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Once our kiss finally broke, Landon helped me down from the rock. I had thought we were leaving but, he did something completely unexpected, he started to take his shirt off. Which made me blush as always, I've seen him without a shirt but, every time will still make it seem like the first. Mia on the other hand basically urged me to look at him. Whereas I was too nervous to, his hand came up to grip my chin to lift my head up.

"You can look you know, I'm all yours." he said it softly but, with a smirk, making the heat rush to my cheeks once again.

Then he pecked my lips quickly, lifting his foot up against the rock, starting to take his shoes off. This time I did for once allow my eyes to look at him, his body was well built, I definitely couldn't tear my eyes away. From his abs to his defined chest. I quickly looked away once he straightened himself up.

That's when I finally got my head out of the gutter to ask, "W-what are you doing?"

"Not me, we." he stated, leaving his shoes there and turning to face me, when he noticed I still wasn't following he continued, "We're going for a swim."

"What?" A light laugh escaped me, "I don't have anything to wear." I muttered, kind of embarrassed.

If he wanted me to just go in my underwear I wasn't ready for him to see that much of me. It was embarrassing as my body wasn't the prettiest. Even if he was my mate, I hate my scars on my body. I could only imagine what he'd think.

Landon grabbed his shirt off the rock and tossed it to me which I caught luckily, "You can wear my shirt, yeah?" he asked, starting to unbutton his pants which sent my nerves to sky rocket.

"O-okay." I said breathlessly, as I watched him.

I didn't know how to react watching him get completely undressed in front of me besides his boxers. It's not like we changed in front of each other. I always changed in the bathroom and him in the room. I've never seen a sight like this, let alone it being my own mate. He pulled his pants down, stepping out of them before picking them up and throwing them over the rock.

Then he ran a hand through his hair which was already so messy from me. A part of me didn't dare look there but, my curiosity got the best of me and I glanced down quickly.

To say the least Mia was right,

"Alright, I'm gonna go get in, don't take to long." he winked at me, which made me feel weak in the knees.

Then he jogged towards the deep end of the river and I turned around facing the rock. I breathed in deeply to calm my nerves, clutching the thin fabric of his shirt in my hand. The thought of him possibly looking over here while I got undressed to put the shirt on. Was enough to send my nerves into overdrive.

Mia kept telling me, his scent was still on the shirt, so I inhaled to calm myself,

I smiled at the memory of when he did say that I was perfect, it was before our first kiss. Mia was right, he's only ever called me beautiful ever since we met. Not once has he looked at me with disgust in his eyes or resentment. After counting to three I got undressed, my pants being last. As I stepped out of them I ran my hand over my stomach, looking at the scars that were also on my back too.

When I went to put the shirt on Mia begged for me not to. That I should take this as an opportunity to wash away my past. To cleanse myself as I started my new future with Landon. I sighed and looked down at my body once more. Overall my body didn't have any fat, from the way I've ate all those years but, lately I've gained some back.

Which didn't showcase so much of my bones, anymore.

My chest was about average size and I thanked myself for actually wearing a matching set of undergarments. I sucked up whatever courage I could muster up then I placed the shirt on the rock, turning around. The sand felt tingly under my feet as I walked in the direction he went. When I spotted him he had just went underwater, so I took this time to move closer.

The cold water splashed at my feet, my arms wrapping around myself just as he came up, running his hand down his face. When our eyes met, his eyes racked over my body, his lips parting and my heart started to beat faster. I took another deep breath, before dropping my arms to my sides walking more into the water. The same time he started to swim closer, it was so cold but, the heat I felt from his stare numbed me to the feeling. My body was halfway in when he got to me.

He reached out to my hand bringing me fully into the cool water. My hands hooking around his neck, my legs wrapping around his waist warily while he stared at me. The look in his eyes filled with, tenderness, wonder and a look of astonishment.

"You are stunning." his hand pushed through my hair, the tone in his voice adoring and tremulous.

A smile made it's way to my face and I titled my head down slightly. I felt his hand run over my stomach, touching each of my scars on the way. Then he did the same to my back, my heart beating faster.

"So, beautiful." he mumbled, which made me feel like I was floating.

With my sudden confident boost I brought him to me, leaning in smashing my lips onto his. In return his hand that was in my hair wrapped around my waist the other keeping us afloat in the water. His hold on me was tenacious, as he kissed me hard and rough. Yet, gratifying, with a fervent need, it fueled my need for him just as much.

When he pulled away a grin was on his face, the same one probably on mine. Then he leaned into my neck kissing my mark which made me smile even more.

He kissed up my neck, to my cheek making me blush, "Hold your breath, baby."

I did as he asked and he plunged us deep under the water. During that time I let go of him, coming up feeling refreshed and free. A sense of calmness washing over me as I brushed my hair back from my face. I turned to look in the direction of Landon to see him already staring at me.

"What?" I laughed, keeping myself afloat, he did the same a smile etching onto his face.

"You're just." he sighed, "I don't think you understand how perfect you are, like truly." he finished staring at me with a soft expression.

"T-Thank you." I breathed out feeling overwhelmed with happiness from how much he praises me, so much so I wanted to return the favor, "So are you." I replied back, trying not to sound so nervous for saying it.

"You think so?" he chuckled, which was a beautiful sound to me, I only nodded, "Not talking huh, maybe I should tickle you again." Just when he made a move to grab me I squealed pushing myself back.

Splashing some water at him and laughing when he did the same back to me. In this moment I couldn't find myself to be any happier. Hearing his laugh mixed with mine as we lived in this moment, our moment. Was more than I could have ever asked for. I'm happy and I'm with someone who really cares about me.

Who's made me feel like I was someone again, who made me feel like I was alive again. Not just a shell of a person. He made me break out of it to be more than that, when I thought I would always be just nothing but, the guys punching bag. Now I was an actual person who felt beautiful and happy. All thanks to him, though I also want to thank myself for allowing myself to let him in.

Because, if I hadn't I think I would still be a shell of a person.

"I love you."