Renmen's POV

When Nicolas said that we will be spending all day together it was literal. I have spent more time with the intimidating man than I ever have. While going places and visiting people I got to know him better. Like why he hates his family so much, the reason was because they use him.

And he never had a good relationship with his father, but he has an endearing love for his mother. Apparently his father is an alcoholic who has been in and out of rehab, he was known for being abusive towards his mother and him. I had sympathy for him.

I'm guessing that's were Nicolas gets his hot-temper. I made sure we went to my mother's place. I haven't seen her in a while and I miss her exquisite cooking. Nicolas decides to wait in the car. I could understand why, since my parents don't feel comfortable with him around. As I walk up the creaky stairs of the apartment complex, my body slightly shook with mixed feelings.

My trembling right hand balled up into a fist, but before they could make contact with the wooden door, I hesitated. My anxiety, fear, and angst clogged my throat, I swallowed and ignored the unnecessary feelings. Seeing my manman's warm expression forced me to jump into her arms.

I decided not to tell her about the kidnapping. I hated lying to her, but I didn't want her to worry more than she already is. I was glad that my father was in his AA meeting right now. It was still difficult to face him. We had conversation for an hour, while I ate her mouth-watering coconut cream pie. Her presence made me forget all my past sorrows. I wanted to stay longer, but I had to consider Nicolas who was waiting in the car. I already felt bad when talking two hours or more with Amy at her place she just wouldn't let me leave, she even bribed me with pho. It was quite hard to shut her down.

Even though he told me to take my time, I still felt guilty. Plus there is plenty of time for me to visit her again. I said goodbyes while manman forced me to take more coconut cream pie and beyen. I said my final goodbyes, not forgetting to leave her money despite her protests. When sitting down the passenger seat, I got settled in and finally turned to stare at Nicolas. His attention was so focused on the papers inside a beige file folder that I don't think he noticed that I entered the expensive car.

I study his perfect features and admiring them. Instead of a perfect quiff that he usually has, his hair is in a mess, but it still fits him. He seemed quite relaxed and peaceful. Honestly, this man's face doesn't have any imperfections and it kind of irritates me. I was wrong when I thought he didn't notice me in the car because he finally spoke. I jumped slightly from his sudden deep voice.

"Hey, you ready? Why don't we finally get something to eat? I made reservations. Or do you want to order in? Whatever you want"

I finally got out of my stupor, and softly responded.

"Uh, well ordering in doesn't sound like a bad idea. Why don't we just pick up some food? I have been craving some hamburgers and French fries."

I licked my plump lips just imagining biting down on a hamburger made my stomach twitch in anticipation. Goodness, I'm so hungry and I hadn't had a hamburger in a while. I started to bite on my bottom lip and looked at Nicolas because he hadn't said anything. His expression was definitely not his usual stoic one. His eyes were filled with heated lust.

I didn't know what to do at the moment. His light eyes were focused on my lips and his whole body was tense. Want and desire were so obvious in his demeanor, a nervous shiver ran down my body and stopped at my toes. His clenched jaw was a sign of him holding back. I then reacted by burying my face in my warm hands and I turned away from him. Soon enough Nicolas did something, by releasing a deep chuckle. He threw the papers in the back. He finally made a short statement, his voice was deeper than normal and laced with need.

"Well hamburgers it is then."

Nicolas opened the door for me to enter the mansion. Helen was missing because Nicolas insisted for her to take the day off. So it was only me and Nicolas at the moment. I put my mother's food in the fridge, while humming. I was too excited to have some food in my system. I guess my excitement was obvious, because Nicolas was looking at me in amusement.

My face was hot with embarrassment. He walked up to me in the kitchen and gently placed his hand on my cheek. I was glad that I didn't flinch from his touch. His soft, yet somewhat callous thumb ran across my cheek. A soft smile was on his flawless face, the statement that came out his rose colored lips made my insides melt.

"I'm glad your spirits are up. It really killed me to see you in so much pain, the person I want to spend the rest of my life with shouldn't ever have to suffer. You mean so much to me. Yes, sometimes my love for you is too much for you to bear. But do understand that you are the only person to keep me grounded and make me feel alive."

