𝒥𝑒𝓃𝓃𝒾𝑒

My first thought when I wake up is that I feel so warm, I blink my eyes to adjust the sleepy blur from them

I feel lips on my forehead, now someones nuzzling in my neck

Suddenly Aaron grumbles in his sleep, burying his head further into the crook of my neck with his arm slumped over my waist

I can't believe we kissed last night

I'm not sure if Aaron feels anything about me but the way he kissed me felt like he did

Was I making a mistake by being here and letting him kiss me?

I also really didn't want to go back home, but I probably have to, all my clothes and stuff are there, plus I'm pretty sure I can't stay at Aaron's house forever

I sighed heavily, slowly moving his arm off me, to which he grumbles again pulling me back against his chest with his arm around my back tightly

"Aaro-"

"Stay" he murmurs

"Aaron I probably should be getting home"

"Shut the fuck up and stay Jennie"

I can feel his breathing getting deeper, the steady rise and fall of his chest becoming more rhythmic as he drifts back off to sleep

I lay in silence for what feels like hours while enjoying the feeling of his warm skin against mine and the sound of his heart beat and steady breathing

Suddenly I feel Aaron's fingers tracing slow circles around my lower back

I feel warmth spreading through my chest, and I can't help but wonder whether he hates me or not

"Aaron" I say keeping my voice quiet

"Hm"

"Um can I use your shower"

"Go ahead"

I slowly remove his arm from around and get up feeling his eyes on me

I headed towards the bathroom as I felt him trace every step I took

I went in the bathroom locking the door behind me as I examined his bathroom, it was huge, the walls were gray and there was a small bench next to the shower

I quickly stripped my clothes off heading in, he had a detachable shower head as well as many body washes and shampoos on the self

As the warm water flowed down my back I was debating whether or not I should use his shampoo

I slowly grabbed one of his shampoos hoping he wouldn't get mad at me for using it

The recent scars on my back stung a bit as the warm water ran down my body

I wonder what Aaron would think about my scars, would he think they're disgusting? Nobody knows about them or have seen them except for my mom and John, and I'm hoping nobody ever finds out

I couldn't help but wonder why Aaron would kiss someone like me?

Looking down at my body I grew even more insecure

I hated my stomach and my thighs, I hated all the scars on my skin and every flaw, I disliked my personality and how I never felt like I was good enough for anybody

Blinking away tears I quickly turned off the shower and stepped out avoiding looking at myself in the mirror

I dried myself with a towel while slipping my clothes back on, I kept my wet hair down to allow it to dry quicker

Heading out of the bathroom I scanned the room but Aaron wasn't in here, moving out of the room I headed down the stairs as I heard a sizzling sound

I spotted Aaron in the kitchen as his back was to me, he was shirtless wearing only grey sweatpants while his hair was still messy from sleep, I found myself staring at him longer than I should have been

"Are you just gonna stand there and stare at me love?" he suddenly said walking towards the dining table with two plates of pancakes in his hands

"Sorry I didn't mean to"

"Come here"

I slowly walked towards the dining table and sat across from he as he placed a plate of pancakes in front of me

"Eat" he said while eating from his plate

I was really hungry but I didn't want to eat much, everytime my mom saw me eating she would talk about how I should fix my body and eat less which is why I rarely eat breakfast

"I'm not really hungr-"

"It wasn't a question Jennie"

I started at him as I picked up my fork and started eating while avoiding his gaze on me

"Um t-thank you a lot for everything and letting me stay the night it really means a lot" I suddenly said

"Whatever"

After I finished my food I stood up walking over to the sink as I washed my plate

All of a sudden I felt Aaron's body behind mine as his arms wrapped around my waist pulling me back against his chest causing me to grow nervous

"Did you use my shampoo Jennie" he said as his head rested on top of mine

Shit I hoped he wasn't going to get mad at me for that

"um yea I'm sor-"

"It smells good on you" he said cutting me off

I suddenly felt warmth spreading through my chest, was he not mad at me? I wonder why he's being nicer than usual

"Aaron I was wondering if you can drop me off home" I said turned around to face him

He sighed as he pulled out his phone from his pocket handing it to me

"Put your phone number in"

Why would he want my number?

"Um alright" I said as I typed it in and handed it back to him

He turned around heading towards the door as I followed behind him

I wish I could understand how he felt about me

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