You never wish to truly die when you find ur soulmate let alone feeling like your dying over and over with no hope of finding them again. My head swung low my body blue and purple with hints of green bruises cuts that aren't healed nor going to.

I feel poisoned to my bones i only wish i never pushed away silas maybe hed love me more than i love him.

"Sara..."

I heard a whisper in my head

"Sara its..."

I heard it again

"Sara its Silas are you okay?..."

"Im totally okay the fact that i been kidnapped and well its been three weeks and you don't even care if i died."

"Sara you forget we feel the same thing once you are home again you are going to tell me everything that happened. Now i need you to tell your succubus to come out alittle bit so i can pin point where you are and save you."

"Fine"

I heard loud banging noises sounding like a scream. I feel someones eyes on me and i look up and seeing its my soulmate silas his neon green and black eyes letting me know both his incubus and wolf are in full control. He releases me off of the chains i been held with my body collapses infront of him as he picks me up bridal style into the dark hallway.

Turning the corner i see him laying there dying and his eyes staring into mine like he lost his own game. I looked away and hid in silas arms as his wings sprouted out to carry me home. I felt back at home.

"You are not going to move or anything until the doctor says its clear got it i cant do that again sara i love you to much for you to go through that again." It hurts but i need you to tell me what that bastard did to you and i wont get mad ill control my boys and i cant promise its gonna be okay but i will protect you until my last breath.

"Okay silas you might want to sit down."

My sweet mate told me

"He raped me over and over again cut me with a knife and my wounds wouldnt heal then hed try to breed me and everything now i know i shouldve fought harder but he couldnt breed me cuz it wouldnt work..."

I felt angry and glad that i killed the bastard myself with my hands but the way my mate spoke sounded like she was gone and i was at fault for not being there.

"Continue."

"It wouldnt work because my succubuss wouldnt allow it she only can bare a child of a incubus or our mate."

My face was shocked and i didnt know what to do. My mate is on our bed and i treated her like shit but yet she still wants kids with a bastard like me. But from that moment on i knew id do anything anything in my power to keep my queen safe no matter the cost.