Last night I moved in to this apartment, everything was already settled in here so I didn't have any problem in adjusting.

Sitting on the couch I was watching the news.

Till the morning Simon's death was all over the news but his killer is still unknown.

I shook my head... well not unknown to me.

"Officer James Kennedy confirms that the dead body found is of Simon Cameron's. He also told us that he killed the person who was behind all these murders on the spot but was unable to save Cameron's life. The officer says the name of the killer cannot be revealed. Hence, the case is now officially closed."

Everything was set-up so well. No wonder it took Rafael 10 years for this plan. None of his men were killed nor any in prison.

There was a knock on the door, I looked at the clock once... It showed 7:30 pm.

Expected.

Getting up from the couch I made my way towards the door and opened it. There he was holding a bag in one hand and wiping his hair with the other.

Once he smiled at me then entered the house.

"Can I get a towel and my sweats too?" He said.

I nodded and went inside the washroom to get him a towel and then to the cupboard for his sweats. When I came back, he was all shirtless. I handed him the towel and also the sweats.

"It's raining heavily." He said while rubbing his hair with the towel.

"You didn't have to come, it's not like I will get myself kidnapped if you didn't show up for the day."

Once he turned to me "I know I didn't have to but I wanted to, there are few things I need to talk about." Saying that he made his way towards the bedroom.

I peeped into the bag just to find pizza boxes and cokes.

Remember the night when Rafael and I had sex and after which he very politely asked me to leave. The thing he told me after listening to which I was completely shocked as to what is this man.

"There is only one way to get Simon, to give you away."

And you are going to do that because you already made a deal with him.

"But you are not going anywhere. I don't want to risk your life for my needs, so I am not giving you to him."

I was shocked af to listen that.

But he just made a deal. Is he going to betray Simon?

"Simon very well knows I won't give you to any of his men even if he turned himself in. But my problem is Mom, she'll definitely try to kill you."

His mother is gonna kill me? Why? And how the fuck is he still calm after knowing that!?

"You don't have to worry I have everything planned for you."

Okay he has plans for everything.

"The night I'll tell you, you have to run from here. You are very good at sneaking out I don't think you'll have much problem in getting out of here. Still for your convenience I'll be taking care of Connor. We'll be in the basement you can take that chance and get out of here."

I was about to question him, where would I go getting out of this place but he raised his finger stopping me.

"I am not done yet. Getting out of the house you'll directly wait in the car for me. I don't trust anybody when it comes to you Hazel, so I'll take you to some other place myself. Before leaving the mansion, you'll be writing a note for everyone just to be sure why you left. Once everything is sorted, you are free to go anywhere you want but till then you have to stay in an apartment. No one's gonna question you about Simon because no one yet knows that Simon Cameron has a sister, it's only Kennedy he'll be taken care of."

Everything was crystal clear. I didn't have any questions for the first time in my life. And that night when I fought him, before leaving my room he gave me the signal, and the signal was...

-"Tonight at 8, you know what to do."

And I followed his order for the first time, I managed to get out of the room but yeah before leaving he also left his car keys for me, I was waiting in his car and after James Kennedy left he dropped to this apartment the same night.

Rafael came out of the bedroom in his sweats and his upper body shirtless. Till then I was already settled with the pizza on the table.

He took a seat on the couch beside me and picked up a slice of pizza.

"Are you having any problem in here?" He asked.

I took a bite from my slice and shook my head.

He nodded.

"Will you be staying the night?" I asked biting my lips.

He looked up at me "Why?"

I shrugged "Nothing specifically, just asking."

I don't feel like eating anything, though how hard I try to pretend I am fine the truth is I ain't a bit fine.

I lost Simon last night. I lost my brother who loved me the most in this world. How the hell am I supposed to be okay!?

I didn't take another bite from the pizza instead I placed it down. I could feel tears in my eyes ready to fall any moment.

I tried hiding them from him "I need to use the washroom." Getting up from my seat I was about to leave when he held my hand.

"You can share it with me."

How? You won't understand. You hate him.

"What are you talking about?" I said acting like I don't understand what he wants to say.

He was seated on the couch, he turned me around holding both my hands, I tried to hold back my tears. He pulled me closer and wrapped his hands around my waist, resting his head on my belly. He just held me like that, didn't say anything.

"Rafael?" I called.

"I know how it feels, to lose the person you love the most. I know how it feels to get betrayed by a person you trust the most. I know how it feels when you don't have anyone to listen to you and you are just left with yourself all alone. I know this feeling so well Hazel."

