Chapter 15

I woke up in the morning with the sun in my face, making me already in a annoyed mood. Then I remembered that I would be riding with Zane and that just put me in a worse mood. I was going to be in a crabby mood today and I already knew it. I took a quick shower and pulled on a pair of blue jeans, black boots and a purple hoodie, I tied my hair up in a high ponytail and applied some lip gloss before going down stairs.

There was still a scowl on my face when I went down the stairs and saw Zane sitting there eating an apple. I grabbed a piece of bread and started angrily chewing on it, I was annoyed at everything right now. “Whoa someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning” Zane teased. I simply shot him a glare, if he thought everything was ok then he was out of his pretty little head.

“Let’s just go” I mumbled while grabbing a bottle of water. He looked at me with a little amused smile on his face which I just narrowed my eyes at and followed him out the door. I got in the passenger seat waited for him to hurry up. “Could you get any slower?” I hissed at him as he finally got in.

“What’s got you in such a grumpy mood kitten?” he reached across and tried to pinch my cheek but I slapped his hand away, what the hell does he find so funny about this? “What has you in such a good mood this morning?” I mocked him but to my surprise he just shot me a smile.

“Well for one I get too see you” he said happily. Did he not have any memory of last night? Maybe he’s got some issues too. I gave him a confused look and started staring out the window. But then he started humming and it was getting on my nerves, “Could you stop the humming?” I asked annoyed. He got to wake up in a good mood and I had to wake up in a crappy one of course.

“Oh just sit back relax and enjoy it” he said dismissing my attitude. “stupid retarded boy in a stupid retarded mood” I mumbled under my breath. But I forgot about werewolf hearing for a second, so I guess by the sound of his musical laughter that he heard that…..

“Why do you find everything so funny this morning?” I threw my hands up in the air in frustration, I felt like pulling my hair out so I would be to blinded by the pain to see his amused face at every little thing. I really don’t know what's wrong with me today but I'm this close to punching him in the face.

“It’s just you, you always seem to brighten my mood somehow” me mumbled happily. “Well that’s not what you said last night” I snapped at him. he turned to me with a sad look on his face “Let’s not do this now” he tried. But no I want to know right now what it is that makes me so different, so not mate material. “No Zane, tell me now what is it about me that’s so wrong?” I stared him in the eyes, daring him to look away right now. he knew if he did then I would be done with him, he would lose all chance of talking to me or even becoming friends.

“I already told you Marissa we just don’t belong together, you aren’t alpha female material. Don’t get me wrong, your beautiful and all but we just weren’t made to be mates” wow was he really trying that?

“Obviously we are made to be mates because we are dumb ass, and what the hell do you consider alpha female material then? The alpha female is for the alpha’s mate, someone who he loves and can stand by his side.” I was not in the mood to step down and let him say whatever he wanted, right now I was going to fight him to the end of this and make him say it, I'm going to get it all out of him one way or another.

“well news flash Marissa I don’t love you!” he screamed out. hearing it come out of his mouth just hurt more, I knew he wasn’t in love with me but saying that sounded like he didn’t give a shit about me. well that was just in time too because we just pulled up at the school.

His eyes went wide as he just realised what he said. and before he could say anymore I climbed out of the car, slamming the door shut behind me. I looked around but didn’t see Kyle or Sean anywhere so I guess they didn’t come. I checked my phone and there was no message or missed calls.

I walked quickly inside the school, there was still a good ten minutes left before the bell rang for the first class so I went in the library. If I said what Zane said didn’t affect me I would be lying, my breaths are coming out in shaky gasps right now, I feel like I want to curl up in a ball. But of course I won’t do that, I’ll do what I’ve been doing all along. I’ll stay strong.

I sat down on one of the bean bag chairs and just took a couple of breaths, I needed to calm down and get that out of my mind. I was crazy for thinking anything would happen or change, I gave in way to easily and this is what happens. Things are still the same so I'm going to go along with my life as it was before.

I got up from the chair and brushed myself off, time to go to class. I walked out of the library and too my locker. Just as I was grabbing my books out of my locker some girl body checks me making me drop everything. I look up with a scowl on my face, ready to punch her in the face already. It was none other than Cassidy of course, with a little smirk plastered on her face. “What is your problem?” I asked rudely while picking up all my things.

Cassidy was a bitch to sum it all up. She was fairly tall, had long red hair, a good figure, blue eyes and a good tan. The girl was beautiful too bad she ruined it with her personality. “you, you were in my way with your big fat ass” I narrowed my eyes but didn’t miss the person who called her name from behind her. it was Zane but when he saw us staring each other down his eyes went wide as if he didn’t even want to come near me. I guess he found someone knew to hang out with other then my brother Kyle and that Claire girl.

“Hold on I just got to deal with some trash” she said over her shoulder sending him a cute smile. well that was it, I was already in a bad mood and she was just getting on my nerves, before she could react I brought up my hand and punched her in the jaw. “Damn bitches these days” I mumbled as I walked away. But I guess I have to stop mumbling things because she heard that and pulled my hair.

