"Did I tell you how much I love cuddling with you?" Jax mumbles into my neck. "I love your scent, your warmth, burying my face in between your boobs."

I rolled my eyes. "I love you," I whispered and he looks up. His green eyes met my blue ones.

"I love you." He pecks my lips.

"How many kids do you want?"

He looks at me and I just stare at him. I wasn't expecting that to come out of my mouth. It caught us both off guard.

"I'm sorry, that was very random. I didn't mean to--"

"Don't worry. To answer your question I want a whole NFL football team."

My eyes widen. I placed my hand on my stomach.

"You're joking, right? I'm not gonna push out 52 kids!" I hit his shoulder causing out to let out a chuckle.

"How about half?"

"Jaxson Brice Monroe!" I whined and he chuckles.

"I want at least four." He says.

"Four is a good number. We have three more to go." I said mentally preparing myself.

Should I tell him?

The doorbell rings causing both of us to jump.

"Can you get it, I have to put on pants." I nod and got up from the bed.

I opened the door to stand face to face with a guy. He's probably in his 40's.

"Hello. Does Jackie Moore and Jax Monroe live here?" He smiles showing his pearly whites.

"Depends on who's asking."

"I'm his uncle."

"Oh. Well, I have to ask Jax if you can come in or not." I asked trying to close the door.

"Yeah." He pushes the door, walking inside bumping my shoulder in the process.

Fucking rude ass prude.

When he touched me I felt something was off.

I took in a deep breath, trying to keep myself calm.

"Wait I didn't catch your name?" I said. He turns around and points a gun at my forehead.

"Ray Monroe. Jeffrey's older brother."

"W-what do you want?" I stuttered. He could literally pull this trigger and you could die.

Holy shit we're going to die.

"You're the girl that killed my brother right? How about I go kill someone you love that way we would be even." He points the gun upstairs.

Please don't come downstairs Jax I begged in my head.

"Please no. Just take me and you could do whatever you want to me. Please don't hurt them."

"Wow, you're gonna risk your life to someone like Jackie and Jax?"

"Yes."

"You're an idiot." He rolls his eyes.

I really hope Jax can't find a pair of pants. I don't want him coming down here.

"Leave them alone. Take me, I killed your brother. If anyone should be punished, it should be me." I begged.

Journey needed her dad. The guy who has been watching over her since the beginning. I rather die than see Journey without him.

"Brynn who's at the— Ray?" Jax says coming out of his room slowly.

"Your girlfriend here is actually risking her life to save you and your whore of a mother." Ray laughs grabbing my arm and pulling me to his side.

I blinked back my tears, trying hard not to cry.

"Let my girl go." Jax slowly walks down the stairs.

"At the end of the day, one person is coming with me. It's either you or her. Or your little daughter." Ray smirks.

"Leave Journey out of this." I snapped and he hits me with the side of his gun.

"Shut up whore! Let the gentlemen handle this shit." He spats in my face and I slapped him.

"You'll regret this." He points the gun at my stomach.

"No!" I shouted and I twisted his arm. Before what I realized was happening Jax tackled Ray.

He tries to grab the gun but fails. Ray throws punches at Jax.

I called 911 and then I felt a sharp pain in my leg. I looked down to see a bullet has pierced through my skin. I crouched down, as my vision gets blurry. All I can hear focus on is the blood oozing out of my leg.

"Brynn, you and Journey are my angels okay?. Please stay strong and take care of our daughter. I promise I'll come back to you." Jax yells. Ray throws one more punch knocking Jax out.

"No Jax!" I whispered, letting the tears fall out.

"Listen to me bitch. I'm going to take Jax away just like you took my brother. I'm no killer but I will make sure Jax will get tortured. All of this will be your fault." He hits with the gun and all I saw was darkness.

~

I woke up in a white room. I had needles in me. My left leg was stinging, and my head was in an immense amount of pain.

"Brynnley you're awake." I see Dylan. He is sitting next to my hospital bed holding my hand.

He had dark circles under his eyes, his eyes were red and swollen. "Your parents are with your doctor at the moment, they'll be back." He whispers.

"What happened?"

"Ray took Jax. We don't know where they went but police are trying their hardest."

A tear rolls down my cheek. "It's my fault," I whispered.

"No, don't be like that. This isn't your fault."

"If I didn't kill Jeffrey, he wouldn't have taken Jax. He's going to torture him." I cried.

Thinking of Jax being beaten and tortured all because of me broke me into pieces.

Dylan hugs me, as the tears flow freely down my cheeks.

Another thought flashes through my head making me sob even more.

"Dylan, did the doctors tell you anything?" I mumbled as we pulled apart.

"Other than you're going to have to stay off your feet for a little while no."

"Dylan." I felt more tears roll down my cheeks.

"What Brynn? What's going on?" He asks worriedly.

"I'm pregnant."

Shock. There was no other emotion but shock.

He engulfed me into another hug. "We'll get through this okay?"

I cried harder.

I was going to be a single mother to two little angels.

His angels.

Those words continued to ring every day in my head. No matter where I went, what I was thinking, those words were permanently stuck in my head.

I won't give up until you're home with us again Jax. I promise.

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published: january 20th, 2021

Soooo uhhhh this is the last chapter for book one and you probably hate me now but I promise I'll make it up to you!

Like I've mentioned before I'm not sure if I'll be posting until March or April but I will release the prologue to the second book on my birthday and if I'm ready, I'll post the chapter the following week.

If you haven't read my previous author's notes I'm taking a month and a half-ish off so that I can write and edit chapters so I could post more than once a week. I'm thinking maybe 2-3 maybe even 4 times a week so Monday, Wednesday and Friday or just Tuesday thru Thursday. Or would y'all want it to be Friday thru Sunday? Let me know by commenting your preference!

I hope you guys had an amazing week/day. Please remember to stay safe and love yourself.

I will have another q & a session sometime in February and just because I wanna check up on all my beautiful readers. So until then, bye babies I love you! MUAH!