In these days Sania is trying her best to make me comfortable with her. But again and again I am feeling guilty and I feel as if she is with me just because she is completing her responsibility..

But I am still trying my best to remove all these thoughts from my mind. And not think like this.

As I am attending the sessions regularly I have started building my confidence again. And the psychiatrist is doing really good in his job. I am getting back to my usual self. But I dont know why I become very hesitant and nervous whenever Sania is around.

I just dont want to burden her. She should not feel like my maid but my wife. I want to talk to her that what I am thinking, but I am not able to voice out my thoughts..

Sania has even resumed her work from home. I wanted to tell her that I am now ready to share my everything with her so she does not need to work, And only take care of Sierra and house.

But she might feel that I am controlling her, So did not voiced out my thoughts.

I am still not able to sleep alone. As I feel that this aloneness is killing me. My doctor asked me the reason behind my lack of sleep.. And I told him that I cannot sleep alone.

Now the doctor is behind me that I ask my wife to sleep in my room.. But how could I do that.. What she might think about me.. I still dont have courage to ask her to sleep in my room. And everyday I just sleep for 3 hours at night..

Today's session was very difficult for me and the medicines which the psychiatrist gave were very high in dosage..

So doctor told me strictly to go home and have something, As my head started paining very much. He was even worried to let me go home alone, but I assured him that I will be able to go..

I reached home and went to search for Sania because my head was paining very badly and even stomach was growling alott..

I went in her room and found her talking to someone on call, "Sania.." I called her, she looked at me and told me to wait for a moment as she was talking to someone..

I thought that she might be busy and decided not to disturb her. I came to the kitchen but did not find anything to eat, other than some chips.

I was not at all interested in having any junk so I went in my room and laid on the sofa. My whole body was sweating because those medicines were of high power.

My head was paining like hell. And I decided to close my eyes for sometime.

Rehan had gone to the doctor and I was busy today in my banking job, as it was showing some problems in transactions..

Ohh yes..! I forgot to tell you, I again resumed my work from home in the same bank in which I used to work before.

I have resumed my working because, I need to have some money in my hand for my daily expenses. And I dont want Rehan to think of me as a burden. I am educated and can take care of my expenses so why to rely on someone.

I was very busy since morning and told Sierra to play with her toys beside me. I was thankful that Sierra understood that I am busy, and continued playing..Mashallah my betu is so understanding..😘😘 I thought and kissed her forehead.

After sometime I was on call with my manager and she was explaining me some important things regarding work.When I saw Rehan was calling me for something.

I excused myself, and told him to give me a minute, So that I can finish the call. I again got busy in talking and when again saw towards the door, So he was not there.

I decided to ask him after completing this work as this had to be submitted today itself..

After like half an hour I finally completed and did some stretching as I was so tired working since morning..

I then remembered that I had to ask Rehan, he had some work from me. So I went towards Rehan's room to ask him.

I reached and saw that his door was open. So I directly went inside. I went and saw that Rehan was laying on the sofa and was growling in pain.

I went towards him and touched his hand. 'Yaa Allah it was burning because of fever..' I panicked and was not knowing what happened to him.

I was going to get cold water and cloth to put on his head when I heard Rehan's phone ringing..

I looked at the caller Id and it was from his doctor. I hurriedly picked up the call..

"How are you Rehan.." the doctor asked as soon as I answered the call..

"Doctor this is Sania, Rehan's wife.." I said..

"Doctor what happened to him, I came in his room and found him laying on the sofa.. He is growling in pain and is also having fever.." I continued and asked the doctor..

"Sania, didn't he informed you..Did he had something returning home..?" the doctor asked..

I remembered that after Rehan came back from the clinic, he did not had anything..

"Doctor he did not had anything.." I replied to him..

"Mam I told him to go home and have something because the dosage of medicines are very high and also they are of very high power, so he might feel sweaty and also his head might pain alott.." he said and then I understood 'that he came to ask me for something to eat. And me being totally dumb woman was busy in her office work..'

"Doctor I was not knowing about all this.. But now he is having very high fever and also he is growling in pain.." I said and kept my hand on his head..

"Mam please take care of him.. he is going through a very tough phase.. It is very difficult for people to come out of depression.." he said..

"For now you can massage his head so that his pain subsides and give him paracetamol so that it gives him some rest and before all this make sure to feed him something properly.." He told me..

