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Will

I wake up extremely comfortable. My eyelids however, feel crusted and my eyes feel swollen. That's when I remember last night; Masons dad and every awful thing he said to me, to Mason, to Hank. The way Mason hit him and forced him to sleep outside.

Then I remember Mason. The way he brought me to bed and kissed me, told me how perfect I was and called me baby.

I blush lightly before cringing because the conflicting memories go together in the worst way possible.

Mason hums and his chest vibrates beneath me "you awake?"

I nod slowly sitting up but Mason's hand tightens "I wasn't saying get up"

I sigh "I have to, my eyes hurt" he looks unhappy, but not at me.

He sighs "I'm sorry" I shake my head rubbing at my eyes "don't apologize...I'm sorry I was so...So upset last night"

Mason scoffs "you shouldn't apologize...ever"

I sigh at that and get up walking to Mason's door but he jumps up "hey! Don't..don't go without me" I bite my lip "you locked him outside remember"

Mason grunts "fine"

I step out of the room and head to the bathroom.

Mason leans against his doorframe watching me. I close the bathroom door and rise my eyes and pee before coming back out of the bathroom.

I'm only two steps down the hallway when Hank barrels into me giving me a tight hug. I almost fall over and Mason grunts but I hug Hank back.

He pulls away and sighs "I'm sorry our dads an asshole and for what it's worth I think your totally a good use of space catboy"

I feel a small smile the first one in a while tug on my lips "thanks Hank" he grins and nods at Mason "should we check on Shawn?"

Mason doesn't look too excited and Hank holds up his hands "listen I don't really care, but I figure if he's dead you might want to...I don't know hide the body"

Mason shakes his head scoffing "yeah yeah"

I turn to Mason "Um..uh my uh clothes?" He nods "yeah I'll grab them" he walks away and down the stairs coming back a minute later with my clothes.

I go back in the bathroom changing before coming out and handing him his clothes which he then tosses on the floor is his room.

I nod "okay..uh I'll um walk home" Mason lifts a brow "walk home?"

I bite my lip confused "uh I just...I thought you were taking Hank to school"

Hank laughs out loud behind me "Mason take me to school? Please he doesn't let anyone on his bike not even his sweet little brother!"

Mason rolls his eyes "Hank is going to catch the bus and I will take you home"

Hank's eyes widen "what?! No way your going to let him on your bike?"

Mason grunts "Hank shut up" Hank grumbles "fine whatever I see how it is"

He turns to me "you better watch your back catboy"

I roll my eyes and Mason slaps Hank's arm "let's go dipshit"

We all three walk downstairs and I cringe the minute I make it to the bottom. The memories of Mason's dad here yelling at me, shoving me, and hurting Mason not good ones. Mason puts his hand on my back and pushes me forward.

Once we get to the door he grabs Hank by the collar and pulls him back making him yell "hey! I wanted to see if he was dead"

Mason gives him a look "he's not fucking dead" he unlocks the door and steps out turning and peering down at Shawn.

Hank of course shoves his way out and his eyes widen "he looks dead"

I move to the door turning to see their dad. His body is exactly where Mason left it, his face covered in dried blood.

Mason kicks his boot and Shawn groans "fuck off" Mason rolls his eyes "he's not dead"

He turns heading off the porch and I pull the door closed following him. Hank starts running down the driveway and I lift a brow but Mason just rolls his eyes "his bus is driving by"

I look up and notice he's right. Hank just barely makes it onto the bus and Mason grunts "alright c'mon" I nod and follow him over to his motorcycle. He holds out a helmet for me and I bite my lip nervous.

Mason of course notices and lifts a brow "never been on one?" I shake my head "n no" he smirks "you'll like it" I bite my lip unsure I agree with him but get on the bike anyway. He starts it and I tighten my hands around his waist significantly. He chuckles and pulls out of the driveway.

It's not a long ride to school and by the end of it I'm more comfortable. I get off the bike and hand Mason the helmet he nods "good?" I bite my lip smiling lightly "I didn't die" Mason chuckles and I turn to head into the school but he grabs my arm.

"Will listen..before you go. I'm done" I tilt my head confused "what?"

He sighs "I'm done with you."

I bite my lip not understanding, but not liking his words. He doesn't give me any chance to ask because he walks away. I blink feeling incredibly confused and angry. Was this because of last night? His dad? I shake my head, he's done with me?

I force myself not to cry and follow him into the school slowly. I let him get way ahead of me until eventually I can't see him and have to stop at my locker. The minute I do Jenna is at my side.

"What the fuck Will?" I pause "uh..what?" Jenna crosses her arms "don't play dumb where we're you last night? Gage asked me if you made it to school and I lied for you!"

I cringe "Oh I was.." the bell rings and I jump "I'll tell you after class" Jenna glares "you better" I nod promising her I would and rush to my class.

