet soaking concrete from from the rain. I let out huge sobs as I cry. I just lost the best person who showed me amazing things i've never known.

I fell on my knees as I heard the door close.

"How could I be so stupid! I just lost the best thing ever in my life." I cried as tears streamed down my face.

This was all my fault.

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