After eating all of my delicious breakfast, I decided to clean up the kitchen a bit since Mr. Cocky Cooker didn't feel like cleaning up his mess. I've never seen someone look so intimidating and confident sitting at a bar smirking and drinking OJ watching me in all his shirtless glory.

"Is this all your going to do today? Just stare at me?" I say setting the rag down on the counter and crossing my arms.

He shrugs. "Why not? it's entertaining to watch you. Considering you got that whole talking to yourself in your head thing it's funny to watch you make faces at whatever your saying in your head." He chuckles and my cheeks turn pink.

How does he know about us?

Shhhh he knows nothing.... he's bluffing.

Bain grins and I sigh realizing I was just thinking out loud.

Bain stands up and comes towards me around the counter and stands in front of me leaning forward planting his hands on the counter on either side of me trapping me there.

"We don't have to just stare at each other all day." He says in that sexy low growl like voice and I gulp. He leans in more his green eyes darken the light green turning a dark olive and staring at my lips making me bite them and he growls a sound rumbling from deep within his chest making me shiver.

"We can do other things." He leans his head down grazing his lips against my neck his hands at my hips sliding under my shirt caressing my skin.

Goose bumps rise on my skin and I take a deep breath and grip the counter trying to get my thoughts together before I lose all my resolve. "Bain... stop." I can't do this.

"I'm so sorry." I heard him barely say his arms now wrapping around me holding me pinned close against his incredible warm body.

"Bain," I whisper barely even able to hear my own voice and my grip tightens on the counter resisting touching him. "I would never hurt you Ashley." He places his forehead against mine and tucks a strand of my hair behind my ear, the sound of my pounding heart evident.

You would hurt me... you'd break my heart into a thousand pieces Bain White and I'd be left a broken mess never put back together.

As if my inner self had the power to help me, the house phone rang.

We both sighed for different reasons and he pulls away slowly. I kept my eyes shut not able to look into those unmistakable beautiful green eyes.

"Hello?" He answered annoyed. I couldn't hear who it was or if it was even okay to answer the phone, but I see Bain nod.

"Okay. I'll ask her..... Got it..... Alright see you later." He hangs up the phone and turns towards me while I still look at the ground.

He clears his throat. "Um, that was Trip. He said they finished all the stuff they had to do and got groceries. Ryan called your mom and told her you were staying over at her place for a while so you'll have time to figure out what you want to do since what happened last night, " I flinch and press my hand to my mouth suddenly the memories coming back to me tears threatening to sting the back of my eyes.

I hate thinking about it, the memories and feelings of my tied up wrists and immovable body. I sigh and take a deep breath trying to calm myself down not wanting to think of this any longer before I make myself sick.

Bain stops talking rubbing his face and walks back towards me, "It's my fault."

I open my eyes and stare at him. "What did you just say?"

He shakes his head scratching the light stubble on his chin. "I said it's my fault."

I shake my head not being to believe what he's saying. "What are you talking about? Did you... plan this?"

Bain's eyes go wide and runs both hands through his hair. "Of course not Ashley! I may be a lot of things, but someone who plans a rape?" I flinch at that word and he leans against the counter both hands planted on top. "That's not me. I would never."

I sit down and rub a hand down my face. Then he says, "Especially not to you."

"Then why did you say it's your fault? If you didn't plan this Bain, what did you do?" He wasn't making any sense.

Bain licks his lips and stares down at the granite gathering his thoughts. "They wanted you because they thought that I.. had you. They wanted what I had because they wanted to be like me, make me proud or approve of them." He looks up at me and I see something I haven't seen in a long time. The light green eyes with specks of gold.

I gasp softly at the amount of emotions I see in those eyes. This man will be the death of me, as every day passes I become more and more confused. "What do you want from me?"

Bain comes around the counter to where I'm sat standing in front of me. "I'm a monster, Ashley. You shouldn't want me, to be near me, you should want nothing to do with me."

"I don't. I want nothing to do with you, Bain White." I say my voice coming from somewhere off distant.

I love you I want you so badly.

We don't need him.... He will only hurt us.

"Say it again," He puts each hand on either side of me against the counter so I'm trapped again. "Tell me again, but more forcefully so I can believe you." Those bright green eyes look into mine making me want to just get lost into them those gold specks hypnotizing me.

I don't need you. You'll only break me, hurt me, throw me away for another girl with bigger boobs.

I love you I need you. I need you to hold me and tell me I'm the one that changed you.

"I-" I choked my mind going crazy wanting him and hating him all at once.

His jaw tightens, "Say it!" He yells slamming his hand against the counter hard the sound making me jump. "Like you mean it."

"What do you want from me?!" I scream in his face standing from my chair tears running down my cheeks all self control gone. "What do you want me to say?! That I hate you for making me do all those awful things?! For letting your reputation influence those boys to almost rape me?! Well guess what you-you beautiful bastard," I shove his chest hard and scream at him making him take a couple steps back.

"I don't hate you! I don't," I shove his chest harder, "I don't!," shove, "I don't!" I pant hard shaking with anger.

He stands there staring at me letting me punch and shove at his chest. I run my fingers through my hair and take deep breathes trying to calm myself.

"I don't hate you." I say in a watery voice tears escaping my chest aching my throat burning from yelling. "I hate me. I hate myself for wanting you so badly. I hate that -," Suddenly I couldn't say anything.

Bain grabs me suddenly picking me up and his lips kissing mine passionately. I kiss him back feverishly and let my heart pour out all it's feelings into this one kiss with this man, this man that makes me feel so much and want so much.

Bain sets me back down onto my feet, but wraps his arms around my waist my toes barely touching the ground. I wrap my arms around his neck and my hands making their away by themselves into his hair. His hand snakes it's self behind my neck and keeps me there kissing me more deeply.

The feeling of his soft warm lips against mine kissing me and his tongue caressing mine, makes fireworks go off into my stomach and makes me pull him in more realizing how badly I've wanted this how badly I've been craving him. His shirtless perfection allows me to run my hands up and down his perfect body and he pulls our lips apart gently both of us panting attempting to catch our breathes.

"Don't hate me. Don't think. Don't do anything. Stay just like this," He says picking me up and sitting me on the counter burying his face in my neck. We stayed like that for hours, days, years it felt like. In reality only a couple of minutes we held each other and for the first time, I couldn't hear my inner self. She'd gone mute and I could do whatever I wanted without protest.

Suddenly the door opened and I looked up, but Bain held me tighter not wanting to let go and not carrying who saw us in this intimate position.

"Hey guys, we're back sorry I hope nothing- Oh." I saw Ryan walk in putting grocery bags on the counter grinning from ear to ear looking much like the Cheshire cat. I blush and Bain stands straight to his full height looking at Ryan, but still holds me tight, still shirtless. "Did you get everything done?"

"Sure did." Trip answered walking in then freezes and points to us narrowing his eyes at his Cheshire cat girlfriend. "Did... did I miss something?"

You have no idea.