I sat on my bed, a book in my hand just wanting to have some time to myself until I heard a loud horn from outside. I at first ignored the sound thinking it's probably some car from the traffic outside but then the beep happened a few more times making me sigh as I walked to my window looking out from it.

My eyes scanned the busy roads in front of me until it locked in with someone's eyes. He leaned against his car, wearing a high neck top and a long coat looking handsome but his features didn't affect me anymore. Even though he was handsome, very handsome from the outside but I knew how shallow and ugly his inner soul was. Waving at me, he motioned me to come down. Sighing with irritation, I got ready and made my way downstairs to the lobby.

"What are you doing here?" I asked as I placed my cold hands in my coat pockets, a woolly scarf wrapped around my neck while my hair were tied in a high ponytail with a few strands of hair falling in front of my face. "I told you that I wanted to talk, so I thought today could be the day" he spoke moving closer to me. "Are you busy? I can come later" he asked as sadness flashed in his eyes. Swallowing my saliva, I licked my bottom lip, his eyes now gazing on them. "No, I'm not busy, where do you want to go?" I muttered.

"I was thinking of asking you that question, where would you like to go my beauty?" he asked with a soft tone. Hearing him call me that name made me clench my fists, does he not get it? is he that deluded? "I don't have much in mind, what about a walk in the park?" I offered not really wanting to go anywhere far. His face lit up, his lips stretching up into a smile showing off his pearly teeth. "Sure"

Ezhil and I walked side by side, walking past the busy roads as we reached the huge park. The park was kind of empty as it was very cold. I liked coming to this park as it had a lot of land and space to relax and just hang around in. "Wait here" he suddenly said and jogged off somewhere making me shrug my shoulders. I sat on the bench and rubbed my cold hands to create some heat, blowing into them. "Here" a hand reached out with a paper cup of coffee. Looking at his face, I thanked him quietly, taking the hot cup in my hands which instantly gave me warmth.

We both sat in silence, listening to the sound of nature. I rubbed my cold hands on my thighs until Ezhil grabbed one of my hands, placing it in his pocket. I looked at him with wide eyes while he just looked ahead, sipping onto his coffee. "How...how is Sagar doing?" he suddenly asked trying to create conversation. "He is doing good, happily married with Aditi and with a second child coming" I smiled. "Wow, I never imagined him having children. Guess time flies quite quickly" he added in. "Yeah, she is an amazing girl and his daughter Chandni, she is a sweetheart, just like her parents" I smiled remembering about her. Gosh I missed them all.

"That's nice to know" he muttered. "how have you been in these past few years?" he asked now looking at me. I just stared ahead once feeling his eyes on me. "Good" I mumbled as I sipped on my coffee. I felt him rub his thumb over my knuckles in his pocket making me gulp. "I hope you and I also end up like Sagar and Aditi one day" he whispered making me freeze as my jaw clenched at his words.

Slowly slipping out my hand from his warm pocket, he held it tight stopping me from taking my hand out of his warm pocket. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that" he mumbled quietly now looking at me. "Eyshana I-" he stopped talking when he heard his phone ring. I took this chance to take my hand out of his pocket once he removed his hand. Taking out his phone, he glared at it while clenching his jaw.

"I'm so sorry Eyshana, I need to take this call quick, I won't be long" he gave me a quick smile and walked a few steps away, now talking on his phone. I sighed and licked my dry lips, wiping a tear drop that suddenly fell down on my cheek. Looking at my empty cup, I glanced around for any bins to throw my cup away in. I stood up when I saw a bin nearby. I walked towards it and threw my cup away while taking out my phone to check any messages.

"Hi" an unfamiliar voice suddenly spoke out from nowhere making me look up from my phone. "Yes?" I asked politely at the young man who was standing in front of me with a blush on his cheeks. He looked young, maybe around 18-19 years old. He was tall, lean and quite handsome with his woolly hat on his head. "Sorry to have disturbed you, actually, I have noticed you come here a lot and just wanted to say that you are very beautiful" he blushed, scratching the back of his neck. I smiled, a light laugh leaving my lips. "Well, thank you for the compliment" I gave him a small smile. He smiled back, his face now even red. "Oh, I'm sorry I didn't even introduce myself...I'm Adam" he reached out his hand to shake. I glanced at his hand and smiled, "I'm Eys-"

"What's going on here? who are you?" a deep firm voice cut me off making us both look at the tall figure who was now standing next to me, glaring at poor Adam who gulped. "I'm sorry sir, I didn't know she was your girlfriend, I just wanted to say that she is beautiful" he flinched a little when seeing Ezhil's hard glare when saying the word beautiful. I was going to correct him, telling him that I was not his girlfriend but seeing Ezhil's harsh glare he flinched again.

"No...no...sir I...I d-didn't mean it in that wa-"

"LEAVE.NOW!" he voiced out menacingly making the boy jump in fear. "S-sorry sir...s-sorry m-ma'am" he stuttered and turned around running away. I snapped my head at Ezhil who was apparently already staring at me with a blank face. I threw my hands in the air and gave him a dumbfounded look. "What was that?" I asked him with irritation. "Why were you talking to him?" he asked with anger swirling in his eyes. A bitter chuckle left my lips as I looked down at the ground then back at his emotionless face. "Are you jealous?" I smirked.

