Chapter 32

Adams POV

The atmosphere was mixed with all different emotion. I didn't know which one stood out the most. But one thing that i could assure you was than no fear was radiating off Mariah's body, it was more confidence that she had let out. I finally felt my pride and my heart would be safely in her hands than rather in my own.

She gave me a princess, my little princess, Alina. I looked down at the source that had created this atmosphere, my beautiful little girl Alina. How could I be embarrassed or even ashamed of this little girl? I may not have known her since the day she was born or even create any memories of her birth. But i know I love her.

This time guilt had spread through my every vein. This was my fault that I hadn't gotten to know my daughter.

1) I had exiled my mate and mother of my child

2) I raped her and became a monster that her mother never wanted to know

3) And third I didn't even think about the consequence of the rape and tried to find her. Never thought Mariah could have conceived. I never once searched for her, I was too busy being an arrogant alpha that my life was so blind.

I feel like a criminal. Actually I am one, I am a monster. I am them men that had hurt me, but i was worse. I hurt Mariah from all people. My one and only mate.

"You know what Jesse get the hell out" I spat venomously through my clenched teeth. The death glares she was shooting Mariah had gotten me off the edge, but now her gaze was hard on my little girl. No one should even dare look at my little girl in such a way. I don't care if you haven't hurt her, but anyone who gives my little girl that look will pay for their own death. By this I mean every word, they will die in their own hands.

"W-what?" she stuttered in utter disbelief at the way i spoke to her. I bet she's horrified that I'm picking the side of a little girl than her, but she should know that my daughter comes first in any circumstances.

"Get your daggers off my little girl or else Jesse I will-"

"Hurt my little baby" she butted in glaring at me. Mariahs posture froze by her comment about 'her' baby.

I let out a dry chuckle which stiffened her body up. "What did you say?"

"w-what do you mean?" she tumbled over her own words, confused but scared at my question

"You said 'my' as in only yours. You didn't say 'ours'" She gulped hard shaking her head violently looking at me with water pooling in her eyes. Then she searched the room looking at her mother who just stayed quiet, who justclutched onto her hands resting them on her heart.

My mother just stood their horrified by my words. She knew what Jesse was capable of but getting pregnant with someone else's baby wasn't something she would have thought Jesse would have done. She always believed everyone had dignity in them, but guess not since Jesse has far from that.

"You know what I meant Adam. This baby is ours" she snapped defensively. But her voice squeaked at the end like she knew she was finally caught, actually is caught.

"Keep down your voice" I said in low but deadly voice. I looked down at Alina so everyone in the room, knew why they need to be silent. To let my little princess sleep.

My heart squeezed when I called her my 'princess', because Mariah's dad always called Mariah his princess. And I mocked that word which i know say to my own daughter.

"Adam was she conceived through the-" Jesse trembled looking from me to Alina. I was about to speak but was cut off.

"Don't say it" Mariah whispered from beside me. "Every time you say that word you make it seem like Alina was a mistake. But she never was, rape is unforgivable" she took an intake of breath. "There are no buts in it. It's sadistic and disgusting, no one deserves that, but my daughter was no mistake. Adam may never be forgiven or liked by me but he loves his daughter and that all that matters to me. I would never want someone to go through the same ordeal, whether it's done by a mate or not, it's still disgusting. I am making a hard choice with my heart, soul and mind, by even letting him see Alina" my heart thuded in ym chest by her words. I felt like my ehart was being torn apart, was Mariah going to never let me see my dauhgter? "Alina loves her dad and if I take her away from him it will be wrong."

I sighed in relief as it washed over me liek a waterfall. I will get to see my little girl grow up to be 'my' little princess.

"But that doesn't mean I'm on good terms with him" she said firmly.

My heart fell in half, ever beat my heart made I felt Alina moving with it. I understood everything she said, I was truly a monster. Raping a venerable girl, with no regrets or remorse to her. And i was in denial after all them times. I made myself feel like a victim, i was stupid and delusional.

"I want my alpha title to be ripped off from my chest. Literally" I closed my eyes feeling the tense in the air and heavy breathing of each and every person i this very room.

i wanted to feel the pain of losing the title. When an alpha is stripped down form their position, the feeling is excoriating. This is because no alpha is ever knocked off by their title; it only happens if someone does something bad. So nature makes sure pain is given to ensure you that your mistake of losing such a big title, has a purpose behind it.

The difference between Leo losing it was that he wasn't fully given it and he chose not to be one. His heart was never set to be one, so he declined it during the training so no pain ever came to him.

However, in my case i will feel pain in each limb and vein in my body. Most alphas that go through this have to drink some type of herb, well every alpha does this but i don't want to. I want to feel the power being forced off my shoulder.

"Adam don't be silly" my mother scowled.

"Mum i don't care. I don't deserve that title and i don't think the other members agree with me"

"Don't you dare say that, Adam! Everyone is angry and upset by your actions but they all know the truth and for you to have no pride in yourself, these people love you. Little kids look up to your more since the truth had come out. These children were taught about honesty and arrogance. You taught them!" my mother huffed with anger, but i could see the sadness in her vice.

