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You entered the room in blue scrubs, po-faced, serious, washing your hands at the sink like you were lost entirely to worrying thoughts. Jungkook hasn't replied to your texts or calls every since you parted away from this morning, he said he'll call you after the trial ends which was around 11am, but it's almost 7 and he didn't call.

He wouldn't do that, especially since it's your first day in this hospital, Jungkook would call..... many times if you were right judging him, he'd call asking how your day is so far, he'd call asking if you had lunch, he'd call for many reasons but he didn't......... and worse he did not answer yours.

Of course, you'd be worried.

When you tuned to the little girl in the hospital bed your face softened into a smile and you introduced herself before asking what had brought her to the hospital. As a nurse, you need a full report to give the doctor as soon as he enters.

You listened while taking her pulse, feeling her skin and pinching her nail beds of her fingers and toes. Occasionally you would ask a pointed question but other than that the chatter was no different to when you got her hair fixed.

Her name was Maya, 11 years old..... she came to the hospital after collapsing in school, she was sweet and managed to make you smile through your bads thoughts. You fussed with the call-bed, tying it around the bed-frame in Maya's reach and tidied around the bed. You raised the head of the bed saying that the doctor would come with her blood result to talk to her parents soon and then you were gone. Po-faced again, washing hands, writing on a folder outside the door.

So this was your last thing to do for today, the first day in Kok Han Hospital, you sighed and rolled toward the window, "Ah, Jungkook....."

You let out a deep breath then walked toward the changing rooms ready to go home.

Home.

Speaking about home, You moved back to your old apartment since you and Jungkook decided to start over.

Starting over as in dating, it's been about three months since you officially got your divorce and now you two are boyfriend and girlfriend. Jungkook would always pass by your house to give you a ride to work and sometimes when he's done working or when you don't have night shifts he'd come and drive you back, after having dinner or watching a movie or any other thing couples do.

Thus far so good, You liked being his girlfriend.... he's sweet and caring and treats you like a princess bu today..................

You'll have a serious talk to him if he doesn't give you a proper explanation.

As you walked through the children's department you couldn't help but notice the design, the hallway was like something out of Star Trek. Everything that could shine, did shine. There were stainless steel, sleek floors and the art on the walls were all-natural images in colors as bright as glacier melt-water or spring flowers. The air had a pure fragrance, not sterile, just clean. In the background played music at just the right level to give the patients and staff an emotional lift. But the best part was the ceiling, just clear and high arched. It was like standing out in the open without the risk of rain.

You smiled, that's why the children here are less scared than the ones you saw in the previous hospital.

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You pressed the code of Jungkook's house and entered the empty place, you figured you won't be able to sleep if you head to your apartment without a word from your stupid boyfriend.

So, You ended up in his house.

Taking off your heel, you looked around the place. Neat and tidy as always.

Jungkook wasn't the usual type of men, he didn't mess up the house when inviting his friends over, he never sleeps without taking a shower and he never forgets to do the laundry and many more things ....... He is very sensitive when it comes to smells. He doesn't want to become smelly in front of others and doesn't want to smell perfumes and all which was maybe the only thing that bothers you ....... just a little bit because now you had to buy unscented deodorant and only use natural perfumes, It was a pain in the ass at first since he didn't want to tell you about it, he'd just avoid being near to you whenever you wear your perfumes but then you noticed of course.

At first, he just suggests you don't put on perfumes at all saying you smell good and all - Bullshit - , but that would be cool if you didn't have to meet other people expect for him.

So, you dragged him with you to the mall and made him smell all the natural perfumes out there to pick one for you, a one that he'll like and won't mind you putting it on, after what he called 'torture' he falls in love with the Tom Ford Jasmin Rouge, it was 240$ and of course, he bought it to you and promised to get you one.

Guess you hit the jackpot when you found him.

You chuckled at the thought as you made your way to the kitchen to drink water, leaving all the lights off and since it's dark outside you could barely see your steps.

with a water bottle in your hand, you walked back to the living room and sat on the couch staring at the city outside through the big glass wall, the moon and the city lights were the only sources of light in the living room.

