"Quinn! Get your fat Rolly Polly ass out of bed!"

I squirmed around my bed trying to force myself not to be awakened by my older brothers yelling. I hated waking up early, but the more he was yelling made me hate even living. I didn't ask to be in this stupid world. I mean you basically go to school for half your life then work for the rest, while going through obstacles. Life sucks. And sometimes I despised my parents for having me. I was an accident, my dad's pull out game was weak. My parents had me when they were eighteen, a year after they had my older brother; Jackson.

We were both accidents, and sometimes I would wish my mom would have aborted my ass. Today was my first day of high school and my heart was already racing. God I have very bad anxiety and social skills. The only friend I had was my best friend Cindy. We were friends since elementary school, she never treated me like crap, she stayed my best friend until now. She was the only thing keeping me sane.

I heard the door of my room break open and I immediately grabbed my pillow and covered my head already knowing what was about to happen. As soon as I felt cold hands on my ankles I instantly grabbed the edge of my bed. I started screaming as my brother successfully pulled my fat ass off my bed. I rolled off like a burrito still screaming as I hit the floor with a loud thud. He grabbed one of my pillows and hit me over the head with it "shut up! Get ready for school, it's bad enough I have to take you, so don't make me late" he sneered

He was already dressed and that's shocking. Jackson is always late, like for everything. I was actually surprised he dressed decent this time. Normal jeans, and a regular T-shirt with some vans. He usually dressed like a ghetto fuck boy. I mean seeing him you would think he was. Tall, dark and handsome is what all the girls cooed about. I rolled my eyes, the only thing that was awesome about him in my opinion were his eyes. It's not everyday you see one blue eye and one brown eye on a dark skin guy. Jackson was very tall, like 6'3 tall. Everyone told him to do sports but he refused. He thinks it's lame. He's a dumbass. But other then that, Jackson is Very muscular, he practically lives at the gym. He had a very thick beard with wavy curly hair that he keeps shaved on the sides and a bun at the top.

I know he did not want me to go to his school, he is a sophomore and I'm just a freshmen. I already know he's embarrassed that everyone will find out about me. His fat ugly sister. I mean I'm just assuming that's what he's thinking. He's popular, while I'm not. I've been fat all my life, not getting smaller at any point. I weighed myself yesterday after my mom took me shopping. 213 pounds.

None of the clothes I wore fit...I know my mom was trying but I just couldn't take it. I was tired of wearing grandma clothes. Jeans didn't fit me. I usually just wear sweat pants or loose dresses that fit me. Anything that fits I'll wear, even if it's ugly. I had rolls everywhere. My stomach, arms, legs..you name it. My double chin had double chins. I was a slob, and I blame myself. After my parents divorced my eating habits got worse. I was tall and fat. Almost 5'9. If I was skinner I believe I would be prettier...but it's just hard.

"Quinn did your lazyass hear me? Get your fat ass up and get ready, you're always so slow!" Jackson said barking at me some more. I had a little trouble getting myself up, so he pulled me up with one arm with ease. My brother is really strong and that's what I hated. We didn't really have a good relationship. We had two different personalities. He was always with the in-crowd as I was not. He liked partying while I liked to stay home and read or spend time with our mom. My dad lived in another town with his girlfriend; Sue. Jackson and I stay with my mom in knightdale and my dad visits every weekend to take us back to his town; Durham.

My parents couldn't stand eachother. They often fought a lot over petty stuff. I just think my mom is upset that my dad found a younger girl. In my opinion my mom still looked better then Sue. My mom was model tall, beautiful brown skin with grey eyes and a killer smile that have men on their knees weak. Looking at her you would think she was Indian because of her waist length silky long hair. But she's just black. A beautiful queen. I wish I was that beautiful. My brother got his good looks from my dad. Tall, muscular, but an older version. The only difference was that my dad had tattoos all around his body. After the divorce three years ago he had no problem finding someone new while my mom decided to stay single.

If I had my moms body and looks, I would be wild, but I respect her for not trying to rush things.

Once my brother left my room, I took a quick shower and tried to avoid the mirror. I hated looking at my naked body. I brushed my teeth and tried to place my thick curly hair into a bun. I snapped a couple scrunchies but I managed to place it on the third try.

I decided to wear sweat pants and a baggy shirt. I wanted to hide as much rolls as possible.

I grabbed my book bag and strutted downstairs. My mom was on the phone arguing with my dad about something small while Jackson was at the door checking his watch. Once I reached the end of the steps he finally looked up "dear god finally! You ready now fatso?"

"Jackson! Stop! be nice to your sister! It's her first day and she's really nervous" my mom said hanging up the phone and racing to me. She gave me like a million kisses on the cheeks and I could already see her tearing up. I know why. She was scared that I'd be bullied because of my weight. I mean it's nothing new. Since elementary school I've been bullied about my weight..but I believe high school would be worse.

"Jackson please I'm begging you look out for your sister" my mom begged. My brother just nodded, kissed her on the cheek and left. I looked over at my mom and sighed "dad decided not to come see me go off on my first day?" I asked

My dad promised to show up to see me before I left for school. But I have yet to see him. My mom planted another kiss on my cheek "no, he's been caught up with work he says" she said rolling her eyes.

Jackson started honking the horn and I opened the door to leave

"Remember Quinn...try to be a little more outspoken and-

"I get it mom" I said already not wanting her to mention my weight. I kissed her goodbye and walked to Jacksons car. My dad bought him a red mustang for his sixteenth birthday. He is so spoiled.

I attempted to get in the passengers seat, but he told me to get in the back. "Why?"

