❝ Behind every scar there is an untold story of SURVIVAL ❞

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Eun Ae got up way too fast. Thanks to the light snoring and sleep talking of Jungkook. She looked at him and saw him sleeping, tightly hugging the pillow. He tried hugging her in sleep but she kept pushing him away, earning his groans. He kept on doing that till the time she collected the pillows and made a bridge​ to block him.

She sighed and walked towards the bathroom.

Jungkook's P.O.V.

I never felt so lonely and sad before. I have promised myself to be strong and fight back specially after 'that' incident.

Aish... this is so awkward last night Eun Ae saw how weak i was. It's just because they mentioned about eomma and things changed suddenly. That's why i don't stay here because it keeps on reminding me about her which i don't want to. I should not cry and show how weak i am...

Yes... Men don't cry...

Last night i suddenly felt the urge of hugging someone. Yes i know i tried hugging Eun Ae and she must have thought that i am pervert and trying to make a move on her. Duh... Like i am really going to.

End of P.O.V.

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"What have you made Eun Ae?" Rhea tiptoed towards her and she peeked over Eun Ae's shoulder to see what she was making.

"Not much unnie just some bacon and toast as i didn't had time. I guess Jungkook must have woke up and he will be coming for breakfast" she plated the last toast and carried the breakfast towards the dining table with the help of Rhea. As soon as they arrived she saw Jungkook waiting for her at the dining table with Mr. Jeon.

"Good morning appa" she greeted and Mr. Jeon smiled back.

"Wait for me Jungkook i will be ready within a minute" she requested on which he nodded.

"Yah why are you both so much interested in office than us? You guys make us look so small as if it is only you both who are working here" Rhea pouted.

"Noona i need to go because i have a meeting lined up but you can keep Eun Ae" Jungkook piped and he looked at Eun Ae for her reaction.

"Jungkook i am also com-"

"No please... atleast you stay please please please" Rhea cooed and Eun Ae was not able to go against her request.

"Fine.." finally she agreed and got a tight hug from Rhea.

"Ouch Rhea unnie...."

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Eun Ae's P.O.V.

He went leaving me alone. Ahhh... i don't want to spend time with unnie. Actually unnie is nice and that is the real problem. I am afraid that i might spill the truth infront of her anytime during the emotional moment consciously or unconsciously... because her heart is so pure just like my oppa.

I took a shower and walked outside ruffling my hairs in the bathrobe which was actually Jungkook's as i was not able to find one. His clothes and robes smells so good.

"What should i do now? I can't even help to clean the house as they have a staff of helpers for that" i mumbled sitting on the bed. I was looking around the room and casually my eyes went towards a small cupboard and i decided to see if i could get something to read like a book or magazine or anything to kill time.

I opened and saw some old files, blank journals and books but something caught my special attention, a diary. It was black in colour but it had started turning little greyish at the corners, there was a silver lining at the corners making it look more classic but the book had 'old book smell' making me stifle at the sight.

"Damn this musty smell... did he kept this in some damp place?" i muttered as i opened the first page of the diary.

i practically snorted as i read the first line.

"Jungkook and holistic approach, god i need to vent" i covered my mouth to suppress my laugh and tried reading further.

Things which inspires me the most-

Petrichor, Stars and Rain...!

"So deep... i am touched"

I flipped few pages and noticed that it was not a daily routine diary of his, there were just few incidents which he had written down incase if he reads this then he can just walk down the memory lane.

I flipped the pages.

Walking in the rain...

Holding your hand...

That's what i wish for...

"Wait? with whom he wants to walk in rain?" i raised my eyebrows when i came across a random page.

How did i became so lucky?

"Lucky who?"

I flipped the next page and saw that some pages were missing as if they were ruthlessly torn.

"What was in these pages? what is he hiding? He has torn it so harshly so it must be some bad memory" i mumbled as i closed the diary, there was no point of reading it because it was blank after that.

"Who can tell me about this?"

"Oh unnie..." i smiled as i thought of unnie. She knows everything and there is no harm in asking her about this. I made my mind and grabbed the diary with me and i walked out of the room.

"No matter whatever happens i should know what happened with Jungkook few years ago...!" i muttered confidently and walked towards her room.