He stalked towards me, his face right closer to mine making my lips go straight, his breath now tickling my face, his warmth now touching my body. "Yes...yes I am jealous" he breathed out making me freeze. My eyes slowly lifted up now locking in with his blue ones making me gulp. My eyes widened with horror when I realised what I was doing. I placed my hands on his chest and pushed him with force making him stumble a bit giving me a shocked look.

"Are you being serious right now Ezhil?" I asked him with disbelief. "What wrong did I say Eyshana?...I am jealous, I am jealous because I don't like other men talking to what's mine and you Eyshana are mine" he stormed towards me, his nose now rubbing mine making me move back.

My eyes welled up with unshed tears as I gave him an angered look. I rolled my watery eyes and looked away not knowing what to say. Inhaling a deep breath, I looked back at him with sorrow. "I am not yours Ezhil" I spoke with coldness. He just smiled at me, his eyes swirling with hurt. "I know Eyshana but deep in here you are mine, you live here...in my heart" he placed his hand over his heart.

We just both stood there, listening to the wind blowing as we got lost in each other's gaze not caring about the people walking past us. My heartbeat increased as I got lost in our past. The way he would kiss me, caress me, act possessive over me but that was now gone, long gone.

He held both my hands and raised them up, kissing both of them on the knuckles. "I know it will take you time to accept me but I will fight hell and back to be with you Eyshana....you are everything to me" tears welled up in his eyes. I gave him a painful look, removing my hands from his and placing them by my side.

"Why?" I mumbled looking at him with hurt. His eyebrows furrowed before his eyes widened in realisation. "I-I-" "You could have come to me, you could have shouted at me, cursed at me but at least you could have asked me. You could have questioned me, talked about it to me but you didn't" I spoke letting out everything that was locked up in my heart.

"E-e-eyshana" his voice cracked as tears rolled down his face. "You know Ezhil, there were two things missing in our relationship that were actually more stronger than love" I spoke.

"Trust and Communication which we never had" I stated. He looked down with regret, his palms now fisting. I ran my hand through my hair and let out a loud sigh. "please be honest with me Ezhil" I whispered. He raised his face and gave me a hurtful look. "Did you...." A shaky breath left my lips. "Did you sleep with anyone after....after you insulted me in college?" I asked with a hurtful tone. His eyes widened in shock, looking completely taken aback.

"E-eyshana I..I" he stuttered, his Adam's apple now bobbing up and down as he gulped. "Did you or did you not?" I asked again but this time with firmness. He looked away, his hand now wiping his tears as he refused to answer. A sad smile stretched on my lips as I closed my eyes feeling pathetic.

"She...she meant nothing to me" he suddenly spoke up. "Of course she meant nothing to you" I sarcastically muttered under my breath. "I lov-" "Just stop Ezhil...please just stop" I closed my eyes, placing my hand out to stop him. "No Eyshana, I will never stop, I will never stop telling you how I feel" he spoke with firmness. I opened my eyes giving him a blank look.

"Really?" I raised my eyebrow, my voice sarcastic. "Really...like I said before I loved you from day 1 fro-" "Did you love me when you accused me of your sister's attempted murder?" I finally asked making him taken aback as he looked at me with utter shock. His mouth opened and closed like a fish. I tilted my head, giving him a serious look. "What?...no words now?" I smirked. I placed my hands behind my back and walked closer to him. "Tell me Ezhil, did you feel any remorse, any regret when you raised your hand on me, when you raped me in front of your friends...did you feel anything for me then?" I gazed right into his eyes, my face full of disgust.

"Eyshana why are you bringing up the p-"

"Because we need to talk about it" I cut him off with an emotionless tone. "I need to get this out, for me to move on, for me to be happy I need to let this out. I want closure from all this" I stated.

Sighing, he sniffled and nodded his head. "To be honest Eyshana I was hurt, I was fucking hurt when the blame came on you. My mind went blank, I was so stupid to jump to conclusions, I didn't know what was right or what was wrong. When...when I..I hurt you I was hurting from inside but my hatred overcame that and....and I-I e-ended u-up b-breaking you" he stuttered now looking away with pain.

"You left me to die there Ezhil" tears ran down my eyes as I spoke. "You left me there...bleeding with no remorse on your face...you just left me" I cried while looking at him with so much pain welled up in my heart. His body shook as he cried as well. "If Sagar and Riya didn't come that day then I-" I looked away, my eyes closed as the pictures flashed in front of my eyes, my hands now shaking as water leaked from my eyes.

I opened my eyes when I felt warmth touch my cheeks. "That was the biggest mistake, no... the biggest fucking sin of my life and for that I will never forgive myself Eyshana" he whispered while stroking my cheeks with his thumbs. He leaned his nose on my cheek whilst I closed my eyes. Tears were streaming down both of our cheeks as we cried in each other's arms. "I'm so sorry my beauty....I'm so sorry" he chanted in my ear, his tears now falling onto my cheek.

"Why didn't you come up to me?...why did you do this to me?...why?" I cried, his arms now wrapped around me, my face buried in his neck. "Why didn't you trust me?...why?...why?" I cried, hitting my fist on his chest while he hugged me tightly, his breath shaking as he tried to control his sobbing.

"I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I'm so sorry Eyshana....I love you so much" he cried, hugging me so tightly as he stroked my hair, placing kisses on my cheek time to time. We both just stood there in each other's arm, crying our hearts out oblivious to our surrounding but little did I know that a pair of eyes were staring at us with hurt from a far.

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