*Adam's POV*

This sucks.

I seriously don't get why some wolves use wolfsbane as a party drug.

Everything is hazy, my thoughts, my vision, my memories. I barely remember what I've done an hour ago, though, knowing that Anna is in bed with me, I think we've just been laying around.

She's been doing good, I think. She hasn't been in visual pain much, and I don't think her fever is that high anymore. I wouldn't know for certain, I honestly don't know anything for certain right now. Except for the fact that I love my mate. That's the only certain thing in my life.

"Adam?"

I blinked and was shot from my daze when my mate spoke. "Yeah?"

I looked down at her, goddess she's beautiful. I've never seen someone as beautiful as her. Her blonde hair hasn't been brushed in two days, but the way it messily spread across the bed gave her an angelic look. Her green eyes look tired but they still shine like emeralds.

"I asked if you were feeling ok?" Anna apparently repeats.

"I'm good. Just... out of it." I respond.

Anna giggles. I love her laugh so much. "You've been out of it the entire day."

I give her a lazy smile, "I guess that's true, sorry."

"It's ok." She tells me wearing that beautiful smile on her face.

"I love you." I blurt out.

Her smile widens as her eyes sparkle with excitement, "And I love you."

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I don't really know when I fell asleep but it was sometime after that. I faintly remember waking up again to take more wolfsbane but I think I fell right back asleep after that. When I woke up again it was the next morning, and I could feel Cade stir within me.

Anna was still sound asleep in my arms, and through the slight fuzz that was still in my mind I enjoyed the feeling of laying next to her immensely. I don't know why, but this has quickly become my favorite part of my day. Waking up next to her, seeing her still asleep, content in my arms. Knowing that she feels safe to be with me. It all makes me feel incredibly happy and content.

I let out a content sigh as I puller her closer to me. I stiffened, however, when I got a whiff of her sweet scent. Fucking hell.

Suddenly reminded of why I took wolfsbane in the first place, I regretfully pulled away from her. I wasn't going to be able to control myself like this.

Anna groaned in disapproval but snuggled into my pillow and remained asleep. I smiled down at my beautiful mate. She's incredible. Heat hasn't really fazed her. I know she must be in pain even when I'm close to her. But she hasn't complained at all and seems more worried about me than her own health.

I decided to make her breakfast while I wasn't as hazy. Isa already had a glass of orange juice ready in the fridge. She had done that every evening before she left.

While the eggs were cooking I checked my phone. I had to call in work today to tell them I was still 'ill'. I saw I had a text from Jasper asking how I was holding up and I gave him a quick reply telling him we were ok.

The people at work obviously weren't impressed. I've been working a few weeks and I'm already out for two days. Thankfully this would be Anna's 4th day of heat. So either this one of tomorrow will be her last. I suppose Anna must be feeling similar. She has missed a full week of work.

When I was done cooking I had taken one sip of the orange juice. As Cade was waking up more, Anna's scent was getting stronger and stronger. It was driving me insane. Thankfully, the little bit of wolfsbane helped dim down the scent to a manageable level while still staying level headed enough to take care of Anna.

As I was preparing plates someone suddenly grabbed my shoulder, making me jump and react. Natural instincts took over and I didn't realize what happened until I heard my mate whine underneath me.

Fuck.

"Anna!" I breathed out as assessed the situation. I had her arms behind her back in a lock as I held her towards the counters. I let go as if she'd burn me with her touch. "Shit I'm sorry."

Anna winced as she held her arm but gave me a smile anyway, "It's fine. Sorry for sneaking up on you."

I shook my head, "That's no excuse." It must have been the lack of senses. Usually I would have smelt and heard her from miles away. "I'm not used to people being able to sneak up on me." I mumbled as a poor way of saying sorry.

Anna kissed my cheek and then grabbed our plates before sitting down at the breakfast table, "It's fine Adam, really." She gestured to my plate before giving me another warm smile. I'd die for that smile. "Come eat."

I sighed as I sat down, feeling incredibly guilty for hurting my mate, who was already in heat. I ended up just picking at my food before Anna grabbed my hand, "Adam, it's ok. You didn't mean it."

"I still hurt you." I mumbled in reply.

Anna chuckled and stood up. I frowned eying her still full plate. Did she not like the food? Did I mess up even more? She surprised me by pushing me back from the table too and sitting down on my lap before engulfing me in a hug.