When second period comes Jenna is eager as ever to grill me, but our teacher has other plans. Of course today is the day she chooses to have a quiet period with strictly "no talking". I thought Jenna was going to burst at the seems but the time lunch rolled around.

She grabs my arm and practically drags me to the bleachers. She shoves me so I'm sitting and glares "so spill"

I chuckle awkwardly "um well...so on Friday" she lifts a brow "Friday?" I nod "after the party I maybe might have well..I made a move on Mason" her eyes widen "no fucking way what happened?"

I shrug "he left.., but I felt so bad all weekend so Sunday I went um to his house" she lifts a brow "okay?" I continue "but I had walked over and it started to rain so I was soaked and Mason told me I couldn't walk home in the rain, but I couldn't call Gage because how would I you know explain that so I ended up spending the night at Masons" Jenna's eyes are practically falling out of her head "no way so you boned?!"

I shake my head quickly "no! We just slept well..he uh" I don't want to say the word so instead I pull the collar of my shirt down and let her see the hickeys Mason left on me. She grins "damn Will" I bite my lip blushing.

Jenna holds up her hand "so this is great and all, but what is it? Are you two a thing then?" I shake my head "no" I bite my lip dropping my gaze thinking of Mason's words this morning.

"Mason um...this morning he said.." she lifts a brow "spit it out Will" I cringe "he said he was done with me" I hate the way my cheeks heat and I can't stand to look at Jenna because I know what her face will show; Pity.

She crosses her arms "are you fucking kidding me?! That ass hole! Is he a complete idiot?! yes! He is!"

I bite my lip "it's fine jenna" she grumbles "it's not fucking fine!"

I sigh "okay" she shakes her head "I'm sorry Will but you have shitty taste in men!" I cringe "okay" she sighs "damn I'm sorry Will..I didn't this must suck for you"

I shrug "I'm fine Jenna" she looks sad but knows I don't want to talk about it so she sighs "okay let's eat" and that's what we do.

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After lunch we head to third and for the first time ever I decide to skip a class.

I stop Jenna in the hallway "wait.." she gives me a look and I freeze "I don't...I don't think I can go in there" her eyes widen "shit are you okay?"

I bite my lip shaking my head because suddenly I'm feeling overwhelmed by so many emotions. Jenna quickly rushes to me and starts ushering me back outside.

Once I get outside I breath in the cool air in gulps. Feeling like I was suffocating inside. Jenna rubs my back and when I finally calm down I lean against the wall before sliding down it sitting and leaning my head back.

"I'm an idiot" Jenna shakes her head "Will Jackson you are not an idiot!"

I look at her "really? I'm not?" She bites her lip and I nod suddenly angry and every emotion I've yet to feel over the situation with Mason.

"I'm not an idiot for pining after the boy I'll never have?! Or maybe for letting myself fall hopelessly in love with him?! Or allowing him to sneak his way into my bed! To cross boundaries I knew would hurt me! Or am I not an idiot for not caring. For being willing to do it all over again for even a second of his time?!"

For the first time in my life I swear because I'm angry.

"I deserve every fucking pitiful look you give me! I am just a fucking waste of space!"

At this point I'm standing again and Jenna is looking at me eyes wide and full of concern and sadness.

I cringe "shit Jenna I'm sorry" she shakes her head "your allowed to feel Will"

I shake my head "I didn't mean to yell" she sighs but that's the moment Gage decides to make his presence known.

"What the hell is going on?" I cringe Gage is going to know somethings wrong.

I bite my lip trying to think of the best excuse I can come up with "I uh..failed a test" Gage flinches at my response, but my eyes have slid over to Mason whose standing next to him.

His gaze isn't on me and I can't read him but suddenly all I want to do is turn and run.

Gage grunts "and your a waste of space for failing one text?" I wince at his words "Gage I'm just...I'm having a bad day okay why are you even here?"

Gage chuckles but it's humourless "you didn't show up to class. You never skip class" I bite my lip "I needed space"

Gage eyebrows lift "from what?!" I cringe more like from who and it's the guy standing next to you.

I sigh "Gage please just go back to class" Gage look conflicted and Jenna moves in front of him "Gage I got this, you should go" Gage is angry but I just drop my gaze to the ground not wanting to see Mason. Not wanting to see anyone.

Jenna mumbles something else, but I only look up when I hear Mason "Gage." Gage nods and reluctantly turns to head inside but he looks at me for a moment first and I nod to tell him I'm alright.

The minute there gone I turn to Jenna "well that wasn't humiliating at all" she sighs "who cares Will, it's his fault he should know he upset you. He deserves to feel like shit" I cringe because even after Mason ripping my heart out and stomping on it I don't want him to feel pain or sadness.

I sigh sitting down against the wall once again, and this time Jenna joins me. I turn to her "thank you" she tilts her head and I continue "your a good friend" she smiles "your better than anyone I know Will" I crack a smile at that.

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