Sophia Parker

I walked into Wilson & Co. knowing that I am going to see HIM today. After a long weekend of crying and depression, I am finally going to sort things out with him today. Just the thought of him made my heart beat wildly in my chest.

Today, I am going to tell him that I love him and I want to be with him. I don't want a professional relationship with him anymore, not after all that has happened between us. It's impossible. Hopefully, he wouldn't reject me this time.

I absentmindedly greeted some workmates I came across on my way. They seemed happy to see me after 2 weeks but my mind was set on only him.

I got to my office a bit early so I wasn't expecting Mr Wilson to be around. It was 7:50am. Although he said I could come in much later, I just couldn't wait to see him. Lily and I countlessly rehearsed what I am going to tell him today and I felt so nervous, like I was about to give a speech.

I went over to the kitchen and ground two cups of coffee beans. One for him and one for myself. I'll give his to him when he arrives.

Oh I can't wait! But I'm also scared as hell!

I drank my coffee and waited patiently at my desk. I switched on my computer to start work but then, I realized there was no work to do. I haven't been in the office for two weeks and I don't know what happened while I wasn't here.

I'll just have to wait for Mr Wilson to give me new instructions so I fiddled with the computer a bit. When I got bored, I checked the time.

8:30am

I frowned.

"Where are you?!" I groaned to myself. Why is he late?

Then a thought hit me.

Maybe he told me not to come early because he wasn't going to come early either. That made sense.

I relaxed in my chair hoping to snooze till he comes. But the moment I closed my eyes, memories of Friday night's kiss flooded my thoughts. I smiled in reminiscence. It was so amazing... up until the part when he threw me off him.

"Ahhhhhhh!" I screamed. I was so frustrated with myself. Remembering everything he said about how indecisive I am. He must think I'm crazy, but I'm not. I was just preventing myself from getting hurt. Either way, I am still hurt.

I stood up and paced around my office. I couldn't sit in one place doing nothing while I waited for him. I was extremely restless and idle.

I picked up my phone and called Lily.

"Hey." She picked up after the second ring. "How did it go?"

"Lily he's not here yet. I've been waiting for him for almost 2 hours." I whined.

"Don't be worried Sophia. Do something to pass the time while you wait for him."

"I have nothing to do Lily, I haven't been in the office for 2 weeks."

"Okay... Then watch a movie or something."

I thought about it and it sounded like a good idea. I could setup Netflix on my computer and continue watching Narcos.

"Okay. Are you at work?" I asked.

"Yeah, I am. We're preparing to go to court tomorrow."

"I guess I'll leave you to do your work then. See you in the evening."

"Bye Sophia."

I hung up and went back to my computer, opening Netflix. I watched till I got hungry. Had lunch by 2pm, and continued watching. When I was done with Narcos, I moved on to watch about 2 more movies.

I don't know how long I was in my office for but I heard a knock on my door that made me jump. I had been so engrossed in my computer that I had completely forgotten where I was.

"Come in!" I called out to the person. I knew it wasn't Mr Wilson because he never knocks before entering my office.

The door opened and it was Phoebe.

"Oh, hey Phoebe!" I said excitedly. I hadn't seen her in a while.

"Oh don't hey me! You're back in New York and you couldn't even tell me. I had to find out from somebody at the office." She sounded pissed.

"I'm sorry. I just got back on Friday." I tried to explain.

"That was three days ago Sophia. How about stopping by at my cubicle this morning to say hi? At least that would have been a nice surprise."

I was looking forward to seeing Mr Wilson in the morning that's why I forgot to stop by and see her. But how could I explain that to her?

"I really am sorry, I should have come to see you. But certain things have happened over the past week and it just skipped my mind."

"Whatever? What are you still doing here anyway?"

"Oh, I'm just waiting for Mr Wilson. He hasn't come to work yet." Or maybe he did... Just not to his office. But how would I know? I was too busy watching movies. "Did you happen to see him around anywhere?" I asked her.

"Sophia, if Mr Wilson didn't come to work by this time then I'm sure he's not coming at all!"

"What? Wait- what's the time?"

"It's past 5!"

What?!

I checked the time on my computer and Phoebe was right. It was 5:32pm. Almost 6!

