I tried to roll over on my side, regretting that decision for two reasons. One it hurt like a bitch, my ribs feeling as if they were put through a blender, hit with a meat crusher and my muscles stiff as a board. And the worst of all, I rolled over to an empty bed... She's gone... instant sadness filled me, not knowing why she wasn't next to me, and if she wasn't here than where was she...

I sat up, grunts escaping through my clenched teeth as even getting up hurt. I lifted up my sore arm to throw a nervous hand through my bedhead, moving my messy hair out of my face and of my forehead. I needed to think because this situation being the empty space in my bed was seriously stressing me out. Maybe she didn't mean it... Maybe she did want to break up and did she just say she loved me so I wouldn't freak out on her... seriously what else could there be...I hoped she would just be wandering in the house somewhere at 11:30 pm. Her phone isn't on the nightstand, so she definitely left, why? Jesus I'm freaking out now.

I grabbed my own phone from the nightstand, immediately going to my favorites to call my snowflake. Come on, pick up, pick up. Nothing, as I only heard the phone going straight to that annoying voicemail. Pick up Bells. I bit my lip trying another time to reach her but still nothing. Fuck!Abandoning the call I straight went on to message her, desperately needing to know where she was.

: Bells, where are you? I don't know what happened to make you leave me, I thought everything was fine between us...? If I did something wrong, tell me. Please tell me...

I clenched the phone between my hands, staring at the screen for the worst 30 minutes of my life, every second counting for an hour. Midnight, it's midnight and I still haven't heard from her. I let my head fall back against the headboard, a lump in my throat making me feel miserable and the tears stinging at the corners of my eyes not helping either as I thought about how loving we were in the shower as she cleaned the cuts on my face, my fingers explored her skin, making me forget the pain.

I took a deep breath in an attempt to calm myself down, my heartbeat speeding and pounding in my throat, pure panic that's what it was. I had a strange feeling, I felt lost, worried, desperate maybe, no definitely.Isabella, where are you? I heard myself mumble under my breath, calling her. I scrunched one knee up, bringing it to my chest so I could rest my chin on it, wrapping my arms around my leg.

Bells why the fuck did you leave me? My mind was making me think about every possible scenario all of them useless as they all ended the same, with her gone and nothing I could do about it, I just needed to know why... I felt my eyelids becoming heavy as I stared at my phone. Fucking 1 pm. I don't understand... I can't be without her, she's the only one who understands me, who gets me, sees me, loves me for me and I love her even more... Isabella please.

I buried my head in my folded arms on top of my knee, feeling as if I was floating on a cloud of self-pity, wishing this was a dream...

Almost wandering off to the deepest of my thoughts I faintly heard the front door fall shut, footsteps approaching my door, but at this point I had given up all hope. It was only until the door opened, which made me cock my head up and I saw her tiptoeing through the door, I believed I had really gone crazy. She was engulfed in mist of moonlight, the only thing lighting up the room making me wonder if I was dreaming...

Her eyes met mine, not sure if she saw me as I was sitting in the dark, but the feeling of her eyes being real made the hair on my bear arms stand up and a chunk of sadness fall of my shoulders, liberating me from the worst feeling in the world. She came back.

"Lukas, you're up?" She whispered. She just stood at the edge of the bed, almost afraid to come closer.

"You were gone all of a sudden..." I shook my head with confusion written all over my face. "I called you, texted you. I was freaking out!" I exhaled, finally able to breathe as she came closer, sitting down at the edge of the bed, her hand caressing my foot and ankle through the sheets. "I thought you lied and left me after all..." I shrugged my shoulders before pushing my hair back.

"My battery died...Lukas I would never!" She said, but the darkness was hiding her expression, making me unsure what she was really thinking. I reached for my nightstand turning on the little lamp, giving me enough light to get a look of her face. Her green eyes were surrounded by red veins, which made it look like she had been crying for the last couple of hours, she just looked so drained and exhausted, her straight blond locks hiding her beautiful face.

"Where did you go Isabella? You've been crying..." I tilted my head to the side and sighed, scooting closer to her to push her hair behind her ear, immediate frowning my brows to find her cheek red with a clear hand marking it. "What the fuck! Where did you go!?" I asked her, my tone panicking which seemed suiting as I was actually freaking out. I grabbed her chin turning her face more to the light so I could see better, shaking my head at the redness tainting her beauty. Instead of answering she looked down, avoiding my gaze. "Tell me..." I begged her as I ever so slightly chook her chin to grab her attention. "Please." I said when she bit her lip, trying to hold her words to herself.

