"Leonardo I swear to God..." I said while glaring at him as he laughed. After we fled the scene we drove to his 'condo' and now I was on top of his bathroom counter while he cleaned my wounds,my lips and nose were swollen from when I smashed into the car's windscreen, and pieces of the shattered window were stuck in my arm. Leonardo, as usual was being a jerk and yanking the pieces out with some tweezers.

"What? I'm doing what you asked me to do" he said barely getting the words out of his mouth because of laughing, I snatched the tweezers out of his hands before carefully taking out the pieces of glass from my arm. I used a cotton ball dipped in alcohol to clean my cuts, Leonardo then helped me wrap my arm in a bandage. I jumped down from the counter and headed towards the door

"Are you not going to help treat me?" he asked looking at me through the mirror

"Nah ! I'm sure you'll manage " I said chuckling

"You're really leaving ? " he asked while grinning at me.

"You're part of a fricken mafia, ain't you guys trained to tend to your wounds in case of emergencies ? Or you're just too pussy to handle blood ?" I joked before laughing, he scrunched his face up, in a split of second he had me pinned up against the wall. His large hand was wrapped around my neck, as my feet dangled in the air . I was struggling to breathe so I scratched his arm trying to move him but he didn't budge, I tried punching him but that didn't seem to bother him even the slightest. I looked at him searching for any signs of remorse but his face displayed an emotion of disinterest and anger. My vision started to get blury and I found it more difficult to breathe, I stopped fighting the dark and let it consume me

"Don't ever call me pussy Amanda" was the last thing I heard before my body went numb.

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I looked at Amanda's unconscious body on the bathroom floor before finishing treating my cuts and wrapping them up. I felt bad for choking her but there's something that triggers me when someone undermines me, that probably wasn't her intentions but she still said it . I hate loosing control of my moods and emotions, I stopped taking pills for my bipolar condition because they don't work but mostly because they taste like crap. I honestly don't need those pills, I am fine without them. When I finished I tidied up the bathroom before walking towards Amanda and picking her up bridal style. I walked out of the bathroom and climed the stairs into my bedroom, I walked into my room and went towards the bed to place Amanda down into the bed. I laid her down and noticed how wild her hair was, it was all over the place. I chuckled at the little pout in her lips, she had dry tears on her face. It hurts me to know that I couldn't control my anger even towards. I sat beside her and caressed her cheek

"Perdonami teroso, non volevo ferirti" (forgive me sweetheart, I didn't mean to hurt you) it wasn't long before I heard light snores,I kissed her on her forehead and left the room. I walked to the guest room next to my room, I wanted to give her space. I entered the room, stripped and jumped into bed, I instantly fell asleep with Amanda clouding my mind.

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The sound of birds chipping woke me up from my deep sleep, I threw the covers over me to block the sound. I groaned when I still heard the birds, I threw the covers off me and stretched. I got off the bed and walked towards the big glass window that gave the perfect view of the mountains, Leonardo's condo was in the middle of nowhere, it was probably an hour away from the city. Thick fog hung over the mountains, the tress looked green and fresh. The way the trees moved in sync due to the wind blowing strongly was fascinating, it's as if they were dancing. I loved the outdoors, mother nature was art.

Flashbacks from last night clouded my head, I don't know what I said or did that caused him to snap. Was he really bipolar like Mr Eduardo said? It would make sense if he was because of his change of behavior every now and then. The sound of the door opening interrupted my thoughts, I turned around and instantly his eyes bore into mine. I cleared my throat and looked away, just him being near me puts me on edge.

"Look Amanda, I'm sorr-" I cut him off before he could apologize, "Is there a way I can go home?" I asked without looking at him, he paused for a minute before answering

"Yes... I can take you home now if you want but first let me apol-" I cut him off again, "Can't your driver be the one to take me home?" I questioned before looking at him, a look of sadness flashed on his face before he cleared his throat

"Of course, I'll ask Larry to take you... home." he said with a hint of disappointment in his voice

"Perfect, please lead the way" I said crossing my arms still maintaining my emotionless tone and expression, I honestly had nothing to talk to him about. I hate myself for getting too comfortable with him and his family, except for Mia of course. Me and Mia took a liking on each other the moment we met and I feel like she's been genuine about who she was regardless of her being in the Mafia. I genuinely cared about her and loved her dearly but I honestly regret getting too comfortable with the rest of her family, they weren't bad peopl-Well technically they were bad people considering the fact that they were a Mafia family but they haven't mistreated me in any way. They were kind and welcoming towards me but it could be a front, who knows? Maybe they put up with me because I was Mia's friend or because I knew their true identity. I feel like I'm slowly but surely starting to act like a different... Person? For instance, the way I handled the situation of the SUV's yesterday scared me. I know I shouldn't be feeling guilty about protecting myself but I can't help but do. I know people got hurt yesterday since there was a lot of shooting, mostly from Leonardo. I felt like an accomplice to a murder, I didn't want to loose myself or my beliefs by being around them.

Leonardo turned to leave with me trailing behind him, we walked down the stairs and met his driver by the door.

"Larry please take Miss Amanda home" he said and the driver nodded and opened the door for me

"This way ma'am" he said, I stepped out of the house and walked towards the car. Larry opened the door for me and I stepped inside the car as he shut the door after. I rolled down the window and locked eyes with Leonardo who stood with his arms crossed by the door, his eyes for the first time ever held emotions. A tear rolled down my face as I looked away breaking eye contact, Larry drove out of his driveway. I rolled up the window before giving the driver my address, we had a one hour drive ahead of us.

"Should I turn up the radio Ms?" Larry asked, Larry was a African American man who looked to be in his middle 40's. I nodded my head as he looked at me through the rear view mirror. He turned up the radio and Ella Mai ft. John Legend x Everything could be heard all over the car. I leaned my head against the window, watching the trees go by as I mumbled the lyrics to the song

"Never been good at trusting but there's something about you I'm inlove with

I say that I'm fine but you know that I'm lyin ' you read between all the lines

Love the way you pay attention

You notice everything so I give in my everything

My pain and my struggle, my friend and my lover, I put that on everything

It's like a forever thing "

I can't deny my attraction towards Leonardo but it was now more than my lust towards him, as crazy as it sounds I felt safe, secure and at home in his arms. I always had my guard up when it came to men but with him it was easy to surrender, I craved his touch and warmth. He admired every curve of my body and that made me feel worthy and self confident, he makes me feel beautiful. He obviously wasn't the man I dreamed of considering what he was involved in and his bipolar condition but he made me feel things I thought were impossible to feel. In such a short period of time I have fallen for Leonardo but keeping my distance from him is the right thing to do for me and probably him.

A/N

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