"Unnie" i called out and she raised her head from the book she was reading. She smiled and kept the book aside.

"Eun Ae... what happened? do you need something?" she asked. I carefully sat infront of her, hiding the diary behind me.

"Yes i need to know what happened to Jungkook?" i asked.

"What happened to him? he is good Eun Ae" she answered as if she didn't understood my question.

"Unnie i mean what had happen to him few years ago which made him this way... cold and play-"

"He use to be a playboy Eun Ae but now he is not" she corrected me and i nodded. Yes i should play along for Jungkook.

"Yes... sorry... i mean tell me what happened?"

"Eun Ae please don't ask me. Instead try asking him"

"Unnie you know he will never tell me. I actually tried asking him but he got mad at me and i don't want to repeat the same mistake again so can you tell me? I am not able to find out even in this diary" i softened my voice and showed her the diary which i was hiding.

"Eun Ae but how can i? i mean it is wrong for me to tell you this and-"

"Tell me unnie please. You said we are family and now you are trying to hide this things. Isn't it wrong that i, Jeon Eun Ae after marrying Jungkook can celebrate the happiness as a part of Jeon family but i can't bear the pain and ask questions. Don't you think that this is wrong?" i asked as i tried to engulf her mind with my words.

"Okay if you want then let me tell you... but-" she paused and looked at me with a blank face.

"But?"

"Keep this between you and me please... Jungkook will not like me telling you this" she requested and i nodded.

"Jungkook's life was great just like a normal teenager. He was close to our eomma. Well mannered boy who would respect girls. Everything was good but then she came in his life"

"Who unnie?"

"Shin Saeron"

"Shin Saeron? was she his girlfriend?"

"Unfortunately yes...if i were given a chance i would have shoved my 7 inch heel in her as-"

"Unnie no.. don't make your mouth dirty please" i could see she was raging with anger.

"She ruined his purity Eun Ae. She made Jungkook fall for her. They were in their second year, she was assigned as his partner for a project. Using her charms she trapped Jungkook making him fall for her. Jungkook thought that he got his first love. He was really happy with her, he did everything for her right from taking her to cheesy dates, buying gifts, outing etc. We were happy that finally he has someone special in his life now... but just then something happened which shouldn't have" she looked down as she bit her lip.

"What happened unnie? did she cheated on him?" my eyes went round as i asked her. Yes i wanted to know everything about Jungkook. I was desperate and even i don't know why?

"Cheating was better Eun Ae... she used him just for the sake of her father's revenge. She never ever loved him. All she did was just toying with his feelings and then used him after he was trapped. Actually her father was an employee in our company. At that time our company was not so developed like it is now so appa was the one who use to keep the track records. Everything was good until he found out that there is something wrong with the records, he noticed that someone was leaking the money out illegally and it was Mr. Shin her father. Appa was mad at him and he decided not to hand him to the police just because of his family so appa just fired him instead"

"You mean to say, that man used his own daughter to take revenge?" i questioned on which she nodded.

"God... i can't believe... how can a man use his own daughter?"

"He did Eun Ae..., Jungkook never thought that she will do this with him. One day after a house party at one of her friend's house she made him drink and took him to a room. Jungkook was not in the mood to think straight as he was under the influence of alcohol. That girl took an advantage and forced herself on him. She even clicked some images as a proof. Do you believe that Jungkook actually lost his first time to her and it came out this way...?"

I was shocked to hear that. First love, first time is the one everybody waits for their whole life but for Jungkook it wasn't that good. I really felt so pity for him.

"She used those pics against him the very next day. She claimed that he forced himself on her in the influence of alcohol and the police accepted. You know right? that the police actually believes girl in such cases. Jungkook was jailed and his bail was denied due the crime he did as he was above 18. Our company was in a mess as the investors backed out also our partners did the same. Appa was worried, my eomma's condition was weak, our family was devastated. Can you believe he was tortured in the custody and we were not able to do anything for him. He has a scar of his face due to all the torture they did to him. Have you noticed that? the scar on his cheek? that was so deep when he came back home. The wound was healed as the time passed but the scar on his mind is still the same, fresh" she huffed looking away.

"So what about that girl and her father?" i asked in a curious tone.