"You know why"

I rolled my eyes. I decided to hop in the back not wanting to argue. I made the car shake in the process and my brother gave me a hard glare. "What?" I asked

"Nothing" he said starting up the car.

The car ride was silent, but as we passed Cindy's house which was like five minutes away I squealed.

Jackson immediately stopped the car and Turned around "what?! What's wrong with you?!"

"You forgot to get Cindy"

He rolled his eyes "she can walk..

"What? But-

"She has parents to take her, I don't understand why-

"Oh she's coming out!" I said pointing out the window already squealing with joy. My brother groaned as he sat back in his seat in annoyance. Cindy closed her front door behind her and started racing to us. Cindy was really short...like I'm talking about exactly five feet short. She had her hair cut into a pixie cut to make herself look older since people kept thinking she was twelve. She is very cute. Freckles all over her pale face. Her beautiful wavy strawberry blonde hair was every girls dream. She had a nice shape as well. Curvy in all the right places but she liked to hide it with sweatpants and sweaters to make me feel better about myself. That's why she was my best friend, always looked out for me. Even if that means making herself look stupid.

I opened the door for her and she stood there smiling. "How did I know you were going to wear sweats today?"

I giggled "cause you're my best friend, you know me better then anyone"

"Duh I know" she said twirling around showing me her outfit.

"Will you fucking get in" Jackson barked.

Cindy stopped twirling and frowned.

I pulled Cindy in afraid Jackson would start driving. I mean he did that to me on certain occasions so I wouldn't be surprised. "Don't mind him" I whispered.

"I can't even be mad..your brother looks so hot today" she whispered back.

If Cindy didn't have a hard crush on my brother then she would be perfect. But she had a crush on him since the first day she saw him. I told her she didn't have a chance...not being mean but he already has a girlfriend. Sophia. I hated her with a passion. And my brother was going to pick her up that's why he didn't want me sitting in the passengers seat.

She lived ten minutes away from us. We all used to be best friends. Me, Cindy and Sophia were so close we were called the three musketeers. It was not until she developed really nicely in eight grade that she decided to choose different friends. Popular friends. Her body caught my brothers attention and they soon started dating. Sophia knew Cindy liked Jackson but she dated him anyways. She's a little bitch. She would often bully me to fit in with everyone else.

I don't know if my brother knows or not. He doesn't even talk to me for us to talk about things like that. So I keep my mouth shut .

Once we stopped at Sophia's place, she came out like was about to attended a red carpet event. She had on a really tight revealing red dress with some red stilettos. Sophia is my height but pretty and skinny with big boobs and a big butt. I heard Jackson talking on the phone and gushing about her wide hips and flat stomach. Sophia was a brunette but bleached her hair blonde. It was stunning, making her blue eyes pop.

She glided in and started making out with my brother in front of Cindy and I.

It was fucking gross.

I saw tongue and heard disgusting slurpy noises. It was so gross I had to tell them to stop.

"Oh please, you're just upset you don't have a wonderful boyfriend like Jackson" Sophia said rolling her eyes

"I would never want a boyfriend like my brother are you crazy?" I said almost laughing. Talk about incest.

Jackson whispered something to her and Sophia stopped talking. But she did make sure to lick his neck for us to see. I looked over at Cindy and she was shaking her head in disgust "can't believe we used to call her a friend"

"I know" I thought

My brother and his girlfriend started talking about school and what to expect. I mean Sophia is a freshman as well. It's funny how he's talking to her giving her advice when he couldn't even do the same for me.

Even once we reached the school he was quick to grab her hand and show her around, leaving Cindy and I.

"Your brother is a dick...but he's still hot" Cindy gushed as she grabbed my hand.

I felt a lump in my throat as I tried not to cry. Today was the first day, but I felt like crying. Stupid Jackson...sometimes I wish he wasn't my brother.

As we were walking out the student parking lot, I started to get a lot of stares from students. I tried hard not to look but I couldn't help it. Almost everyone was staring at me....well..staring at my body. Cindy tried to change the subject as she too noticed. "So what are your classes?" She said already whipping out her schedule to compare. But my anxiety started to rise and I felt shaky.

I guess I wasn't looking where I was going and bumped into something hard.

It made me lose balance but before I could drop to the ground like a hot potato, it grabbed me. I opened my eyes and met the eyes of Jin Lucas. The Jin I had a crush on since middle school, the Jin I think about everyday. Yeah that Jin. He was very popular, star football player, all guys wanted to be him and all girls wanted to date him. He is very hot. Jin took everyone's breath away. He is very tall and muscular, kind of like Jackson. He had long wavy blonde hair with beautiful slanted blue eyes. He is a walking goddess.

I'd day dream about him almost everyday. I always figured once he noticed me he would fall in love but he was giving me a painful look as he struggled to place me back on my feet.

I started to stutter "Jin..I..I..am..so..please...forgive..me..I..am..am-

He looked over his shoulder clearly not paying attention to me. His group of friends were calling for him while looking at me in disgust.

Jin turned back around to face me and smiled "you're fine...later" then he raced back to his friends.

I almost fainted at his deep voice. He noticed me! He noticed me!

"Whoa is that a man or a woman?" I heard one of his friends say

My excitement shattered.

"I think that's a girl...wow...I've never seen someone that big before" Another one of his friends uttered out.

I already felt like crying and Cindy was no help as she tried to push me away but she was clearly not strong enough. She was struggling as she whispered out "look forget them, do not listen to them"

Jin though turned to face me. Giving me a look of hurt. It's like he could tell I was about to burst out crying. His blue eyes analyzing my body made me feel tense. He turned back to his friends and shoved one of them "she has feelings, stop being an ass. She looks fine"

And just like that his friends stopped talking.

Did that just happen?