Hey, besties!!!!

Euhmmm so this chap will be 🌶🌶🌶

Just a heads up.

I fucking suck at writing smut, so don't get your heads up

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Elena's POV:

Alexander placed me down on his bed and then climbed on top of me. He caged me down between his muscular arms and strong chest. He kept his eyes on me and he cupped my chin to make me look up at him.

"My Elena. My gorgeous Elena", he muttered softly.

My heartbeat went faster when he pressed a kiss on my lips. This one was soft and tender. I waited for him to kiss me harder but he didn't. He kissed my lips as if they were the most fragile object in the entire world.

His hands slipped under my shirt. Goosebumps appeared on my stomach as he softly stroke it. My mind was silent for once. All I could focus on were the sensations that I felt when he touched me. His touch was like a feather but left me hungry for more.

He slowly pulled up the hem of my shirt. In a reflex, I held down my hands to keep my shirt in place. A frown crossed his handsome face and he placed a kiss on my neck.

"I will never hurt you", he kissed my ear.

He was doing so much all at once. I felt his fingers trace up and down my shoulders. His lips were trailing up and down my neck. His soft hair tickled against my face and it all felt very good. I don't know what took over me but I pulled off my shirt.

This was what I wanted and I won't allow my fears to stop it from happening.

His eyes were suddenly all over me and I felt a sense of reality hit me. I'd been too caught up in his kisses. I was getting self conscious. I've never been so exposed before a man with my consent.

The only thing that was between our chest was my bra. I had this urge to pull it off but I didn't find the courage.

"Bellissima", his voice was deeper than normal.

I felt something poke my stomach. When I looked down, I noticed that it was his bulge. It looked big. I would've kept looking if Alexander didn't raise my chin to his.

"If you don't want to do this, that's alright. I don't ever want you to feel like you have to do this.", his voice was firm.

I cupped his face with my hands and kissed him softly.

"I want to have sex with you."

Saying it out loud made my toes cringe but it was the truth. I want to take the next step in our relationship.

Alexander's eyes were filled with hunger as he nodded. He sat back up and watched me. He slowly started to unbutton his shirt. His chest was wide and muscular. He had the Famglia's, the business, symbol tattooed on his right breast. My eyes took in his six-pack and the small scars he had from fights. He was tanned and I squirmed in my seat. He was more than perfect and my fingers tingled with the need to touch him.

He unbuckled his pants and I watched how they dropped down. His bulge was now even bigger. I couldn't keep my eyes off it. He slowly climbed on top of me and brought his lips to mine. He kissed me deeply and I grabbed onto his biceps.

"Tonight is all about making you feel good", he muttered against my ear.

His tongue trailed down my neck to my chest. I bite my lip and arched my back. His thumb came up to my lips and opened them. He only needed one hand to unclip my bra. I watched how he captured my right breast with his tongue. I gasped loudly and tried to squirm away but he gripped me down tightly. My nipples hardened and I had to close my legs.

My hands went to his shoulders and I gripped onto them. If I couldn't take this, what would I do when we actually had sex? He looked up at me. His eyes were filled with amusement as he travelled to my left breast.

"My Elena", he muttered as he pressed a kiss on my stomach.

He sat up to pull down my shorts.

I was now only in my panties and I tried to calm down my breath. Nudity is such a scary thing. I trust Alexander and he'd never say anything that would hurt my feelings but I was still sensitive to be naked in front of a man.

"Do you know how beautiful you are?" He kissed my calves.

I blushed and watched how his lips travelled up my legs. I knew what he was going to do and it made me feel excited. I want to know what it feels like.

He opened my legs and lowered his head. I watched how he brought his mouth to my opening and I cried out in surprise when I felt his tongue against me.

He held down my waist as I tried to escape. It felt so good and ticklish that I couldn't take it. My hands found their way to his hair and I gripped hard. My eyes went up the ceiling and I tried to calm down my breathing. Something was building up inside of me and I was going insane. If this was only a small part of it all, then I understood why people liked to have sex so much.

Why did I have to wait so long to experience this?

Well, you were kinda traumatised, sis.

"Alex", I moaned when he pushed one of his fingers inside of me.

My legs started to shake as he pushed in another one. That thing that was building up inside of me exploded. Alexander sat up satisfied and licked his fingers clean. I was slightly exhausted but my eyes focused on his as he lowered his underwear. It was big and I wondered how this was even going to work.

He stroke it a few times before he leaned to the side and took out a condom from the cupboard. He put it on and came on top of me. He pressed a kiss against my cheek and locked our eyes.

"You're on the pill, right?"

I couldn't even talk, so I nodded.

"Good. I'm not sharing you for a long time", he muttered.

He positioned himself and I felt something poke against me. My hands went up his arms to his shoulders. I waited for him to enter. I was ready for him. I could feel that I was but when he did enter, it still hurt. My grip on his shoulders tightened and I buried my head against his chest. He was being careful and slow but I could feel myself tighten around him, making him groan.

"Fuck, Elena", he moaned against my ear.

