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I fucking hate overthinking

It puts all these negative thoughts in your head, it twists things around and forces you to worry

It makes everything seem much worse than it already is, it stops you from doing or saying what you want because your so scared of the outcome you don't wanna risk it

From a young age I was taught that my emotions didn't matter, I wasn't allowed to cry, I wasn't allowed to scream, I wasn't allowed to let my anger out, I had to sit there and let my father do shit to me while I did nothing, I didn't stop him, because he made me feel like I deserved it, he made me feel disgusted in my skin

So I learned from early on to only cry behind closed doors, without sound, to howl in pain silently, to break down without anyone knowing, and to never ask for help

Driving towards the cliff I usually go to I was planning to get my mind off things

I started going to there because I found it calming to just sit there in silence while watching the sway of the ocean

Stepping out the car I slowly headed to the top only to stop a figure standing there facing the ocean

I slowly walked towards her as I spoke

"Jennie?"

She quickly turned around while facing me causing me to grow worried

Her eyes were swollen, I could tell she was crying

But what troubled me the most was the scar running down her left cheek

Anger flowed through me, I could tell someone must've been hurting her, I had a feeling it was her mom because the day I went to her house I can tell Jennie was uncomfortable around that bitch

Why would anyone fucking hurt Jennie

I slowly held her chin in my hand tilting her head up as her gaze meets mine

"What happened love"

"N-nothing, um I get really clumsy and I fall a lot, it's not that big of a deal anyways" she chuckles

"What did I say about not fucking lying to me"

"Aaron, it's nothi-"

"Is it your mom?" I say cutting her off as a look of unhappiness spreads across her face

She immediately looks away as her eyes start watering

"You can tell me" I quietly say

"Why do you even care Aaron, I mean you can't expect me to tell you about this when you rarely even talk to me" she says as tears run down her face

"If you tell me what happened I'll tell you why I killed my father" I muttered letting go of her chin while averting my eyes away from her

I cant believe I just fucking said that

Ive never opened up to anyone, the only person who knows everything that happened is Carl because he saw it all happen

I never thought I would tell anyone about my past but for some reason I just felt comfortable around Jennie

"Are you sure"

"Yes"

"My mom s-she hurts me a lot" she said as tears flowed down her face

I'll make sure her mom regrets everything she did to Jennie

"She hates me so much Aaron, she used to have sex with men for money and s-she, she fucking would send them to my room so they give her more money, I always called out for her to help me, she never came" she said as more tears fell down her face

I'm going to kill her fucking mother

"And she would always hit me, even when she isn't drunk or on drugs, I left my house and came here because she tried to kill me Aaron"

Anger flowed through me at the thought of anyone hurting her, there's no way that shit of a mother she has is going to lay a hand on her again

"I'm not gonna let her hurt you anymore" I turned facing her while wiping her tears off with my hands

"Why did you kill your dad?" She suddenly asks looking up at me

"It's complicated Jennie"

"Aaron you told me you would tell me" she said as she removed my hands from her face

"He killed my mother" I muttered as a look of shock spreads across her face

"Growing up with him, he raped me, he beat me, he starved me, he fucking broke me Jennie, so I moved out, I was so fucking stupid, I left my mom with him, about a year ago I got a call saying my mom was in the hospital, apparently my dad beat her to death, I was so angry, I couldn't stop myself, I went to his house and I took my anger out on him" I quietly said looking away from her

Don't fucking cry Aaron

It took me by surprise when I felt two hands wrap around my waist, my eyes widened as Jennie rested her head on my chest, I was frozen in place unsure what to do, she felt so warm and delicate

Is this was getting a hug feels like? Ive never got one before

"Im here with you Aaron, you can always talk to me, it's hard to open up about shit but just know if you need someone I'm here, you didn't deserve the shit that happened to you I'm so sorry" she said as she tightened her arms around me

God this girl was going to drive me crazy

I couldn't help it, I quickly grabbed her chin and connected her lips with mine

"I'm here for you too Jennie" I hesitantly said against her lips

"Your not going back to your house until we do something about your mom"

"She's gonna be gone this weekend Aaron, I'll be fine, I'll find a place to stay after she gets back"

She should stay at my house

"Just so you know your not a monster for killing your dad, he deserved it, I'm happy he's dead" she said looking at me

"I'm happy he's dead too love"

I hurt my dad badly

But the thing is

He's not dead

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I WROTE THIS IN CLASS SO CAUSE I HAVE FREAKING SUMMER SCHOOL

AARONS DAD IS ALIVE??

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