"If you don't want me to fuck up, you better be still, Tae." I say as I go towards his head with the clippers.

"Lani, are you even sure you know how to cut hair? You really scaring me right now, man." He laughs nervously.

Rolling my eyes, I start shaving off some of his hair. I don't really know how to cut hair, but hell, how hard could it be? I think tik tok taught me everything I need to know.

"Tae, I know damn well you ain't letting her cut yo hair? She don't know nun bout cutting hair!! She gone fuck yo shit up!!" Drummer yells as he walks into the bathroom, rubbing his temples.

"No, the fuck I'm n..." I trail then buck my eyes when a quarter sized patch of hair falls out of Tae's head.

"What's wrong? What you do? Milani, come on mannnn!! You told me you were trained to cut hair." Tae says loudly when he sees his hair.

"I mean I am trained by ummm tik tok!"

After I said those words, I ran out of the bathroom and left the guys to decide what to do about the missing patch of hair while I went into the kitchen to make breakfast. I wash my hands and get started on French toast, chicken sausage, omelettes, and diced potatoes then cut up some fruits.

"Baeee, I don't feel good. My fucking head is pounding and I keep throwing up." Drummer groans as he walks into the kitchen gagging at the smell of the food. Shit, seems like he's the one pregnant.

"That's because you drank and smoked too much last night after I told you about the baby. I'm just glad everybody smoked outside like I told them to."

"I was gone be sleeping niggas left and right if I caught them smoking in here. They ain't finna harm my baby with that second hand smoke." He says as he goes into the cabinet and takes some pills. "Oh and you need to talk to Tae. He blew up at therapy yesterday, cussing the lady out and shit."

"I will." I say then call him to eat his food. It doesn't take him long to make it to the table since he's sleeping in the guest room downstairs.

"Awwww Tae, your new haircut looks nice." I smile as I stuff my mouth.

"Lani, shut up. I wouldn't have a new haircut if it wasn't for you and your tik tok hair cutting skills. You better be glad you pregnant with my lil cousin or we'd have to square up."

The three of us eat our food then Drummer cleans up the kitchen while I go into the living room with Tae; joining him on the couch.

"I know, Milani. I fucked up yesterday and I don't need another speech. Drummer already did that." He says and focuses his eyes on the television until I take the remote, turning off the tv.

"I'm not here to give you a speech. I'm just trying to make sure you're okay, Tae. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if you had a mental breakdown right under our noses."

"Damn, Milani, I'm sorry for getting all defensive. I'm not gonna have a mental breakdown. Sometimes I just have so much on my mind and it just makes me snap. The look on my aunt's eyes right before we were hit is stuck in my head. It's like I can't shake that or her shaky voice when she told me she loved me." He says and pauses for a minute, exhaling deeply. "I've never told anyone that. Feels good to say it aloud."

Pulling him into my arms, I give him a tight hug then stare into his eyes. "You know I'm always here to talk if you wanna vent. You don't have to keep everything in. That's not good for you or anyone else around you because you keep blowing up. You've gotta control your emotions and learn to cope.. you understand me?"

"Thank you, Lani and yes, I understand. Ima work on it. I gotta get myself together before my lil cuz get here. I can't let him or her see me like this. I gotta be a better example." He smiles widely.

"That's right, Tae. He or she will need you."

Getting up from the couch, I walk into the bedroom where Drummer is laying down with his eyes closed. Making myself comfortable, I snuggle up in his arms until he opens his eyes and puts his hand on my stomach.

"I can't believe I put you on the shelf for nine months." He smiles goofily, biting his lip. "You ready to be a mama?"

"I told your dumbass to stop cumming in me all those times, weak ass pull out game. Nah, I'm not ready and I probably never will be but, I'm gonna be the best mother I can be. I'll make sure that my baby doesn't grow up the way I did."

"See why you tryna joke and shit, my pullout game strong as hell. I kept nutting in you cause you acted like you couldn't get enough. I be telling yo ass to get off me, but you just go on and on until you milk me dry. Don't worry about our baby. He gone be good cause daddy gone make sure of that. I'll never let him suffer if I can help it."