I slapped her hand away from me and faced her with an annoyed expression on my face. “What now?” I asked impatiently, she was going to make me late for class. “Who do you think you are?” she then slapped me in the face, starting fights really wasn’t like me, I was quiet and a good student but this girl just got on my last nerve today. “Well you’re the one who had to come in my way and make me drop my stuff so why don’t you screw off’” I didn’t hit her, yet anyway. I wanted to see what she would do first, another snarky comment and she was getting another punch, if she walked away then I would just let it go and be done with it. it all depends on her really….

“Well if you weren’t such a fat ass then I wouldn’t have bumped into you” well she made the wrong choice. I brought up my hand and swung right into her jaw again, but just as she was getting ready to hit me Zane came up behind me and pulled her away from me.

He started whispering things in her ear and she calmed down I guess. “Yea I guess you’re right, fighting with a fat loser just isn’t worth it” she said before pulling out of his grip and walking away. Wow that stung, that was what he was telling her? Zane was still standing there staring at me. I gave him a simple blank look of no emotion before walking away, I guess I already knew in the back of my mind that he would choose her, I'm nothing too him.

I walked to my first class and ignored all the emotion that wanted to surface right now, because I just couldn’t afford to let it. class went by quickly, I focused on the work and payed no attention to anything else, before I knew it was already lunch.

I took out my phone and texted Kyle. ‘Where are you guys today?’ I hadn’t seen them all day and it has been a pretty crappy day so far. I grabbed a sandwich and walked outside to eat on the grass by myself.

Zane’s POV

I sat with Cassidy, Claire, and Derek. I have to ask him what my dad told him, I wanted to know. We were outside on one of the picnic tables and from here I could see Marissa sitting by herself on the grass. I instantly felt guilty, this morning she just got me so mad that I said that, I never meant too. I do care about her but I just don’t know if it’s like that. Then when her and Cassidy were fighting and Cassidy said that Marissa thought I was telling Cassidy that she wasn’t worth it.

I really screwed things over with Marissa fast this time, and just when we were starting to get along too. I don’t want her as my mate but I still want her in my life, she was always Derek’s little sister to me, the one that we could tease and pick on for fun but I would never hurt her. I never meant too plus I’ve known her and Derek since I was little, I know a lot about them both and as much as I hate too say it losing Marissa would impact a small part of my life. I still don’t know how I feel about her, but I really felt like we were connecting back at the coffee shop and when we went for a run.

I was just telling Cassidy to stop, I didn’t want to see them fighting and I didn’t want Marissa to get in trouble, she was that type of girl and I won’t let her become one.

Marissa’s POV

After lunch the rest of the day was rather boring, I texted my brother and made sure I could get a ride with him. I just had to wait 20 minutes for practice to end, it would take longer to walk so I just decided to stay and wait. So right now I'm sitting in the bleachers, watching football practice and freezing my butt off.

The clouds overhead were starting to get a grey colour and it was going to rain soon I could tell. Only ten more minutes till I get to go home in my nice warm room….. I hugged my arms around myself to keep whatever warmth I had left. The boys had just taken a water break and my brother was coming up the bleachers. “Hey if your cold you can go get my sweater from the car” anyone could see that I was cold, I was huddled up in a ball and my teeth were chattering.

“yea that sounds good, where are the keys” he pointed down to the bench so I made my way down to the bench where the rest of the team was drinking their water. Just as he was about to hand me the keys Zane spoke up “you’re letting her drive home?” I snorted, like my brother would let me drive home with his car and leave him here to catch a ride. “No she’s just cold so she’s going to get my sweater’ Derek said handing me the keys.

“Oh she can borrow mine so she doesn’t have to walk all the way to the parking lot.” Zane said tossing his sweater at me. I showed no emotion to him again, I didn’t want him to see in anyway how he affected me. “Nah I think I'm just going to go get the sweater from the car that way I wont have to find you to give it back to you at the end of practice” I said handing him it back. “We’re all going back to the same pack house so your going to see me either way” he had a point there and he was blocking every reason I had for not taking it so I simply nodded and walked away with the sweater in my hands.

I was so cold that I would rather be in his sweater then not anything, I pushed my arms through it and curled my body into the warmth of it. I don’t know why I was getting so cold the boys were all fine and they were in less clothes than me. I must be getting sick or something then.

I sat there for ten more minutes, waiting for this dreadful practice to end so I could go home and curl up in my warm blankets. As soon as I saw my brother run into the locker room the change I almost jumped up in joy. I walked down to the field to wait for him, everyone was still in the locker room so it was just me and the coach.

“Marissa how have you been?” I had gym with him last year and we got along fairly well. “Good, what about you?” I asked just to make polite conversation. “Great, have you been thinking about trying out for any teams this year?” I haven’t played on any sports teams since I was in elementary school but I did love basketball, but when I came here I never gave it a try. “I don’t think so” he knew I liked basketball because when we used to have gym I was always the best player.

Maybe I should do something different this year. “you should try something, I bet you’d make the basketball team” he said with a smile. “maybe this year I just might try out” I saw out of the corner of my eye that Derek and Zane were walking out. “Well it was nice talking to you but I have to go” I said pointing towards the boys. The coach gave me a smile and a polite nod before I ran off in my brother direction.

When I caught up with them I peeled off Zane’s sweater and handed it back to him without even looking at him. I mumbled ‘thanks’ and started walking beside my brother. They were talking about Cassidy and Claire, something I did not want to hear so I tuned out and tried to ignore the feelings that were stirring inside of me.

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