Chapter 28

Zane’s POV

I can’t believe now that I'm ready to tell her something like this comes in our way. I was ready to deal with Alex but I don’t know what to do about this! And now she won’t even believe me.

“Marissa please believe me here. I know I made the biggest mistake ever by rejecting you and I know your still hurt but I really want to be happy with you. Your everything I ever wanted but I was just to blind too see it” I looked at her anxiously waiting for and answer.

“I just don’t think I can believe you. You hated me in the first place and didn’t want to have anything to do with me. then you started being m friend out of guilt, why on earth would you want me as a mate?” I shook my head as she spoke, it was my fault that was thinking like this. It was my fault that she is doubting me and it’s my fault that we’re not together now. we could have avoided the whole Alex thing plus my dad would have never started the whole training thing for her.

“I don’t know, I just wanted to tell you what was going on and now you have this crazy break out. I don’t know what to believe” I saw a tear slip down her cheek and it made me even sadder. How much pain have a caused this girl to have? I knew I broke her heart that day but I never guessed it would still be hurting just as bad. I can relate though, my heart is breaking by the second.

“Give me one more chance Marissa and I’ll show you what a great guy I can be for you. I’ll be there for you whenever you need me. And to answer your question I think the more I hung out with you the more I wanted to see you. I was slowly falling in love with you but I was to blind too see it. your that one perfect girl that I want, that one person that without the mate bond I would have lost” I was now crying. I didn’t want to lose, it didn’t matter if I had everything I wanted in the world if I didn’t have this girl. She was my biggest treasure but I was to blinded by everything else to see it.

“I already have Alex though, he’s been great too me and what’s going to happen to him” it broke my heart even more hearing those words come out from her mouth. She was thinking of Alex right now, not us not me not possibly how this could work out but Alex. “Do you know how much it kills me too see you go out with him every time and come back with a smile on your face? Do you know how much it kills me to see that he can make you happy and that he get’s you? That human gets my mate..” I sobbed down, I looked down away from her eyes. I didn’t want to take this anymore, maybe it was too late but I wouldn’t stop trying for her.

“No Zane it’s not just about that. Alex has been so nice and understanding to me. I even told him that you and I are mates and he got over it. he accepted me for what I was the first time around, that was something you never did” her face was broken and so was her emotions. I could see how much this was killing her as well. “So Alex will get over it, it’s not like he’s losing his mate. It’s a simple girlfriend. Your meant to be someone else’s and he can find another. I cannot” I couldn’t stress enough how much I wanted her and I don’t even know if she believed me.

“Why are you going through all this trouble just to get me out of going to that school? It would make your life miserable if you accepted me as a mate when you didn’t want me” she said. And there was my answer. She didn’t believe me one bit.

“Well I'm telling the truth and whether you want to admit it to yourself or not you know I truly love you. This may not be the perfect happy ending but I really want a chance with you” I tried one last time. I couldn’t lose her I wouldn’t just let it happen.

“Ok Marissa answer this, if I didn’t love you then why would I care so much?” she had to see it, she had to believe it. “You don’t love me Zane” she said shaking her head.

“Yes I do”

“No you don’t”

“Yes I do”

“no you don’t”

“Yes I do Marissa! I think I would know” I yelled at her. I was done playing childish games with her. I had one week to get her to see me love or else she was off towards that stupid school.

“Why don’t we deal with this later. It’s you birthday and you’re supposed to be having a good time” I sighed and let out. she reluctantly nodded and we both began eating in silence. I don’t think any one of us could carry on a normal conversation with what just went on a few seconds ago.

“Do you want any dessert? Or we could order two and share” I asked her after a little while of eating in silence. This was not how I saw it going in my mind. I knew that she wouldn’t just come running to me with open arms but I never expected anything like that school to come up. I mean two years? How was I going to survive two years without her. I would follow her there if I could but I was the next in line alpha which meant I had to be here. Although I would go and visit her every single week if that’s what it took for me to be able to see my mate. Or I could just expose the whole thing, tell everyone the truth and my dad wouldn’t be able to send Marissa off knowing that she’s my mate. But with letting out that secret I also let out that I rejected her which is a slight problem.

“Zane stop thinking about it” she sighed and said. I looked up at her too see her looking at me with sad eyes. “I'm not” I mumbled. We were perfect for each other in every way, if only I could have seen that sooner.

“Let’s order some dessert” she said and for the first time on this dinner, she smiled at me. I smiled right back at her and waited for the waitress to stop at our table.

We walked out of the restaurant together and towards my car. “I know that isn’t how you wanted it to turn out but you shoes the really complicated time to tell me that if it’s even true.” She said as she got into the passenger seat. I wanted to argue with her till she would believe that I'm telling the truth but I know fighting with her won’t do any good.

