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I can't believe it's really the end of this book...again...

Editing the book truly made me fall in love with everybody all over again. I'm going to miss the characters so much. They are definitely my favorites.

I'm still amazed at the fact that this book was inspired from the song Me & U by Bracket. That one line in the song that I've put in the last epilogue has always touched me in a way that I couldn't describe, but I finally found how with this book.

I'm not going to lie, at first I didn't know what I was doing with this story. I just knew that I wanted a book with a dark chocolate couple because you don't have a lot of that here...or y'all need to give me book recommendations ASAP.

Then when I had an idea on the direction I wanted to take with this story, I wasn't sure that it was going to please anybody. It's more chill and was definitely more matured, at least for me. And by matured I mean getting away from everything I wrote since I got on this website.

I'm more than tired of all the ''thug'' books. A man can be more than that. Mainly our black Kings. I think it's important to show them in another light, and that's what I did with Chresanto. He was never involved with the streets life, was not a womanizer, got sexually abused in his childhood (well actually a lot of men went through it but won't talk about it and that's why it was a main topic in the story), is a bit more in touch with his feelings compared to your usual macho man...he was so different and I liked it.

Apparently, you did too.

But it seems like y'all didn't enjoy Ebony just as much and I'm not going to lie, I was sad about it. One author that I follow here once made this comment about how readers are so quick to jump down the female characters for whatever they're doing and after observing it in different books, I have to admit that this shit is actually right.

It just reflects the way women are treated in this society.

Whatever we do is way more criticized than what men do. And a good example for that is the whole cheating situation. When it's a man, people easily found about two thousands excuses to explain why he did that and when it comes to a woman, she's a whore, she doesn't respect herself, etc...

It seems like a lot of readers weren't understanding Ebony. It seemed like the readers didn't understand why she was quick to accuse Santo of cheating, even though there were a lot of elements that explained it. Or they didn't get why she was on her guard when they were still in the talking stage. She was just trying to protect herself.

If you didn't notice, Santo and Ebony were the same, the boy and the girl versions of the same individual. But I guess it was more normal for him to act a certain way because he got sexually abused (?) But...Ebony went through abuse too.

After pieces of her past were exposed to y'all (before she even told the story about Scott), for some reason people were still annoyed with her, even when her behavior was kind of justified. And by kind of justified, I mean you could see why she was acting a certain way.

I'm not saying people were wrong to feel the way they felt, but after living a childhood where you were rejected by people because of your skin tone, got cheated on in your first serious relationship, was rejected by your biological father, mistreated by both biological father and step-father, witnessed your mother getting abused, etc...you wouldn't have acted like she did ? Like when Santo was getting the phone calls and acting weird about it ? I know a lot wouldn't be cool with it if it happened to them.

After editing and reading the book again, I feel like it was easy to understand her behavior. But hey 🤷🏿‍♀️ it is what it is.

I'm not trying to come for anybody's neck, but understand that my characters are my babies so I feel overprotective over them 😩

But other than that, you showed mad love to this book and I'm extremely thankful for that. Without you, I don't know if I would have finished it. I say, it's important to write for yourself in the first place, but getting feedback is really an extra motivation to go through the whole process.

If you go read other of my books, where I can see that you analyzed the story plot and characters. Don't apologize for leaving long paragraphs in the comment section, it's always appreciated...except if you're being rude. Then it's deleted and you're put on mute.

Sometimes it really gets discouraging to write on this website because readers don't really give feedbacks. When I read books from other people I see that readers are more trying to make jokes in the comment section instead of truly read the story, in-between the lines.

I find it so annoying when some readers are like: ''it's a book, why y'all writing so much in those comments 🙄''

In my head, I'm like: ''bitch then what the comment section was put here for ? '' 😑

Or they be like: ''I'm not gon' read all those long comments ^^, y'all doing the most.''

Girl it wasn't for you in the first place 🙄 ! The writer will appreciate it, don't worry.

I spend months making up my characters and the story in a way where I'm then putting those characters in certain situations for people to analyze all those elements and be like: ''oh I think such and such is acting this way because they went through this when they were little...''

As a writer, you feel like you did something when you're getting deep comments like this.

I have to say though, you did that for me with this book. And all the comments saying that I inspired y'all to fall in love and give a chance to love...

Or that you won't accept a man that offers less than what Chresanto has...

And to see people reading, commenting and voting seconds after I updated a chapter...wow, wow, wow !

Or when you're saying that you can relate to this or that, it's so pleasing. Yes, I principally write for myself and my own fun, but to know that I got a message out there or touched someone is so awarding.

And now to find out that people are willing to spend their coins to read my book 😩😭😭😭 I can't take it. Thank you so much ! If you know other authors that write Urban/black love books and are participants in the Wattpad Paid Stories program, let me know so I can support ☺️

Thank you all so much for making me feel so special 🥰

Thank you so much. You made this journey an amazing one.

Will I write a sequel or a spin-off ?

Well...

I have a lot of other books that I want to upload so I'm going to focus on that first but I'm not going to lie, I got some inspiration after editing the book. I want to write another book to put more focus on Ebony and her healing process because this book was more focused on Chresanto's. I remember that left a comment talking about that and this comment stayed in my mind since then.

So, a sequel might come. But I'm promising absolutely nothing.

But I know for sure that I won't write a sequel about the kids. I won't change my mind on that.

What do you like the most about their relationship ?

For me: I like how they took their time to get to know each other and weren't rushing to do anything. And the understanding they had with each other, even if sometimes they weren't exactly on the same page but they could communicate without talking.

Did you peep how they started claiming one another without having the ''are we girlfriend and boyfriend'' talk ? Ebony jumped from 0 to wife in less than a year 😝 Yes, honey ! 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾 And when they're spending time together, they're always catching a vibe. I just love them so much, and if I ever get into a relationship, it needs to be like this.

I tried to give as many details as I could in Epilogue 3 so y'all could see where they're at now. Hopefully, y'all enjoyed.

I really appreciate you coming along with me on this journey. It was real, it was exciting, it was joyful, it was perfect.