Translator: Fringe Capybara

Chapter 109 - "I have the same nightmare almost every night." (3)

He wanted to be honest. That might be helpful to Chen Jin’s diagnosis and treatment.

Hearing that, Chen JIn’s eyes widened. He didn’t feel embarrassed as a doctor but he was surprised.

As a man… and with Lu JingYan’s age, it wouldn’t make sense to assume that he was still a virgin. But Lu JingYan wasn’t a quiet man who didn’t laugh a lot and usually looked very cold. It wasn’t usual to see someone of the opposite gender around him and he just seemed like the type who was very refrained.

Chen Jin thought he might have to emphasis that area to him when he was closer to 30 but, to his surprise, the very refrained Lu JingYan has already had experience.

But, judging from his “I feel that”, he didn’t even know who the girl was?

“It was an accident?” asked Chen Jin.

“Yes,” said Lu JingYan, his face blushing slightly. “But I am a big part of the reason. This incident… bothers me a lot. And this might also be the reason that she is avoiding me.”

“Why do you feel that she’s the one? Judging from what you have told me, you don’t have much memory of the girl.”

“Hunch? Plus…”

Lu JingYan paused a little.

“The intimacy part was also part of the dreams,” he said.

Chen Jin wasn’t sure if he was truly seeing what he was seeing. It seemed that Lu JingYan was smiling.

Chen Jin couldn't help but chuckled.

His words, were so subtle.

He nodded.

“One on hand, she is avoiding me. On the other hand, I also don’t want to share with her what I’ve seen in my dreams.”

Speaking of his dreams, the look in Lu JingYan’s eyes deepened.

The way they were displayed was too realistic and he relived it again night after night.

He had never seen a girl that was so breathtakingly beautiful – yet her ice-like skin and jade-like bones were reduced to nothing but flesh and blood in front of his eyes night after night. It was so ruthless that it made him feel suffocating.

Instead of flashback from memories, Lu JingYan would rather that be something that had never taken place.

Let it be a figment of his imagination or premonition that defied science.

That way, he’d at least have a chance to stop and alter it.

But if it was something that had already happened.

Regardless of which dimension or timeline…

He wished that she’d never find out.

“Thank you for sharing that with me. I will do my best,” said Chen Jin solemnly.

“Mmm, thank you.”

“I am going to need you to do a test tomorrow. Heart palpitation and fluttering are normal symptoms. And if the car accident might not have actually taken place, you also need to try and convince yourself that the scene was not real.” Chen Jin pulled out Lu JingYan’s medical record and jotted down some notes. “In addition, Jiang Chong had me relate a message before he took off. He said a woman by the name of Chi Ying said she is willing to come and take care of you if necessary.”

Lu JingYan looked up after he heard that.

Catching the change in his eyes suddenly, Chen Jin asked, “Is that her? Chi Ying?”

There was silence in the air.

“Looks like she wasn’t completely avoiding you. Should we have her come over?”

“No, it’s fine,” said Lu JingYan as he shook his head.

Being sick was unplanned. Guilt-tripping her as Jiang Chong has suggested wasn’t something that he wanted to resort to.

He didn’t want pity from her by showing her his fragile side.

Her fragility was already enough to pain him.

Even though he knew she would not worry about him, he did not want to risk the change of making her worry about him.

***

Risking being fired, Chen Jin still decided to pay the girl by the name of Chi Ying a visit.

He liked his job a lot. Not only did Lu JingYan offer him a handsome compensation, Lu JingYan was a very charismatic man that attracted him to him. Except that Lu JingYan was cold and always kept a distance between himself and others. Most people would be intimidated to get close to him. And this job provided him with that opportunity.

With a doctor’s professionalism, he would keep his promise with Lu JingYan.

He would not point-blank tell Chi Ying about Lu JingYan’s condition, but he did plan on asking indirect questions to see if he can get some information from her.