She still had a clear fever, and her scent, besides the wolfsbane dimming it, was intoxicating. I relaxed instantly, and as soon as I realized that I did I knew that she was trying to calm me down.

"It's ok. I love you." She whispered in my ear.

I pulled her closer to me, "I'm sorry. I didn't hear you come in so I just reacted on instinct."

Anna hummed, "I figured that's what happened. I'm not mad or anything. It happened and it was an accident"

I nodded, trying to climb out of the sad hole I had dug myself into. She's right. It's an accident. I let out a breath. She isn't mad at me.

I was so into my thoughts that I hadn't realized that Anna had cupped my face and had brought me closer to her. That was until the spart erupted between us as our lips touched.

My sadness suddenly forgotten, I kissed her back. God, I love kissing her. Her lips taste amazing.

Our kiss slowly got more heated and Anna started to let out beautiful moans of pleasure. I groaned and pulled back, Anna resisted as much as she could before pouting at me. Her eyes were filled with lust as she looked at me, "Anna we can't. remember?"

"We won't go too far." She spoke softly, her voice laced with hunger, "We can kiss."

"Anna, that's the heat talking." I told her.

Anna shifted on top of me and I groaned at the friction. Admittedly, the kiss did make me hard. I mean, come on, I hadn't kissed her a whole day and the heat is still affecting me wolfsbane or not.

Anna took a deep breath, "Just kissing?" she asked.

I shook my head, "I'm sorry Anna. I will never forgive myself if we go too far."Two days ago, she just jumped me and when I tried to stop her she didn't really let me. I couldn't let that happen again.

Anna pouted but got off my lap. After a few minutes she sighed, "You're right. Thanks for stopping." She murmured.

I gave a sad smile, "We'll get through this Anna."

Anna nodded, "I hope this is the last day."

"Me too." I responded as I took her hand in mine. I then frowned as I finally seemed to realize that she was out of bed, "Are you feeling better?"

Anna smiled, "I do. The cramps are a lot less. Right now it's as if I'm just on my regular period."

I hummed in response before checking her temperature, "Your fever has gone down too." I mumbled, "That's a good sign."

We ate breakfast and I sent Anna back to bed after that. The rest of the day was spend in a similar fashion as the days before that. I took more wolfsbane and was out of it while holding Anna in my arms. When Isa and Will came by for dinner Will pointed out that Anna's scent had become less strong, announcing the end of her heat.

We were both relieved, finally, this mess would be over. Isa made another drink mixed with wolfsbane, though she said she only put in a little bit this time. Since her heat was almost over Will had told us it would be fine to put in less.

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When I woke up my head felt surprisingly clear. I tried to shift when I found out I had no control over my body. I panicked, 'Cade?'

'Shhh... I'm just holding her.' Cade answered. He sounded slightly dazed. I suppose wolfsbane affects our wolves more so he would feel the effects way longer.

'Will you be able to control yourself?' I asked.

Cade pulled her closer and placed our nose in the crook of her neck. 'Her scent is back to normal.'

I frowned and focused, finding that her scent was indeed back to normal. Her beautiful normal scent, the scent that's slightly mixed with ours now. 'Her heat is over' I concluded as I also noticed her temperature had gone down.

'Yes, we got through it.' Cade confirmed.

I let out a sigh of relief, 'We're never taking wolfsbane again.'

Cade growled in approval, 'I agree with that.'

Our mate stirred in our arms and she snuggled closer to us. Cade purred in approval as he started peppering kisses around her mark.

Anna hummed and she opened her pretty green eyes, "Mornin," she murmured with a sleepy smile on her face.

Cade beamed as he kissed her forehead, "Morning, mate."

Anna blinked a few times before it clicked inside her head, "Cade?"

He hummed in response. "How are you, mate?"

Anna seemed to think for a second before answering, "Surprisingly good? My cramps are gone."

"You're out of heat my little mate." Cade spoke up.

"Really?" Cade nodded in response. Anna let out a deep sigh, "Thank God."

I suppose right now wouldn't be the right time to tell her the heat will return every three months from now on. No, right now we should just relish in this moment. The relief and happiness of us being able to be together again without restrictions.

Cade kissed our mate, a soft, loving kiss which Anna immediately returned. It wasn't hungry as our kisses had been during heat, it was passionate and gentle. When Cade broke the kiss we were both ready to burst with excitement and love. Our mate is so strong, and we were proud of her.