Drummer bends down and kisses my stomach then my lips; trying to get something started until I stop him. "We're not doing this right now. I gotta go to the studio." I say as I try to get out of the bed, but he pulls me back.

"What you going to the studio for? Ion want you to be dancing too hard or on that pole. You gotta move differently now that you're pregnant."

Rolling my eyes, I start getting a little irritated. I'm glad he cares, but at the same time, I don't need him telling me what to do.

"Drummer, I got this. I know what I can and can't do. I'm not that far along so I can still dance, but I'm choosing not to. It's my decision, not yours. If you must know, I'm going to the studio to talk to Chanel about her taking over. Dancing has already taken enough of a toll on my body. I think I'm ready to give it up."

Before he can respond, I get up from the bed and go into the bathroom, taking a shower then getting dressed in a hoodie, joggers, and boots; throwing on my leather jacket and hat.

"Lani, baby, I'm sorry for tryna tell you what to do. I just wanna make sure you and my baby are safe." He says, kissing my forehead.

"It's my baby, too. I wouldn't do anything to harm him. See you later."

"What? You don't love me no more?" Drummer says as he puts his hand on his chest as if he's so hurt.

"I love you." I say and he says it back then I walk downstairs and ask if Tae wants to ride with me.

"I would go, Lani, but I'm in pain right now. I'm gone take my medicine and knock out." He tells me and gets up to go to his room.

As soon as I'm outside, I smile when I see my car already on because Drummer always heats it up for me. Getting inside and putting on my seatbelt, I turn on ; singing my heart out to the song as I drive to the studio. By the time I make it, Chanel is already inside preparing for practice.

"Bout time you got here, bitch." She says to me.

"Yeah yeah, whatever. I need to talk to you before the girls get here." I say and she looks at me, clearly confused. "Before you worry, I'm good, Chanel. I was just wondering if you'd take over the studio. Now that I'm pregnant, I don't wanna take any chances dancing because I know how hard it is on the body. I'll still help out and go to the competitions though."

Chanel screams loudly as she jumps up and down, super excited. "YES YES YES!!! I'll definitely take over!!" She hugs me softly then lets me go. "Wait, are you sure about this? I know how much this studio and dancing means to you. I can't imagine you giving it all up.

"Chanel, I know how much this studio and dancing means to you too so I know everything is in good hands. Yes, I'm sure. It'll be a big change to give it up, but I don't care. The only thing I'm worried about now is my baby."

"That means a lot to me, Milani. Have you told your family that you're pregnant?"

"Not yet, I'll tell them eventually. I'm not ready for their negativity so I'm gonna keep it to myself for now." I admit as I finish stocking the mini fridge with Gatorade, fruits, and bottled water.

As I'm finishing up, my phone rings as my sister calls me. She's doing very well for herself since Drummer made Tariq leave last month. She has a new man who's very supportive and wealthy, he's a doctor. Once they started dating, he moved her to Vegas.

"Hey girl, what you doing?" She asks me.

"Hey, I'm at the studio helping Chanel, right now. Wassup?"

"I know I've been MIA for a lil bit, but I really need some advice. Recently, Tariq has reached out to me begging to see Bria. He wants to take her shopping and to Chuck E. Cheese, but after all he's done, I don't know how I feel about sending her alone with him. What do you think I should do? Invite him over?"

I think about the situation and try to put myself in her shoes. I'm sure she wants Bria to have her father in her life, but Tariq is so unpredictable. He might hurt Kimora again. "Kimora, you should take your man with you and meet Tariq at the mall or wherever he's trying to shop at then go to Chuck E. Cheese. That way you'll be in public and your man will be able to protect you. Don't invite him to your house because there's no telling when he'll flip out and try to do something crazy while ya'll are sleeping or something."

"You're right! You always give the best advice, Lani. Thank you, girl!"