"Oh my gosh! It really is!"

"Sophia, is everything okay?" She asked.

"Yes I'm fine." I lied.

So he didn't come today. And I've been here stupidly waiting for him, anticipating to see him again.

"We need to get going Sophia. Everyone's left the office already. I was surprised to see you're still here. I thought you left without seeing me."

"Oh Phoebe, if I wasn't so distracted I'm sure I would have come down to see you before I left." It was partly true, what I said.

"Okay, okay let's go." She smiled playfully.

***

"He didn't show up?"

"No he didn't." I shook my head.

"That bastard!" Lily exclaimed.

"Lily! Don't call him that!" I scolded her. We were both in her room and I had just told her about Mr Wilson not coming to work today.

"Aren't you angry at him for not showing up?"

"No. Not really. Maybe something came up or he had plans. Besides, he'd didn't assure me that he was going to be at the office today."

"Sophia, I think he's avoiding you." She said carefully.

"No he's not."

"Give me your phone then." She ordered.

"What for? Are you going to call him?"

"Yes!"

"No! Don't do that!"

"Sophia! It's the only way to find out if he's really avoiding you or not!"

"Okay! Okay! I'll call him."

I picked up my phone and dialed his number, my heart was racing. Part of me didn't want him to pick up because I didn't know what to say to him if he answered. Another part of me wanted to hear his voice.

Fortunately and unfortunately for me, the call went to voicemail.

"His phone is probably switched off or something."

"Give me his number, let me call him."

"No Lily, that's just weird." I complained. "Mr Wilson doesn't want to be disturbed right now."

"Okay. I won't call him. But can I just have his number at least?"

I looked at her skeptically. What does she want to do with his number?

"Trust me, I won't call him without telling you about it." She assured me.

I gave her my phone and she took the number but she dialed him immediately after.

"Lily! You promised you wouldn't call him!"

"No I didn't. I just said you should trust me." She grinned.

It was pointless anyway because it also went to voicemail on her phone.

"Damn. He really is busy."

"I told you."

"What if he doesn't come tomorrow? What will you do?"

"I'm sure he will but if he doesn't, I'll just keep on watching movies." I said like it was no big deal.

But it was. If he didn't come I would feel really bad, no doubt. It would mean that he was really avoiding me.

"Whatever. Your birthday is coming up. What are we doing?"

"Uhhh... I don't know yet."

"What do you mean you don't know?" Lily screamed.

"Because it's not a big deal Lily, it's just 23." Lily is a huge fan of birthdays, I am not.

"We could go to Vegas for the weekend. Your birthday is on a Sunday, I checked."

"I'm not going to Vegas. I'll find something to do here in New York." I said.

"You're no fun." She frowned at me.

***

-The next day-

He didn't show up. Again. That bastard didn't show up. I felt bad for calling him a bastard but that's what he really is.

I spent the whole day doing nothing just like yesterday and to say I was bored was an understatement. At a point I went over to see Phoebe but she wasn't around. Apparently she had gone out for marketing.

I went home so angry at myself for wasting my day, more importantly I was angry at him for not coming! I slammed my door so hard I thought it broke. I had been holding back tears all the way since I left the office but when I got home, I couldn't hold it anymore. I fell to the floor and cried.

All I really want is just to see him. Our last encounter was horrendous and I really really really needed to iron things out with him. But how could I do that if he doesn't even want to see me?! And anytime I tried calling him, his stupid phone kept going to voicemail!

At this point I don't even want to think about him anymore! I stood up and wiped my tears. I needed a distraction so I had a shower and called the girls in for a sleepover. I didn't want to be alone because I was afraid of what I would do in my anger. I needed my friends around me to stop me if I tried something insane.

Lily came through almost immediately and about 30 minutes later there was a knock on the door.

"Woohoo! Slumber party! I love it when we have these!" Phoebe yelled the moment I opened the door.

"Keep your voice down Phoebe." I laughed. She was always so excited when I held these things.

"Oh hey Phoebe, long time. Did you really come with an overnight bag this time?" Lily said.

"Nice to see you again Lily and yes, I did. Because I don't live right upstairs!"

"Okay girls!" I intervened. We were all sitting on my couch now. "I didn't really plan this so I have no idea what we're going to do today."