I felt a drop of tear dropping from my eyes.

"I-I did something today." I could feel the pain in his voice. He continued "I killed Mom."

Listening to him, I wasn't just shocked I was beyond shock.

He did what?

Pulling away from him I looked down, he had tears in his eyes "W-What?"

He killed his own mother? Why?

"Why?"

"I had to."

"You had to? What is wrong with you? You killed your own mother? She loved you Rafael. Why would you do that? N-Not everybody has a mother and when you had her, you are telling me you killed her."

I don't have a mother, he was lucky to have her and he killed her.

"I don't regret killing her." His eyes were red but still watery, which was enough for me to understand he was in pain and he needed me.

But before doing that, I need answers from him.

"Why?"

"She betrayed us. She was the one who helped Simon, she stabbed Dad, she says Ivy was a price which she had to give to them in order to make me the leader, she let them rape my sister, when they killed her, when they killed Dad, she was happy. Simon didn't leave her, she was with him and how could've he killed one of his people."

I stared at him for a moment.

I am tired, really tired of this. Someone betraying the other. One thing I am sure about now that in the mafia you can't trust anybody.

"When they left her alive I thought atleast I have someone, my family but after knowing the truth I couldn't let her go Hazel. I couldn't. I would've been a very bad brother if I punished Simon and not her." A drop of tear fell from his eyes. "I know how you are feeling right now, I feel the same, I think your pain is much worse than me because the person who killed your brother is standing right in front of you. I'm sorry."

Again he hugged me with his head on my belly "My sorry isn't enough for all your pain but Hazel, Simon did bad to Ivy if I didn't kill him it could've been someone else, it was too late when he realized his mistake... after he was powerless with all his men dead, he realized what he has done."

I didn't hug him neither did I say anything, no I wasn't even crying. I had so much pain inside of me but I wasn't able to cry.

He pulled away then got up from the couch cupping my face in his hands he spoke "You need to cry, Hazel."

My gaze didn't leave his "I can't feel anything."

"Just cry, please."

I shook my head.

"I'll listen to everything you have to say, just let it out."

He picked me up in his arms like I am some baby leading us both to the bedroom, he placed himself on the bed with me on his lap, his back rested on the headboard.

I rested my head on his shoulder while he held me in his arms and I didn't even realize I was already crying.

"Why did you have to be in the a mafia? Why did Simon have to be in the mafia? Why did you both have to be enemies? Why did Simon do so bad to you? Why? I wanted both of you in my life, I wanted both of you to be a part of my family." I cried more.

"That's the problem I have been telling you since the very first day you can't have us both."

I looked up to meet his gaze "But I wanted you both in my life."

He didn't reply instead he made me lie down on the bed, and himself laid beside me "I am tired, let's get some sleep."

I moved a bit away from him on the bed but was being pulled back towards him. His hand wrapped around my waist possessively while with his other hand he tucked the strands of my hair behind my ear.

"I was thinking something."

I stared at him asking him what.

"If you don't have any plans for your future... I mean if you don't want... No." He was struggling with his words I don't know why.

"What?"

"I mean if like you don't... no."

"Rafael what is it?"

"I mean you have anything planned out, as to what to do next?"

I shook my head.

"That's good, I mean since you have nothing planned out if you want... like if only you are fine... no... I mean staying... shit."

"I can't understand anything you are trying to say."

He nodded then continued again "Since you have nothing planned out for your future then... only if you want we can continue our marriage."

"Continue?" I asked in disbelief.

"Yeah, I mean like when we got married, the way we stayed." When I didn't reply he said again "It's fine you can take your time and it's fine if you don't want to stay with me like I understand, who would want to stay with a killer and especially when I killed your brother."

"You know right, our families were enemies?"

"I don't want anything related to them in our lives. I just want it to be us."

"Why do you want it to be us? I mean you can marry Olivia too, she's nice it seems."

His brows furrowed "Why on Earth will I marry her?"

"Because... she helped you a lot with this revenge of yours."

"That doesn't make any sense, just because she helped me I have to marry her?"

I nodded "Yep."

"No. You marry the person you love and I definitely don't love her."

"No. When you married me, we didn't even know each other that well. Maybe after marriage you'll fall in love with her."

"Why would I want to fall for her when I already love you?"

I stared at him blankly.

"I am serious here. I fucking don't feel anything for her-"

"I am sleepy Rafael. Good night." Saying that I turned to my side not letting him complete his sentence.