"You're welcome. I'll talk to you later." I say and hang up the phone.

When the girls walk into the studio, I explain to them that Chanel is taking over and that I'll just be helping from now on. I decide not to tell them they I'm pregnant because they talk too much. I don't need my business out on the streets.

While Chanel prepares them for next week's stand battle, I slip out of the studio and get into my car; heading back home. Walking inside the house, I call Drummer and Tae's name but neither of them answer so I walk to Tae's room; knocking on his door. He's probably asleep and I know I shouldn't bother him, but my curiosity won't let me rest without knowing what he's doing so I open the door and see him asleep. Just like I figured.

Walking over to him, I shake his body slightly, but he doesn't move. "Tae, Tae! Wake up!" I yell loudly and he still doesn't move so I immediately check his pulse; relief sweeping over me when I feel one.

Yelling Drummer's name loudly, he comes running downstairs with a towel wrapped around his lower body; water beads rolling down his chiseled abs. Mmmm my man looks good.

"Milani, what's going on!? Why you screaming!?" He asks, worried.

"Something's wrong with Tae! He won't wake up." I say with tears in my eyes.

Drummer walks over to him and opens up his eyelids; showing me Tae's red eyes. Sighing loudly, Drummer starts looking around the room.

"Bae, what you looking for?"

"These." He says and shows me a clear bag of pills that was hidden in one of Tae's shoes. "Ain't nothing wrong with that nigga. He just high off Xannys. Whenever he wakes up, ima put my foot so far up his ass, he gone cough up my shoe laces. That's why I be telling you to stop babying his ass! He'll never change that way! Tough love is what he needs."

"Oh so now this is my fault!!? How am I the reason that he's getting high? If anything it's your fault for not actually listening to him! Can't you see he's crying out for help!!? He doesn't need tough love, Drummer. He needs a fucking listening ear. How you gone keep telling him to express his feelings, but won't even give him the chance to talk? Did you know he's been seeing your mama's face and hearing her tell him that she loves him since the night they had the accident?" I yell out as I storm out of the room with him hot on my trail.

"See that's the shit I be talking about!! You baby him too damn much. He's damn near a grown ass man! He ain't got time to sit around and be hurt. Hell, I'm hurting too, but you don't see me acting a fool about it!! He gotta move on with his life and make sum out of himself." Drummer says, following me upstairs. "As for the shit with my mama, you ain't gotta make up lies to make me feel bad!! I do listen to him and he ain't never said nun bout seeing or hearing her so I know you fucking lying."

Turning towards him, I get into his face because one thing I won't be is a liar when I have nothing to lie about. "Tuh and you wonder why he never tells you shit!!! You can't open your eyes because you're too busy treating him like he's one of your homeboys! He's your little cousin!! He's a 17 year old kid, not a man!! If you don't believe what I say then ask him yourself, dumbass."

"Man, fuck this conversation. Ian bout to keep listening to this stupid ass shit." He says, gets dressed, and starts walking downstairs so I follow him. "I hope you get that babying shit outta yo head before my son gets here. You ain't bout to make him soft."

"Nigga, fuck you! I can't believe I'm having a baby with your DUMB ASS!....SHIT, my life is fucked."

Before he can respond, Tae comes into the living room and looks at both of us. "What's going on? Why y'all arguing?" We both ignore him as if he's not even there.

"You really mean that shit, Milani? Thats how you really feel bout having my seed inside you?" Drummer asks, his feelings hurt by my words which makes me feel guilty.

I just stare at him as he opens the front door, looking back at me. "Drummer, get your ass in this house. We need to talk." I say with folded arms.

"Nah, we've talked enough tonight. Don't wait up." He says and shuts the door behind himself.

"What the fuck just happened??" Tae asks, scratching his head.

"If you wasn't high off Xanax you would know. Goodnight, I'm not in the mood to talk right now."

Heading upstairs, I get into bed and start crying my eyes out. I don't know if I'm more hurt over the argument or Tae being high. Either way, It's not a good feeling.