"Why don't we watch a movie?" Phoebe suggested.

Lily and I both snorted at her idea. The past few days, we've both watched more than 10 movies together and we were so tired of that.

"Ok. Since you guys don't want to watch a movie how about we play 'Marry kiss kill'?"

"Yes! I love that game." Lily said.

"What's 'Marry kiss kill'?" I asked. I had never heard of that game before.

"Basically, you get to chose out of three people, who you'll marry, kiss, or kill. Simple." Lily explained.

"Wow."

"Ok, let's start with you Lily, so we can show Sophia how the game is played. I'm going to have to use a generator for this because I don't really know about the guys you've been involved with." Phoebe said.

"That's true. Lily never tells us anything relating to guys." I laughed.

"Okay!" Phoebe exclaimed after typing furiously on her phone."Lily! Marry, Kiss, Kill. Andrew Garfield, Logan Lerman or Ansel Elgort?"

"Do you have to say it so dramatically?" I laughed.

"Don't mind Phoebe, she's insane. I'll feel bad for doing so but I'll kill Ansel Elgort, then I'll marry Logan Lerman because he looks like a sweetheart and I'll kiss Andrew Garfield. He's hot."

"This game sounds interesting, can I go next?" I said.

"Okay Sophia, you're up! Marry, kiss, kill. Justin Bieber, Shawn Mendes or Harry Styles?"

"I can't answer that. I'm way older than all of them!"

"It doesn't matter Sophia, it's not real anyway." Phoebe rolled her eyes.

"No, give me another one. This one is weird."

"Okay. This one is called the Chris-es. Marry, kiss, kill. Chris Evans, Chris Pratt or Chris Hemsworth?"

"Hmmm... I'ld kill Chris Pratt because I don't know who that is. I don't know who I'll marry between Chris Evans and Chris Hemsworth... I'm confused."

"Just choose anyone Sophia." Lily said.

"Ok, I'll marry Chris Hemsworth."

"Then you'll kiss Evans?"

"Yes."

"Great. It's Phoebe's turn now." Lily took the phone from her. "Marry, kiss, kill. Alex Pettyfer, Robbie Amell or Ashton Kutcher?"

"I'm sorry to say this but Ashton Kutcher can suck it!" She said and we all laughed. "I'm kissing Robbie cus he's very sexy, I've seen him in a lot of movies looking really good. And then I'll marry Alex."

"This game is terrible. It's like we're judging these guys!" I said.

"I know! And that's what makes it fun!" Phoebe grinned.

We played loads and loads of rounds until we all got tired and fell asleep.

***

-The next day-

"Wake up Sophia. You don't want to be late for work." Phoebe tapped me.

"I don't want to go, leave me alone!" I groaned. She was disturbing the wonderful sleep I was having right now.

"Sophia! Mr Wilson may come today."

My head shot up and I was instantly awake. She laughed at my reaction the moment I heard her say his name.

"Are you serious, he's coming?" I asked eagerly.

"I don't know, I just said that to make you get up. And it worked."

"Ugh! Screw you!" I got up since I had already woken up. We had spread sleeping bags all over the floor of my sitting room and slept there last night. It was very comfortable.

Lily came out of the bathroom and we all packed up the beds we created and tidied up the mess we had made last night.

"I'll see you at later at the office." I said to Phoebe. I hugged them both and they left.

Honestly speaking, I didn't not want to go to the office today. Something was telling me that he was not going to come today. I could just stay at home all day and sleep. But that would be irresponsible.

But, what if he does come today? The uncertainty was killing me, I just had to go to the office and see for myself.

I got ready slowly, taking my time because I wasn't sure of what the day would be like. For all I know, it could just be a waste.

I got there at 8:40am and I was thankful because he wasn't even around. I didn't even bother calling his phone because it was sure to go to voicemail. I made up my mind that I wasn't going to cry so I just sat on my desk chair and I did the usual. This time I watched Silicon Valley, Phoebe recommended it to me last night and it was good. I admit.

I was there for hours until I got hungry. I didn't want to have lunch alone like I had been doing for the past few days but Phoebe told me she would be out marketing again today so I had no other choice.

I was going to treat myself today because I really need it.