She looked up, taking a deep breath before parting her lips. "I went to see Drew at his frat house." I didn't even bother looking at her expression, my mind simply went into overdrive, letting myself fall back against the headboard, not even feeling the pain in my ribs or any other part of my body.

"You did what?" I said, my tone emotionless, thinking this couldn't be real.

"Lukas, please hear me out!" She panicked as she crawled onto my lap, straddling me but I still felt nothing, not even looking her in the eye. "Lukas." She squealed, taking my face between her tiny hands. I grabbed her wrists, looking at her, really looking at her this time, her face desperate to explain.

"You went to see him." I frowned my brows, internally exploding with frustration as I wasn't asking but stating. "Are you really that fucking stupid!" I shook my head, pushing her arms apart so she had to let go of my face. Why would you fucking do that!

"Let me explain!" She said, as those words were the beginning of her sobs, her hands frightfully longing to touch my face again.

"Go ahead! Fucking explain Bella. Fucking explain why you went to see him after you know how dangerous he is!" I huffed, still keeping her hands at a distance.

"To make sure he would never hurt you again! This needed to stop Lukas, I was furious about what he did to you, I wasn't going to let him get away with it this time." She cried, tugging her wrists away from mine, letting her hands fall on my stomach and I could see how disappointed she was with my reaction. But my reaction was justified... She wouldn't have to protect me if I hadn't failed to take care of her. It isn't up to her to confront him; she needs to stay away from him as far as fucking possible....

I shook my head, trying to shake her words out of my ears. "And he did that to you?" I nodded towards her red cheek, swallowing the lump in my throat.

"Only after I hit him." She filled in the blanks quickly. What the...

"Bells, have you lost your fucking mind!" I scoffed, shaking my head as she desperately fidgeted her fingers against my stomach. Her bottom lip started to tremble as her eyes met my angry ones. "You know how violent he is! Why hit a dog that has already bit you! That's just dumb! That's stupid, reckless I don't know what else but Jesus Bella!" I yelled at her, making her lip tremble even more, making me regret all the anger I was spewing at her.

"He almost killed you Lukas! I had to do something!" She said frowning her brows at me before wrapping her arms around my neck, her body falling into mine.

"And I'd rather die than you losing one hair on you head." I said, tilting my head to the side so my temple would touch her ear. "I don't want you near him Bella. Please..." I begged her, my arms wrapping around her waist to keep her close, making sure she would never slip away.

"I promise." She whispered, pulling her head back slightly to rub her nose across mine, forcing me to close my eyes to take in the sensation.

"You scared me." I whispered, leaning in, closer to her lips, brushing mine against hers ever so slightly.

"There's something else I need to tell you..." She said, wrapping her arms around my neck more, so her face was pasted against my collarbone, afraid to look at me. Shit, what now.

"What?" I said, the words leaving my mouth in a dry and sour way.

She kept her face snuggled against my body as I felt her lips part against my skin. "You didn't want to go to the police and I couldn't report your assault for you but I could report mine. They asked me questions for hou-"

"Bab-" I interrupted her in shock but put my lips in a straight line to let her finish.

"For hours... They can't do much because I didn't report it immediately and other reasons that don't make sense to me, but the school will get notified about his behavior. That's good right?" She finished, pressing her face against my skin, scared how I would react if she let go.

"Unbelievable! They can't do much? He should go to jail for what he did to you! Baby, what about your parents? What if you're registered as a missing person and your name pops up all of a sudden... What if they find you?" I said, panic lacing my voice, the lump in my throat making it hard to speak. I can't believe the police... how they just can dismiss a sexual assault like that!

"That's a risk I'm willing to take if it means he can't hurt another girl. She spoke against my skin.

A thousand thoughts were going through my mind but one needed to roll off my tongue. I gently took her head between my hands, pulling her away from my shoulder to meet her green eyes, her tired but always loving eyes. "I'm proud of you." My voice almost cracked.

"What?" She said like it surprised her. "You're not mad?"

"No, not at all. I mean I'm disappointed that you had to do it behind my back, but that's what I get for overreacting all the damn time. That's not your fault. None of this is your fault. I'm proud of you." I whispered, bringing her lips to mine, kissing her lovingly. "So, fucking proud." I urged against her lips, closing my eyes to enjoy the touch of her fingers running over my scalp, holding my lips close to hers.

