[Nea's POV]

Waking up without Adam by my side is not a great feeling. I thought he's back yesterday, although it pretty late and then he gets out of the room.

Did he not sleep here yesterday?

I can feel my heart gets heavy again and I need to stop this unnecessary thinking. I get up and went to the bathroom to drown myself in a warm bath until I feel better. I was filling up the bathtub with warm water, but I can't keep my head from wandering or running wildly inside. There's a lot of scenarios or probability running inside my brain as to why Adam didn't sleep here yesterday.

I sigh and take my clothes off except for my lingerie as I dip my body into the bathtub. It was soothing and it keeps me from having unnecessary thoughts for a while. But it seems I underestimated myself of these troubles since I keep on thinking about it even when I am in the warm water. I keep my eyes closed and take a big breath before I dip all of me inside the warm water, I can feel myself floating, but my heart is still heavy.

Damn, I can't get this off of me easily this time. Why?! Why?!

Suddenly there's a strong hand pulled me out of the water and I cough out water for the sudden realization that I was literally drowning for a bit there. Thank god there's someone to pull me out.

"What the hell are you trying to do?!" Adam's voice rings out in my ears, a bit loud actually.

"A..Adam?" I try to find his face as the bright light covers his face.

"Are you trying to kill yourself? Is this what you have been thinking all along Nea?!"

"No! of course not, why did you say that?" I'm still trying to be composed.

"You're literally drowning just now, and that what you said is not trying to kill yourself? Explain to me Nea!" Adam yells again as he shakes me, Sara comes in a rush and her eyes widen, "What happened? Adam? Nea?"

"Get that towel for me." Adam points to the towel and Sara quickly passes it to Adam.

"What happened?" Lucas' voice comes from our room and Adam covers me quickly with the towel. Sara pushes Lucas away from the room.

"What are you thinking?? Care to tell me? Is this what you have been doing since two years ago?" Adam bombarded me with those questions that make me suffocate.

"Warm water calms me. It's a little bit of therapy for me, so yes I've been doing this since two years ago." I stand up still covering my upper body with the towel.

"You do know there's another therapy thingy that is called talk?? You can just talk to me Nea, is that so hard to do?"

I can feel burning inside, I'm getting angry, "Is this what this is all about?? Yesterday fights and not sleeping here last night? Is this it?"

Adam rubs his face, "You know what, let's just... forget it. I won't force you."

"But your action contradicts your words, Adam!" My voice rise and Adam looks at me, he's also losing his patience.

"Yeah, you know what I'll be honest. This is bothering me, a lot! So what is so fucking hard to just say what's on your mind? I do say I'll be patient, but Nea its been months, for god sake, months! I've been trying to figure you up, but if you don't open up I don't know what to do anymore!"

Adam gets out of the bathroom and sits on the bed, putting his head in between his hand. He looks stressed. I shut the bathroom door and tear rolls down as I silently sob behind the door. I quickly finish up showering and when I'm out of the bathroom Adam is not there.

I put on my hoodie, jeans, and sneakers. I walk downstairs quickly, to avoid the others. I walk out of the house and aimlessly walking the town.

This is our first big fight and I know the reason is me. I'm the problem, not Adam. He has been kind to me all along, although in the first place he stood me off. But now, he has done anything for me and I am still not opening up to him. I don't even say that I trust him, what a good wife I am.

I didn't realize how long have I been walking, but I am now in front of my old house.

This is where it all started, damn I just wished I could forget all of this.

I let out a deep breath and crouched down hiding my face with my hair.

I'm a mess, no one should ever be in my life.

Someone put a hand on my head and says "Aryn are you okay?"

I look up and my face is wet with tears, Luke looks surprised as he hugs me in a quick motion.

"God! What happened? Tell me."

I sob harder by now and Luke keeps on calming me down for almost two hours in front of his house.

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I am now at Sam's with Luke, he forces me to eat since I haven't eaten since yesterday.

How did I endure not eating for almost 24 hours?

Sam's just glancing at both of us carefully as he hands me my food. Well, I think it's mainly because of my puffy eyes and red nose, I look like a reindeer.

Luke patiently looks at me and says when he looks at my untouched food, "Eat and then you'll feel better. At least take a few bites so that you won't get sick later on." I nod and eat a few bites.

Damn, this is so good. It's a waste to turn it down.

All I know is that I finished eating the whole food although I said I'm not hungry just now. I look at Luke who's trying hard not to laugh and somehow I laugh hold a laugh too. Lastly, both of us burst out laughing because of me.

"Thank you, Luke. I do feel better." I look at him in a grateful way.

Luke smiles and ruffles my hair, "You're most welcome kiddy! I'm always there for you and forever will be."

"Until you found your missus I guess." Luke's expression turns sad for a second and then he smiles, "Yes, definitely."

"Just so you know, Aryn. I'll still be there for you although I've found my missus. I'm the reason you turn like this and I'll be responsible till the end. That's my promise to you." Luke puts a hand on top of my head as he promises like how we were when we're kids.

"Adam." I heard someone says that name and my head whipped to the door and found Adam's looking at me and Luke, with his hand on top of my head.

He looks defeated, angry and sad at the same time. I push Luke's hand away and stand up as I walk to him, but Adam put a hand up as he shakes his head, "Don't bother."

He walks out of the door fast and I was in a daze until Luke pushes me to run after Adam. So I run after him and tug his arm as he's about to open his car's door.

"Adam, please I can explain."

"There's nothing to explain Nea. You find him instead of me, talk to him. You trust him than me anyway. So please just let me go." Adam voice cracks and I gulp down a fear.

"No! I didn't... I mean." I look at Adam's eyes and his tears roll down with his hurt expressions. I let go of my hand and Adam quickly get in the car as he drove away fast, out of my sight.

I look lost and my hand trembles as I put my hands on my head as I mumble non-stop, "I hurt him."

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