I took the elevator to the ground floor but on its way, it stopped on the 4th floor. The door opened and there stood... Sean?

"Sophia." He was surprised to see me and I was too. I had completely forgotten about his existence and I felt bad.

Had he forgotten me too?

The thought of him forgetting me made me feel even worse.

"Sean! I... I- I don't even know what to say."

"Don't say anything Sophia. How long has it been?"

"Weeks, for sure. I'm so sorry. I went on leave and I came back on Monday. I haven't had the time to-"

"There's no need to explain yourself Sophia." He interrupted me. "Truthfully, I hadn't thought about you since that night we were supposed to go to the Vineyard theatre together. I feel terrible."

Ouch.

"It's okay. I guess we were both busy." I said.

"My work has been hectic lately, and it very likely to get worse." He got into the elevator and pressed the button for the ground floor.

What work could he possibly have? Mr Wilson was not even around. Well, his work was different from mine. He's not a personal assistant so he doesn't require Mr Wilson's presence at all times. Unlike me.

"So where are you heading?" He asked.

"I'm grabbing myself some lunch."

"Same here, care to join?"

"Yes!" I said a little more desperate than I intended to.

"Okay." He laughed but ignored my desperation. "I was planning to eat somewhere shabby but I guess not anymore. What did you have in mind?"

"Oh, um... I hadn't actually decided yet. I was just stepping out first." I said stupidly.

He looked at me interestingly.

"I mean, I was just gong to check the uh... the places downstairs." I don't know why I felt the need to explain anything to him.

"Sophia. Relax, I know a good place we could have lunch together."

"Where?"

The elevator finally opened up.

"Follow me. We're walking." He said.

"I hope it's not too far." I laughed nervously because I had 4 inch heels on. They weren't too high but I just didn't want to walk around too much with them.

"Amsterdam Burger Company. It's not far at all."

"Oh... That place. I've had a few burgers there. They're good."

The walk took us about 5 minutes and we got a nice table, just by the window.

"I usually get the Aussie Burger. I'll stick to that today also, just to be on the safe side." I said.

"Me too, that's what I get." He smiled at me. "But today, I'm getting a turkey burger. I want to try something new this time. You should too."

"No thanks. Aussie Burger for me, I don't like turkey."

A waiter came and we placed our orders. The food came some moments later.

Sean and I were just talking about general stuff until he brought up a topic I really didn't want to discuss with him, or any body as a matter of fact.

"By the way, how is Adam? I haven't seen him in a while but I know he's around. I mean, now you're here so he should be here too right?"

"What do you mean?" I sounded offended but I really wasn't. I was annoyed that we were talking about him.

"You're his PA, you should know where he is." Sean said.

"Well I don't." I shrugged my shoulders and took a huge bite out of my burger because I didn't want to talk about him anymore.

"That's strange. At least we communicate through emails." He took a bite out of his burger too.

I froze.

What did he just say?

"Sean... Did you say Mr Wilson sends you emails?" I managed to get out. My mouth was still stuffed.

"Mmmhmm. He sent one this morning. He may not be coming to work but he's on track with what's happening in our department." He said and took another bite.

I couldn't believe what I was hearing. He doesn't send me any emails. Is he really avoiding me?

"Is it just you he sends emails to?" I tried to keep my voice calm.

"Of course not. All the head of departments get constant emails from him, and other staff too."

I swear I heard my heart break. It was like the sound of glass shattering against the wall.

"Excuse me." I stood up abruptly and found my way to the ladies.

I couldn't help the tears that fell from my eyes. I felt so stupid for crying but I was hurt. I was hurt because he didn't send me any emails. I was hurt because he didn't want to talk to me. I was hurt because he didn't even want to see me! Why else would he not come to work? It's obviously because he's can't stand me.

He should just fire me!

I don't want to be an obstacle between him and his work. He clearly doesn't want me in his life anymore, I feel absolutely irrelevant to him.

Someone joined me in the restroom and I quickly adjusted. I washed my face and wiped it clean. My eyes were a bit red and if you looked closely, you could tell that I was just crying.

I really hope Sean wouldn't notice.

I tried my best to make myself look presentable again before I walked back to the table.

"Where did you go?" Sean asked upon seeing me.