I needed her and I let her know by deepening the kiss, running my tongue over her bottom lip before taking it between my lips, stealing her breath. Her hands searched for my cheeks, her fingers sliding over them, making my head move into the direction she pleased, and I let her, loving the way she took control. My hands were as longing as the rest of me, hard on included. At least that's not broken. My fingers desperately searched for the hem of her hoodie, my hoodie she could steal from my closet any time of day. I caressed her lower back all the way to her neck, halfway being stopped by my hormonal brain. She isn't wearing a bra. As her lips were working their magic on my mouth her tongue exploring it with passion I trailed my hands to the front of her, feeling her hard nipples against my palms as I took a handful of her, rubbing them, making the throb in my lower parts become unbearable. I needed her, whether or not it would make my injuries worse, pain wasn't something on my mind at the time. One hand slipped to her lower back, my fingers finding their way into the back of her legging, widening my eyes and stopping our kiss when I feel nothing, nothing was the point. "You're not wearing underwear?" I pulled back, staring at her wet and swollen lips.

"They were drenched, because you thought it was a good idea to throw them on the floor in the shower." She said lifting her brows, trying to explain.

While the fact she wasn't wearing any underwear made me stiff, damn it was so sexy I also thought about the fact she went out like that. "Bells, you went to a freaking frat house wearing absolutely no underwear?" I shook my head.

"What was I supposed to do?" She said, shrugging her shoulders in my oversized hoodie.

"I don't know, not walk in there." I huffed while my hands slid over her thighs, feeling the softness of those seductive leggings.

"Oh, stop moping Lukas." She said, smashing her lips against mine, preventing me from saying anything else that was an outlet of jealousy. Her lips attacked mine, not wasting time as she grabbed my lip between her teeth and let it pop back.

I chuckled at the way she shut me up like that and I wasn't going to put up a fight. She could have me anytime, anyhow which gave me an idea. "Well, then we should prevent it in the future." I whispered against her lips and it made her pull back. "Why don't you leave some clothes here, underwear, that kind of shit. You know just in case you need them." I said, pushing her blonde locks behind her ear.

She pouted a little bit, which was so irresistible and cute. "So, I can't wear your hoodies anymore?" She slightly whined.

I pecked a quick kiss on her pout to cheer her up before whispering against her lips. "Sure, you can, raid my entire closet if you want to, but at least you'll be wearing underwear underneath them." I chuckled seeing the cheer in her green eyes. "It does something to me seeing you in them. Like you're really mine."

"I amreallyyours Lukas." She whispered and it made my stomach erupt with tingles and fuzzy things.

"I know but still, it sometimes feels like a dream." I whispered, adoring every inch of her as my arms wrapped around her to pull her body against mine, putting pressure on the poking bulge underneath the sheets. I hesitated for a moment but then I decided to let her know. "You always make me so damn hard." I whispered in her ear, my nose grazing her cheek.

She faced me, sitting upright on my lap, only to lean in to paste her lips against the skin in my neck, her tongue leaving a trail of wetness. "I can feel that." She giggled against my skin and I pushed my hips up, making her feel it even better. I took a sharp breath when her lips attacked the crook of my neck once more, making my mind go wild. "I'm imagining you sliding inside me right now. Going in an out." She whispered in my ear. Her sweet but dirty words making my cock twitch. Shit. I let my head fell back with pleasure, enjoying the sound of those words coming from her throat, sounding longing almost craving. "Going deep, so you can feel all of me." She whispered again, her words so well chosen I could see it happening in my mind.

She sat up, not saying another word, and I opened one eye to see what she was doing. She just sat on my lap, her hands on my stomach with a grin on her face. "What?" I frowned, looking at her with hooded eyes.

"Too bad you only get to fuck me after a visit from the doctor." She giggled and I cocked my head back, exhaling deeply.

"You need to stop doing that Bells, you're going to give me a nasty case of blue balls." I shook my head, an unexpected smile lingering on my lips. I couldn't help but to secretly love the way she teased me, making me want her even more. I just looked at her, leaning in to kiss the tip of her nose softly. "Come on, under the sheets with you." I urged her to crawl under the sheet with me and she slid of my lap just doing that. And I was happy she decided not to undress, because having her next to me completely naked, that would have been pure torture. She was lying in my arms her head on my chest and one leg over my body. "Sleep, so we can go to the hospital first thing in the morning." I smirked, grabbing her butt cheek to pull her even closer to my side and it made her giggle.

"You are..." She started, looking up to meet my gaze.

"Incredible, amazing, funny, caring, hot, irresistible... Yeah I know." I chuckled, while pulling her into my arms to kiss her forehead, holding on to the sound of her laugh as I stretched my arm to kill the light. When I heard her breathing heavy, I could finally close my eyes knowing she wasn't going anywhere.