'Why he hasn't come home yet?' You worriedly looked at your watch, it was nearly 11:30 pm

You grabbed your phone from your bag and finally decided to call Jimin, you could have called him earlier but if Jungkook wasn't with him or one of the boys, they'll get worried too which you didn't want. After all, Jungkook is a grown man, you shouldn't have been that worried but........what to do, you love him.

Jimin answered after two rings.

"Hey Y/N, what's up?" You heard his voice from the other line, noticing the questioning tone he used.

You weren't surprised, it was late and you don't usually call them around this hour.

"Hi...." You tried to smile, "Amm how are you?"

"I am good, You?" he asked

"I am doing fine, well.....ammm did Jungkook call you today? or the boys?" You decided to get directly to the point.

"Jungkook? No, he didn't even text back in the group chat so I thought he's busy, why? is everything fine?" Jimin asked worriedly.

"Yeah don't worry, It's just...... he isn't answering my calls and he didn't arri-------" Jung when you were about to tell Jimin what's happening, you heard the lock code of the door being pressed, Jungkook......"Never mind Jimin, I think he arrived. Sorry for bothering you, good night." You hung up the phone not even waiting for Jimin to say something back, he'll call him later to explain.

The sound you heard next was the sound of the access denied that goes when the lock is incorrect. Does he forget the code?

You were about to stand up to unlock the door but the second try to put the code was a success and the door swung open.

You didn't move when you heard Jungkook's groan while struggling to take off his shoes, you raised your eyebrow when he coursed and gave up on his shoes.

You stayed silent and watched as he turned on the lights.

"Where were you?" You asked

"FUCK...Shit, Y/N fuck..." The man jumped and let out a few cursing words, "Y-You scared the hell out of me there babe.." he let out then looked away taking off his jacket. You watched as he throws it on the floor. ....What? I was just saying how neat and organized you are TT

You stood up walking toward him, "I was worried, Jungkook!" You said, "You could've at least call me...Are you okay?" I asked worriedly as he just showed you a thumbs up without lifting his head from the floor then totally ignored you and as he drags his feet toward the kitchen.

"Jungkook?" You walked after him, worried.

Standing by the entrance of the kitchen, you watched as he went into one of the cupboards and pulled out a box of milk.

Milk?

He doesn't drink milk at night.

unless........

You sighed, "J-Jungkook? Are you drunk?." you asked and he shook his head immediately while drinking the milk, He sounded drunk.

"I a-am not....Never........" He lied, You sighed when you noticed that he started to lose his balance, Jungkook walked and sat on top of the counter and carried on drinking ignoring your presence.

Yeah, he was drunk

Definitely drunk.

You walked him, arms crossed as you started at his face, "What happened?"

"Nothing......." He avoided you stares and when you didn't move away the man gave up and looked up at you, "I am d-drunk okay? ....tipsy m-maybe but not drunk " The hiccup he let out made him pause a second then spoke again "......Just had few a beer with the boys s--------"

"Don't lie to me Jungkook." You glared at him, "I just called Jimin, You weren't wit-----------"

"WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU CALL HIM? WHY JIMIN FOR GOD'S SAKE? " He suddenly yelled as he hopped off the counter.

You jumped back, not expecting the outburst, your heart clenches immediately.

'FUCK ......" He crushed the bottle then he threw it against the wall aggressively, " I am not.....I am not fucking d-drunk............SHIT." He groped and tugged his hair frustrated.

"J-Jungkook..." You whimper and look at him. throat clogging... "YOU ARE DRUNK, I'll go home." You lowly say before running out of the kitchen heading to the front door, you opened it.

You jump backward when Jungkook closes it back harshly, the loud bang of it echoes throughout the entire place giving you a scare. He bursts "Where do you think you're going at this hour? Did you call him to drive you as well? ...........TELL ME"

You stare at him wide-eyed. Your body shivering, shaking. Your tears are threatening to pour out from your eyes. You haven't seen him like this before, he's nothing like this before.

Jungkook.

"W-what do you mean? ", You manage to say, tone painful, looking away. The pounding of your head rather intensifies, your ears ringing.

What's wrong with him?

"D-Do you like him? "

"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU SAYING?" You scream out loud, frustrated, exhausted. Your tears finally pour down your eyes, heavy and many. He's drunk, you understand that but his words hurt you, why is he talking about Jimin like that? Did you do something wrong? "W-what d-did I do wrong?"