"Dont worry doctor, I will take good care of him..I was not knowing anything about this otherwise I would have taken precautions from first.." I told..

"I know Mam.. he is not telling you all this.. I also want to tell you that he is having lots of problem in sleeping alone. He told me that he only sleeps 3 hours at night.. As he does not feel like sleeping alone..

I many times told him to tell you so that you can sleep in his room. But he always tells that you will not feel comfortable around him.." He said and I was listening attentively..

"Doctor I am not understanding why is he behaving like this.. why does he feel that I will get uncomfortable by all his actions..?" I asked the doubt which I was having since so many days..

"Mam he has told me everything about what happened in your marriage. And because of his past deeds, he is very hesitant yo ask you to do anything for him.. I suggest that you talk to him and make him believe that you are there for him and you dont think of him as a burden..

Make him believe that you are not doing all this out of pity or for responsibility. You are doing all this out of love.." he tried to make me understand..

"Yes doctor thankyou so much..I will make him eat something first.." I said.

"Mam.. You are really kind and intelligent, Rehan is a very lucky man.." he said and I said thanks to him and disconnected the call.

I covered him with a blanket and immediately ran in the kitchen to make something for him..

In also saw that Sierra was playing alone so I even took her with me. So that she does not feels left out..

I made some khichdi (it is made out of dal and rice) and also some porridge for Sierra Jaan..

I then carried the food to Rehan's room and then again came out to carry Sierra Jaan..'All the new moms will relate to me..

It becomes very difficult to handle sick husband and a small baby...'

I then tried to shake Rehan and wake him up.. After so many attempts he finally opened his eyes..And 'Yaa Allah they were so red because he was having very high fever..'

He looked at me confused because I was suddenly waking him up,"What happened Sania..?" he finally asked..

I did not answered him and and placed the plate in front of him..

It was good that Sierra was having some toys here, so she again started playing till the time I take care of this big baby..

I took a spoonful of khichdi and forwarded it in front of him..

He looked at me confused,"Aaaaa" I said opening my mouth as I do with Sierra..

He opened his mouth and I started feeding him,"I am not a baby.." he said while eating...

"Ohh Really, but you behave like one.." I said sarcastically and narrowed my eyes playfully..

"Why did you not tell me that, doctor told you to eat something..? How many more things you hide from me.." I said with fake anger..

"No.. I did not hide anything from you.." he said hesitantly..

"Then why didn't you told me that doctor told you to eat something after coming back home.." I said..

"I.. I actually came to ask you to cook for me something, but you were busy so decided not to disturb you.." he said..

"Rehan I am noticing since I have came back, that you dont behave normal around me.. You are always nervous and hesitant around me.. Did I do something wrong that you are no more comfortable around me.." I asked feeling sad..

"No.. Sania absolutely not You did not do anything. It is me who is ashamed of my past deeds and is always nervous around you because I feel sould not feel lika a maid.. I cannot go on ordering you.." he said guiltily..

"Rehan, the thing that you said is more than enough for me.. I am so happy that you finally accepted me as your wife.." I said with teary eyes and smiled.

"And yeah, by taking care of you I will not become a maid, but will be your wife.." I said..

"What did I do to get you as my wife..?" he aked smiling..

"You did lots of good work, that is why you got me.." I said while flipping my hair..

He laughed loudly and finally finished eating..

"But promise me Rehan, from now you will be comfortable around me and not hide things from me and also tell me everything.. Because I liked when you where carefree and not at all hesitant before.." I said and smiled..

He nodded and I handed him a paracetamol. He gulped down in a go.

"Rehan sleep on the bed, you might feel backache.." I said and made him laid on the bed.

I then picked up Sierra and forwarded spoon in front of her..

"Sierra open your mouth..'Aaaaaaa'..." I said and Rehan opened his eyes and smiled at me..

I then finished feeding Sierra and laid her beside Rehan and started patting her so that she sleeps. She clutched on my top tightly and went to sleep..'She still does this even after so many days since I have returned..'

After Sierra slept I sat on the floor beside Rehan and started massaging his head so that his pain decreases..

He opened his eyes and said,"Sania.. you dont have to do.."

I interrupted him and said,"Just now you promised me something.." he immediately closed his mouth and I again continued massaging...

I kept playing with his hair and did not realised when even I drifted to sleep still sitting on the floor...

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Sania and Rehan are finally getting comfortable around each other..🤭🤭🙈😜

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