"Well eomma did not wanted him to stay behind bars so she requested appa to do something for Jungkook when he was under arrest so appa tried to find out the truth with the help of his friends and he came to know that it was Mr. Shin behind this so finally the truth was revealed and Mr. Shin was prisoned for faking things while Saeron being underage was sent to the juvenile reformatory for 2 years under the Juvenile Act. I heard that her father died in some accident 3 years ago and we don't know about her but i am glad that they are out of his life now" she smiled softly but still i could see the pain in her eyes. Just imagining​​ the incident brought chills down my spine. I never thought Jungkook's past can be so horrifying and sad.

You never know what a person is hiding behind their smile, how much pain they must have faced or must be facing.

God... i remember what my eomma use to say 'Be good to others because you never know what sort of battles they must be fighting or must have fought'. I am feeling so weak and small infront of him and i use to think that i am the one who is bearing all the misfortune in this world.

"Don't show sympathy towards him Eun Ae. He hates it" her words pierced through my thoughts and i looked at Rhea.

"No i am not showing sympathy. I was just thinking that i never thought his past must be so shocking" i pressed my lip onto each other.

"Yes Eun Ae actually he have forgotten everything. He became so soft and vulnerable after he was released from the jail and what made things even worst was eomma's death. He was so depressed and stressed out that he almost started going out more often to the clubs for partying as there was no one to control him and look after him. His hyungs tried to interfere but he told them to stay out of his life. But i am glad that they are still caring for him even after he insulted them. He completely changed himself Eun Ae... If you would have met Jungkook few years ago then you could have able to spot the difference between the two. He was not concern about anybody after eomma's death... his lifestyle became different changing girls, one nightstands, alcohol, partying, clubbing etc. but now he has changed and i am happy for it" she smiled whole heartedly making me nervous again. I wish i was able to tell the truth and ask for apology.

"Thanks unnie... for telling me" i got up from the bed.

"It's fine Eun Ae... i am feeling light now after sharing this with you but don't ask him about this also don't tell him that i told you. He will not like it as he have completely erased that chapters from his life. He has reborn just like a does from his own ashes. He don't want to remember that part of his life which gave him that scar" i nodded as soon as she completed.

"Yeah... I can understand unnie" i smiled before walking out of her room.

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Rest of the day i spent reading his diary in detail as there were many interesting things written in that related to his mother. I felt so nice, it reminded me about my mother.

I closed the diary and kept it in it's place before i could get caught red handed. I closed the cupboard and sighed.

"God... i swear if i meet that girl then-"

"Then?"

Shit... Jungkook...!

I turned to see him standing at the entrance of the bedroom with coat in his hands. He loosened his tie while walking towards me, his eyes on me.

Did he saw me with the diary?

"Which girl are you talking about?" he repeated with a hoarse voice making me shiver. I was afraid of him as i saw a slight ray of anger on his face. His eyes were targeted at me. It was impossible to interpret his emotions...

"No..Nothing.."

Shit i stuttered. My tongue betrayed me.

"Yah tell me... or else"

"Or else?" i asked and mentally cursed myself for asking that as i saw his eyes switched towards my...

"Jun..gkook. I swear don't you touch... you perv..." i crossed my arms making a 'X' on my chest.

"So tell me... which girl?" he cooed and pouted.

God this man...

"I was..thinking... about that girl Jaehee from that day with whom i had a verbal fight..." i spat. Thank god i remembered that incident.

"What about her? Wait... are you jealous?" he wiggled his eyebrows.

"What? Jealous and me..? and for what? because of that girl? Geez... she is the one which makes me actually think that.... Jesus Christ this is the sperm which actually won?" i blurted out making him laugh. He held his stomach with both his hands and laughed till his heart content.

I know i made a weird and perv joke but still seeing him smile made me happy. I saw tears forming in the corners of his eyes, Tears of Joy...

"You are such a savage girl...! i tell you and i thought that you are innocent..." he spoke as he controlled his laugh and stood stable infront of me.

I could clearly see the on his cheek and also smile on his face.

I hope he smiles brightly than the brightest star in the universe and also gets a in his life so that he can be guided towards a correct path his life...

"Yah what are you thinking? you look scary when you are thinking you know that?" he chucked lightly and winked at me on which i smiled.

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