He fucked up.

Jungkook rakes his hands unto his messy hair, his jaw is set into a tight clench when he saw your eyes shining with tears, teeth grinding and gritting. "Fuck Y/N!" He grits sounding defeated.

"Y/N, I....." Jungkook gently touches your arm and you instantly jerk away, your eyes finally meet his - they're wide in shock and hurt. You see him retract his hand away and look away for a second. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry okay?" Jungkook says, his voice low and somehow...begging

"Call me when you remember what you said." You gulp down the lump in your throat.

You turned around ready to leave.

He promised to call you when the trial ends, he didn't.

He used to answer your calls all the time, he didn't.

He texts you to check on you, he didn't.

He always speaks to you gently, he didn't.

He never hurt you with his words, he did.

He did.

Out of all people, he's questioning Jimin? His best friend? Out of nowhere.........

You were offended.

As if he's saying you cheated or something.

"Y/N no!" Your whole body freezes when you feel him wrap his arms tightly around your shoulders and bury his head on the crook of your neck, stopping you from slipping off entirely. "Don't go, please."

More tears you cry. This isn't helping you at all. "You aren't in your mind Jungkook, It's better for me to leave."

You feel him shake his head. "No. No. No, don't go."

Jungkook turns you around and wipes the tears that fall from your eyes.

He cups your face in his hands making you look up into his eyes. His eyes are vulnerable, pleading and in pain as you describe it to be. His thumbs caress your wet cheeks. "Please baby...don't go. Don't leave me. I need you"

Your heart clenches in your chest for yourself and for him now.

"Fuck I messed up........I did." Jungkook doesn't break eye contact with you. He leans forward pressing his forehead softly against yours. "Please stay.....I need you now....I really do."

You heaved a sigh, then your eyes shut close. You lean back to him, your wall comes falling down once again. He's your ultimate weakness. Seeing him hurt as this tortures you, you'd rather take the pain away. Suddenly feeling stupid for waiting to leave when he's obviously not okay, something happened, something very bad happened. You could see it in his eyes, "What happened?"

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"Jungkook, Talk to me." You sat with him on the couch, holding his hands while looking at him, "Jungkook.."

He sighed then looked at your eyes, "Am I forgiven? " he begged with his eyes.

"Of course you are," One of your hands traveled to caress his cheek, he loves your touch, it was the only thing that can calm him down but this time it was not enough to erase the stain of guilt he was feeling, "But please don't drink alone again, okay?"

You smiled when he nodded, but the hurt was still in his eyes. "Baby? " curious you kept telling him to speak but when you saw his eyes starting to water, you froze. Shook and scared.

You know when he is upset, but he has never cried in front of you. Unsure of what to do you just stared at him. "I.........."

When he tried to speak, you get closer to him and hugged him, you felt his arms warring around you tightly. "I lost it...." he spoke under his breath but you heard it, "The case Y/N, I lost it," he added.

"Oh Baby!" you patted on his back gently, Jungkook never lost a case, maybe that's why he's THAT upset. You smiled. He's really hard working. "You scared me, I thought som--------"

He pulled away slowly and looked at you, his hands tightly holding yours, "You don't understand, I.............I p-promised her."

"Who?.."

"I feel terrible." He heavily sighed a defeated and frustrated sigh that is. His head falls unto the couch, his eyes close. He curses again and again, "I accepted a case not a long time ago, a young man in his twenties accuse of a hit a run, the victim died so it was........kinda hard." he started, eyes on the ceiling now, "I accepted it and did everything.........everything I could," His voice cracked at the end of what he said, "But......I lost, I....... left out one small detail. I didn't notice it I swear Y/N.....I swear..."

"I know, baby." You smiled at him, "I know you always do everything you can, always....If you messed up one time it's not the end of the world, you know,"

"The young man was charged with 20 years in jail because of me.......He's innocent, I know that but...... "

"Jungkook......" You stopped him, paused a little then stated," You can always call for judgment, right?" You gently said.

"Yeah..but.." He mentally murmurs to himself while he has his palm fisting, biting his lips to calm his heart down, "His little sister is very ill......" he looked down, "She is in the hospital waiting for him but........he can't go to her now, Y/N I don't know when the court will schedule the next judgment, It might be too late."