Then a little sequel made us jump. It was Alina who was moving in my arm. I sent a look at my mother, who just dismissed it and looked at Alina, who as now rubbing her tired eyes.

"Mama" she cried silently, looking at the strangers amongst her.

Mariah quietly got up and took Alina in her arms and cradled her. My mother looked upset by Alina's reaction to her. My mother loves children, and they love her. But by seeing her own grandchild cry by seeing her made her upset.

"Mum she's a shy little girl" i said, which made a warm smile tug at the edge of my mother's lips.

"Nothing like you then" my mother chuckled.

I looked at Mariah who was saying something to Alina which made her giggle and turn her face away from her and wave at my mum, who smiled at her, and looked hesitant to hold her. But it shocked me to see my mother retreat back and just adored her grandchild from a distance. I knew it's painful for my mother but she knew Alina could be frightened and nervous around her.

I sent her an apologetic smile, which she just nodded to looking back at Alina. Jesse stared at Alina in awe, which made me scowl. Jesse looked annoyed at Mariah. I knew Mariah would never forgive her sister, but I felt like part of their separation was because of me.

"Mariah sweetie she looks like your dad" a croaky voice whispered which made all our heads snapped to Mariah's mum who was standing there with tired eyes with waters flowing in her sky blue eyes.

"Thank the lord" Mariah laughed. I stared at Mariah in disbelief. This wasn't the Mariah we all knew.

"If she looked like my mother god knows what I'll do" she said laughing at her mother. This side shocked us so much, Mariah was so gentle but her speaking to her mother like this wasn't a side anyone has seen. "Did you know my mother's a monster and well my father is gentle like... well you can't ever compare him to anything. He was just gentle. I ask god why he ever made you his mate, your total opposites. You were a pain in the a-butt" she stopped mid sentence looking down at Alina who was cuddled up to her chest. "And poor father had to put up with it" Mariah spat. I knew it was all due to anger, but the look on her mothers face, made me want to pull Mariah back.

Her mother looked torn and broken by them words from her very own, trustworthy, honest girl of a daughter, Mariah.

"I'm sorry" her mother whispered putting her head down in shame.

"Guess what you witch sorry doesn't even mean a thing to me. This just a simple word like... like 'woops'. And you" she turned to Jesse "are a sick little slut who spread her legs for anyone. Including a human. Tell that baby's father that you're carrying his baby. You're sick and deluded." Mariah hissed.

Jesse looked so angry but composed herself quickie. "Mama" Alina said. My head snapped back to Alina who looked scared but still defensive, while her little hands were cupping Mariah's face. She turned her little head towards her head, possibly glaring at Jesse, because Jesse's reaction was pure shock. "Bad!" Alina said, which made me chuckle. She pointed her tiny little finger at Jesse who swore under her breath at Alina.

I was about to get up and sort the bitch out but I knew it would scare Mariah and Alina off, so I restrained myself from ripping her head off.

"Alina sweetie do you want some chocolate". My mother asked fiddling in her bag, which i knew had my snicker in-my favourite chocolate of all times. She stepped forward extending her hands for Alina to take but Alina smile and shook her head. My mother insisted but I shook my head at my mother who was trying attempts to talk to Alina.

Alina shook her head, and smiled at my mother. "Mama" she looked at Mariah. Then she did some weird actions to her face, which made Mariah chuckle understanding her babbles and actions.

"Yes sweetie chocolate does get messy" she said adoring her daughter at the same time. The room felt silent and Mariah looked at Jesse who sent daggers to both girls, Mariah shook her head, which made my wolf calm down. Jesse was about to say something but Mariah cut her off. "I think I'm going to leave." She muttered before walking away.

"No!-" I began but it was too late as she walked out with my daughter on her hip. I stared at the cream coloured door, still seeing Alina's little head turning around waving at me. I didn't even get the time to blow a kiss to my daughter and say bye.

I turned my head to the 3 of them. "Leave before I lose it" i said quietly, growling under my breath.

"But-" Jesse started, but i cut her off with my anger.

"Out!" I screamed. "Didn't you just see my little girl walk out of that door? You shouldn't have come. Any of you lot" I said barked at the 3 of them. I knew they were only visiting me but watching my daughter go away with Mariah broke my heart.

"Adam-" Jesse said once more which made me laugh bitterly at her she really had the nerve to say something, because of her my daughter walked out of them hospital doors.

"out." I ordered with my alpha tone, which made them all look down at their feet.

"But ba-"

"Go to hell Jesse!" I yelled at Jesse who whimpered from my tone. She backed up to the door followed by my mother and hers.

Then Jesse muttered something under her breath.

"She's going into labour" my mother whispered.

so what do you think?

Jesse is still horrible and what do you think about Mariahs mum, should she be forgiven.

And what about Adams mum, lover her/hate her?