His words took my breath away. I couldn't reciprocate those sweet words back. But it did leave a burning tingle in a pit of my stomach, and the feeling was wonderful. I didn't know what to say, he is being so gentle and sincere. I just looked up at him, my lips a bit apart. This man who made my life a complete hell, is now the same man who is making my bitter hate for him slowly crumble away.

I still stood there with no response. Nicolas just looked deep in my green eyes, forcing me to do the same. The admiration and adoration that Nicolas just declared was so easily exposed in his eyes, that it made my knees tremble, I wasn't prepared for this. Then Nicolas plants a soothing kiss on my forehead and walks away, heading upstairs to take his shower.

I honestly stood in the kitchen for about 5 minutes, shocked beyond belief. I forced myself to be more composed and I started to set the food on the marble table. I took a swig of my milkshake, while sitting my bottom on the chair. I couldn't wait anymore so I started to eat my dinner, savoring the taste. When Nicolas came down, I was already done and ready to also take my shower.

I quickly glanced at him. Nicolas had a towel around his neck, his hair was drenched and dripping with water. He had gray sweats on, but shirtless. In fact, his shirt was on his shoulders. Why couldn't he put his shirt on? Goodness, why do I even care if he has his shirt on or not? Defined muscles made him even more appealing, I forced myself to quit scanning his body, especially when I caught a smirk on his face.

His body, aroma smelled really well. I squeaked when I realized how close he was to me. How did he even get this close? I was dizzy with nerves in his presence. He was so nonchalant like he didn't just spill his heart to me. I couldn't look at him, I was afraid what my expression will reveal. But I could tell that he was drying his hair, which made his muscles flex.

"How was the food?" He suddenly asks. His tone of voice was somewhat mocking. As if he knew how much he is effecting me. I stammered my answer and quickly ran upstairs to take my shower. When I was done and squeaky clean. I wanted some of my mother's pie, it was only 6:45 p.m. When I took the pie out, I noticed Nicolas was picking a movie to watch.

"Do you have any movie suggestions?" He asked me his eyes still fixated on the screen. I immediately thought of a marvel movie. I had a nervous reply

"I h-haven't seen Guardians of the Galaxy yet. I heard from the kids in the d-daycare that it's pretty good. Do you want some pie?"

"Sure love, I would love your mother's pie. Alright come sit next to me when you are ready."

I didn't want to sit next to him, because I wouldn't be able to focus on the movie. The living room light was somewhat dim. I handed him his pie and sat next to him anyways. I didn't want to seem rude. I shifted uncomfortably next to him. When the movie started we ate our pies. The sweetness made me less tense and relax closer to Nicolas. I giggled at a scene in the movie, then I noticed Nicolas is looking at me instead of the movie. I shyly glanced at him. Then looking down at my plate, I was sad that the pie was almost gone.

"Hey Renmen." Nicolas called out to me and I looked up at him. I tilted my head to the side, wondering what he wanted.

"You have some cream on the side of your lip." I thanked him and licked the left side of my lips. I didn't find anything, a little confused and embarrassed.

"Not that side Renmen. Here, let me help you." I wasn't paying attention to the evident closeness of our bodies. I was sitting next to him, my thigh touching his and my body is a little bit facing him. Before I knew it Nicolas was licking the cream off my lips. I was appalled and I didn't register the fact that his arm was wrapped around my waist. I was about to say something about the situation, but my lips were swiftly captured by Nicolas.

At first it was just soft and simple kisses, but it quickly got heated. Nicolas was getting restless and desperate to have more access to my warm cavern. I refused and tried to escape from his embrace, but it's not easy. He was such a good kisser, and I was slowly giving in. He nibbled on my bottom lip which made me whimper in need, but I still kept my mouth closed. I felt that, if I allowed him access, then there was no going back and I don't know if I was ready.

I yelped when he cunningly squeezed one cheek of my full behind. I squirmed in heat and trembled when Nicolas slipped inside my mouth, his excitement was apparent when he pulled me up on his sturdy lap. I melted in pent up pleasure, I shifted in his lap and tried to weakly push him away. But that only made the situation worse, because Nicolas growled.

The sound made me submit and just relax in his embrace. When Nicolas unlocked his lips from mine and started to rain kisses on my neck. A gentle moan escaped my trembling and sore lips. Then and there I knew there was no going back.

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