He buried himself deeper and I felt my nails dig into his skin. It was not my intention to hurt him but I needed to grab onto something. He laid his hand under my neck and the other one under my shoulder. I felt him inside of me and how he moved in and out. It felt very sore and painful at first but after a while, I got used to him. But every time he went in deeper, I flinched. He kept a steady pace and another climax was building up inside of me.

My legs tightened around his hips and my hands travelled to his soft hair. I hugged him close to me and he let me. I basically hung onto him like a monkey. He licked my ear and whispered things to me that made me even wetter.

"Good girl", he muttered as I found another release.

I think I may have a praise kink.

Not too much later, he found his own. He sat up and squeezed my breasts tightly before he pulled out. He rolled down the condom and released his load on top of my stomach. I propped myself up on my elbows. The fluid was white and a bit chunky. I stared at it for a while before looking at Alexander. His cheeks were flushed slightly and he looked satisfied. I watched how he got up.

"You're tired", he noticed.

I was.

Sex was a whole ass workout.

The only workout I actually enjoy, though.

Alexander lifted me up in his arms and carried me to his en-suite. He sat me down on the toilet and softly caressed my cheek.

"You have to pee. It's important to do after having sex." He insisted.

I nodded dazedly and peed while he started the shower. I was in a weird mood. My body felt overwhelmed and I was over the moon with happiness. Alexander picked me up again and carried me into the tub. He sat behind me and pulled me close to him.

The hot water helped relax my muscles and I leaned against his strong chest. My eyes felt heavy but then a strong sense of relief hit me.

It made me cry.

"Baby, what's wrong?" He cupped my chin and inspected my face with furrowed brows.

I started to sob. The feeling suddenly overwhelmed me and I couldn't even talk. He held me and tried to comfort me but I wasn't sad.

I was happy that it was over.

"Did I hurt you too much? You didn't like it? I'm sorry, baby. Fuck, I'm so sorry." He apologised.

He was blaming himself.

"I'm happy that it's over. I'm happy that I can let you touch me without thinking about him." I whispered.

Ronan had popped into my mind a few times at the beginning but this moment was solely my boyfriend and I. I felt like I had finally freed myself from Ronan's chains. That I had finally taken revenge.

He was gone now for good.

I had reclaimed my own body.

"I'm proud of you, Elena." Alexander kissed my forehead.

I snuggled closer to him and smiled.

"I'm proud of myself." I whispered.

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A phone rang, but neither one of us moved. It was quite annoying and I snuggled my pillow closer. I had been sleeping so peacefully until the knocking started. Alexander groaned annoyed but pulled me closer to him. We didn't make an effort to go see who it was or answer the phone. All I wanted was to fall back into a deep sleep.

The ringing didn't stop and eventually I sat up a little. Alexander didn't loosen his grip on me but he had to settle with snuggling my legs. I reached over to the bedside and grabbed my second phone.

Amelia was calling.

"Hector's coming over in like an hour to talk to you. Get your ass home right now." She hissed through the phone.

"Fuck, I'll be there in a bit." I replied and jumped out of bed.

Bad bad bad decision.

I winced and my hands went to my stomach. I was fucking sore. My legs felt a bit unsteady and I leaned onto the bed.

"What's wrong?" Alexander woke up.

"Hector's coming to my place in an hour I have to go home." I informed him quickly.

He saw me squirming and wincing. Alexander stepped out of bed, butt naked and lifted me up in his arms. I giggled and held onto him.

"Take a shower and I'll get you some painkiller." He kissed my forehead.

I jumped in the shower and tried to wash myself as quickly as possible. The hot water helped with my tense muscles but I still drowned the painkiller Alexander gave me with water.

I stood in front of his mirror trying to cover my hickeys with concealer. I was already planning on wearing a woollen turtleneck but Hector liked to analyse everything. He was going to interrogate me and I couldn't have him be more suspicious than he already was.

"Try to make up with your family." Alexander told me softly.

He knew what had happened. I'd cried to him about it because snapping at Hector like I did was not my proudest moment. I was just so frustrated and took it out on him in a mean manner. It was childish and rude.

My brother loves me a lot and I think that sometimes leads him to make irrational and idiotic decisions. I know that he cares a lot but I'm suffocating.

I'm scared to tell him that because I feel like he wouldn't understand. Or he will understand but won't change.

"You love your family, bellissima. Try to work things out and cherish them."

I turned to him as he softly added.

"They're gone before you know it."

My heart sank and I tightened my arms around his waist. He had no one left. His parents died a few years ago and his little brother was gone as well. He told me that his parents died in a place crash but he hasn't been able to tell me what had happened to his brother.

I didn't push him because whenever we talked about it, I saw the pain in his eyes.

He'll tell me when he's ready.

"You're my family too." I kissed him.

He pulled me closer and a familiar smirk appeared on his face.

"Are you proposing, my love?"

I playfully punched him and rolled my eyes.

"Though, I believe in breaking gender norms, I expect you to propose to me. It has to be the most spectacular thing that you've ever done in your life or I'll say no."

"I still have some time to figure it out." He winked.

I laughed and dragged him towards the elevator. I needed to go home now to talk to my brother. He wouldn't propose to me right now and that was fine by me. We've only been dating for six months. We have all the time.

At least until my brothers find out.