“I know, and I'm sorry for everything.” I admitted. I didn’t look at her, instead I looked straight ahead and focused on going home. I don’t know how much longer she would be able to call that place home but If she would just let me in it could be forever.

Marissa’s POV

I'm not sure if I'm supposed to be believing him or not. he put up quite a fight in the restaurant . I don’t think he would do such a thing out of guilt. Maybe he really did love me…… I know I still love him but that doesn’t mean the first chance that’s given to me I'm going to go back to him.

There would be a lot of consequences if I was going to be with him. We would have to tell the whole pack our business, I would have to deal with Alex , and I would have to find a way to forget about everything that we’ve been through. No I actually I wouldn’t, I like the past we have. I don’t want to forget that.

“I believe you Zane but I still need to make a choice. I don’t know if being with you would be the right thing to do” I said randomly. He looked over at me and nodded, I know I broke him tonight. The way he was crying along with me and how he seemed so expressionless right now was all because of me. We share the blame for this I think .

“Maybe in some cases being with your mate might cause problems for others but love is love and just remember whatever you chose love should come first.” He said. Love comes first… do I love Alex more or Zane? I'm not too sure, plus I would also be disappointing the alpha and most likely be sending another kid into the program. I don’t want anyone to have to go to that fighting academy against their will; I would rather take their place. There was a lot to think about but I could do that tomorrow. Like my mom said, it was my birthday today and I should enjoy it.

“My mom bought me a new car for my birthday” I blurted out; the idea of a car still brought a smile to my face. “really?” he looked surprised and somewhat disappointed. “Yea!” I said excitedly. “Aw that means I don’t get to drive you to school in the morning anymore” I had to roll my eyes as he said that.

“It never ended good anyway” I tried to reason with him. “But I would still rather be fighting with you than not seeing you at all” he said. That was kind of sweet. “It’s ok I’ can now give you a ride sometimes” I suggested playfully.

“I’ll be holding you to that” he laughed back. We then pulled up at the house and for some reason I didn’t want to leave. Even though that dinner had turned into something or tears, heartbreak and complications I was glad that I did it. It now gave me options and made me see things a whole lot better.

“Thank you for dinner” I said politely as we exited the car. it was still snowing outside, so I walked even slower to watch the snowflakes fall from the sky.

“Really?” he snorted as if it was the most ridiculous thing I could have said. “Yea I'm glad it happened” I smiled at him. He walked alongside me but didn’t try and grab my hand, he understood I had a decision to make.

“Well that’s good, I’ll seeing you tonight” he smiled and walked through the door, leaving me somewhat confused. How was I going o be seeing him tonight? maybe he meant the party thing that my mom had thrown for me with a couple of friends.

Overall even though this birthday was a disaster It opened my eyes to a lot of new things. A special day for some special thins indeed. As I walked up the stairs I saw the one guy I didn’t want to see though, Kyle was standing right in front of my door.

“Please just let me explain” he pleaded as soon as I got there. He knew that I knew that he knew about my training, I had a right to be mad at him. “Fine although I don’t think it’s going to make much of a difference in my opinion anyway. You hid something from me, something that could have been solved a long time ago if you told me” I scolded him.

I sat on the bed as he sat on my desk chair. “The alpha told me just so I could get you to like fighting, I didn’t try to make you like fighting on purpose. He threatened me and my family if I told you so I couldn’t I was in a tight spot” he said. The alpha threatened him and his family? “Oh my god Kyle I am so sorry.” I completely forgave him now, I know how hard some things are and when you’re placed in a position like that it’s hard to know what to do.

“I know I should I have told you and I'm sorry” he looked down as if he was blaming himself for all that was going on. I got up and pulled him into a hug. “It’s ok Kyle, I blame you for anything. I know you had a lot to think about. You tried to help me anyway that you could and I'm just glad that I had you as a friend along the way” I looked up at him and gave him a sad smile, which he returned.

“I got you something for your birthday” he spoke up. “Thanks” I said. He knew he didn’t have to give me anything. He pulled out a small pendant from his pocket, it wasn’t a full necklace or anything it was a simple pendant. It was one of a lightning bolt and on the back it was engraved.

‘Be strong’

“I know how much things you’ve been through in the past and this is a reminder that you can get through more. Don’t give up because I know you can do it. I was always too afraid to talk to you because of what Zane said in the past and I regret that. You’re one of my best friends now and you don’t know how glad I am to have you as a friend, even if it’s only for a week more” he said softly. I gripped the pendant tightly in my hand and looked at him.

“You and Sean were the first two friends I ever really had and you turned out to be my best friend Kyle, even if I do end up going away it doesn’t mean that we’re not friends anymore. I’ll never forget you” I was glad to have him in my life, he got me through some hard times and he was there to talk to me when I needed to talk to someone about Zane. He was my rock and part of the reason I'm so strong.

I was not going to sit back and let the rest happen. Kyle was right, I needed to be strong.

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