I decide not to bother with my hair and just wash it and leave it down in it's natural waves. I look in the mirror and see how long my hair has grown. It's down to my elbows now. I shrug and put on my outfit for the day.

I slide on my black ripped frayed cut off shorts with my button down blouse and grey long cardigan. I grab my bag and say bye to my mom and dad on my way out. I get into my car and Sammy comes running out, "Wait, wait!" He pants and hurries to get into my car and i laugh.

"Oh come on you know I wouldn't have left without you, Sammy." He tries to catch his breath putting on his seat belt while I backed us out of our drive way.

"Well you never know, you've totally changed. You actually have a life now." I roll my eyes and shake my head.

We drive to school and I park walking in. Sammy goes off with his little friends by his friend Chris' locker. Sammy is advanced so he skipped a grade so now he's a 9th grader here at the high school.

I open my locker grabbing my things and Ryan comes up next to me and opens her locker. "So have you seen him yet?" I sigh and hook my grey cardigan on the hook in my locker. "Not yet. And I' not looking forward to it, honestly."

Ryan nods, "I'm sorry, Ash." I shrug and keep putting away my things and grabbing what I need for first period when the bell rings and I close my locker.

"Let's go."

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I feel so bad for my best friend. I can't help, but feel guilty, like if all of this was somewhat my fault. Okay all my fault. I mean I was the one who forced her to go to that stupid party. I had to pressure her into getting her life started. I mean all I really wanted was for her to look back at high school and think of good fun memories. Not heartbreaks and regrets.

I sigh and grab my Calvin Klein messenger bag and walk down the hall. I have study hall this period and nothing to do. Suddenly arms are wrapped around me and I smile knowing exactly who it is. I turn around to see my boyfriend, Trip smiling at me. "Hello beautiful," he says and kisses me softly on the lips and I try not to faint right here.

"Hi," I blush and he wraps his arm around my shoulders and we saunter to the library.

Trip goes to find us a place to sit while I grab a snack at the vending machine.

"Ryan!" I hear someone say my name and I turn to see Bain walking up to me. He looks very diffrent. Theres bags under his eyes, his usual bright green eyes are dull and lifeless, and he looks exhausted.

"Bain? You look like shit." I say and he rolls his eyes a glare appearing. But I don't care, he hurt my best friend!

"What do you want?" I say venomously.

Bain sighs and runs a hand through his hair. "I need to talk to Ahsley. Do you know where she is?"

I scrunch my eyebrows together putting a hand on my hip , " and why should I tell you anything? All you've ever done is hurt her."

Bain groans with frustration and punches the vending machine. "Dammit Ryan! I have feelings okay?! Shit I don't understand and I don't want to understand, but all I know is that I just need her around alright? Now tell me where the hell she is."

I stand there shocked. Feelings? For my best friend?.....

Oh my god!! He has feelings!

"Er-um sh-she's in K405! History go ! " I say and Bain turns to the left hall and runs.

Trip comes up to me with a worried look and puts q hand on my back,"Babe? Are you okay? Was that Bain? What does he want? Where did he go?" Trip asks wanting to know while I just stare at the direction Bain ran with a shocked smile on my face.

"Nothing. He's just about to change my best friend's life ."

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I keep running until I hit the classroom she's in. I have no idea what I'm going to do, or why but with everything falling apart I know I just need her to be there.

Someone to sass at me and put me in my place when I get out of line.

I need that sexy snarky smart mouth on that mousy shy nerdy quiet beautiful girl.

I burst in and the whole class turns their attention to me and away from Mr. Carmichael giving a lecture by the board.

"Ashley," I say and she looks up at me from her desk right smack in the middle of the crowd. Her black rimmed glasses falls down her nose a little and she pushes it back up her light brown eyes wide stare at me with shock.

"Bain," I hear her whisper her lips parting .

"Mr. White you are not allowed to just barge in here!" Mr. Carmichael interrupts and I just walk up further towards the desks ignoring the 40 year old.

"Ashley I know I've done some really fucked up things lately," I start when Mr. Carmichael interrupts again, "Mr. White that profanity is not allowed in my classroom now leave!"

I turn to glare at him, "can't you see I'm doing something right now? Go somewhere I don't fucking care I'm in the middle of something old man now stay out of it!""

The class attempts to hold in their calls for burns and laughter. I turn back to Ashley looking shocked and confused. "Ahsley like I was saying I know I'm a fucked up guy a really really fucked up guy but shit in my life is falling apart and the last thing I need is to lose you too. You want to be friends? Okay let's be friends whatever I don't care I just know I need you to be there to sass me out and be a smart mouth," I pant finishing my rant and Ashley just looks at me. The entire class Is staring at us girls glaring at Ashley the guys now staring at her like they're seeing her for the first time.

Well fuck them she's mine.

What?

Suddenly ashley stands up and comes towards me and I swallow the tennis ball in my throat.

Ashley licks her lips and the looks up at me and nods smiling softly. "Okay." Is all she says.

But that's all I wanted.

I don't care who sees, i bring Ashley into a hug and bury my face in her hair and neck breathing her soft scent in immediately calming me.

People gasp in the classroom and I hear Ashley gasp a little and tighten my arms around her and glare at everyone in the classroom and they all shut their mouths.

Ashley puts her hands on my back and hugs me back and I sigh with relief. I let her go and she looks at me with a look I don't understand.

Mr. Carmichael tells me that now it's time to go and my punishment will be discussed later in the principles office and after school detention.

I shrug and walk out feeling like a fucking god.

I'm back baby.