"How are you Cade?" Anna asked, slightly out of breath.

"Happy to be here again." He dipped down to nuzzle into her hair, "I missed you."

Anna giggled, "I missed you too."

We laid wrapped up in each other's arms for a while. Cade had managed to convince Anna to call in sick to work today as well. It was Friday, and whether she noticed it or not, the heat would still keep her tired and weak for the rest of the day. Her body has been working incredibly hard all this time, it needs time to relax.

Anna wasn't happy, of course. It was only a few week until Thanksgiving break and this way she'd get seriously behind on her curriculum. She did see our arguments though, and I think she enjoyed our warmth a bit too much to let go yet.

When Isa texted she and Will would arrive in an hour, we decided to get up. Anna took a shower while I tried to coach Cade as he was cooking for our mate. He refused to give me back control and wanted to provide for her. Granted, it didn't go that well. Cade was still under the effects of wolfsbane, and it clearly affected his thinking. He didn't want to cook the bacon much because he himself preferred it Raw. I had to keep telling him that Anna wanted it nice and crisp, and Cade had made it his mission to convince our mate raw meat tasted much better.

The eggs he forgot about in our argument, even though I reminded him plenty of times during our little fight.

When Anna walked into he room there was a plate with burned eggs and half cooked bacon ready for her. Cade hadn't cooked anything for us, since he said he'd just eat some raw bacon instead.

Anna, the angel she is, had thanked Cade, but also managed to convince him that she preferred cooked meat and that everyone was allowed to have an opinion. Eventually she got up to cook the bacon a bit more and she managed to pick at the non-burned parts of the eggs.

After we were done, Cade offered to clean up and thankfully I convinced him to wash the plates before he started to lick them clean.

Anna had started catching up on work a bit, until the doorbell rang and an excited Isa bust through the door, "Oh Anna I am so happy you made it!"

"I wasn't dying." Anna countered.

"You sure as hell looked like you were. You never get sick hun, I was super worried." Isa said as she tried to hold back tears.

"Well, it's over now!" Anna tried to reassure her, to which Isa just hugged her more tightly.

When Isa broke the hug she made eye contact with Cade and ran over to him. When she hugged him both Will and Cade growled in disapproval. "Oh shut it you two! I'm just happy! I'm proud of you Adam! For holding back." She spoke.

Cade pushed her off her with another growl. He hated anyone but our mate touching him.

'Be nice, Cade.' I chided to which he groaned in my head.

"Thanks." He grumbled to Isa.

Isa frowned at Cade's voice, probably noticing how much deeper and rougher it is than mine. "Please don't tell me you're coming down with something now?" Isa spoke up.

Anna chuckled, "Cade is in control."

Isa raised an eyebrow in confusion, "Huh? Why?"

Cade walked over to Anna, trying to create a distance from the woman who just dared to hug him. He relished in Anna's scent as he hugged her from behind. "He's been poisoned with wolfsbane for the past few days, I don't think he needs an excuse to want out." Anna said with a giggle.

Will walked up to Isa and placed an possessive arm around her. He whispered in her ear not to hug other men, especially Alpha's and Isa gave him a look and slapped his chest.

The rest of the day was slightly awkward. Cade refused to give me back control and was holding Anna the entire time. At the same time, he barely spoke and did his very best to be the most rude and antisocial person that has every existed.

It wasn't until after we went out to the forest to shift that he relented and gave me back control for the evening. Anna was exhausted. She had been pushing her body, spending time with Isa and Will. She took a short nap around 3PM but that was it, and it was now showing how tired she truly was.

Isa and Will had gone back to their hotel and Anna was laying in my lap on the couch, fast asleep. I didn't really mind, her warmth and body close to mine was all I needed to feel content. The steady beating of her heartbeat calming me.

I glanced at the mark on her shoulder. A few months ago I never would have imagined I'd be here, with my mate. Cade and I had given up, almost giving into being rogue. She truly saved us. All that needed to happen now was to complete the bond fully. That would be the only way to fix this completely. To keep the wild animalistic darkness out.

I let out a sigh as I stood up to bring her to bed. I wouldn't rush her. We would never do anything against her will. If we could control this for six years, we could do it a while longer. And if we can't...

Then I hope she'll be able to save us in the future too.

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