I haven't sleep since we got back from the Opera concert, i'm scared I'm going to be late for my flight. Well this is going to be my very first time for flying all by myself after the accident.

You're going to be okay Lana, well that's the words that Apollo always going to say to me every time we were on the plane.

I packed everything and now I'm ready to go to my car, Laura told dad's people to pick me up at 2 at the hotel. I feel confused cause Apollo's bodyguards are always at the lobby, what if they recognize me and stop me.

My Suitcase is ready at in front of the door and here i am standing in the bedroom looking at my boyfriend who peacefully asleep. I don't know how should i feel anymore, boys are keep hurting me.

Looking at him sleeping peacefully making a tears fall from my eyes, I don't want to leave but it hurts me so much. I thought i can handle my emotion through the vacation but I can't, crying myself isn't the best way. I need to go back home and take a quality time with my family before i leave to England.

I look into the clock that hung on the wall It says 5 minutes before 2 am in the morning, i should go. I walk closer into Apollos side then lean closer, i kissed him on the forehead before walk away from him. I took a last glance before finally walking out of the room.

I only wear a legging and a hoodie that covering my head. I hope his people isn't going to recognize me leaving the lobby. I get into the elevator with my suitcase then push the first floor button, it takes a while until the elevator door finally open.

Laura left me a contact number to contact the driver that's going to pick me up, i begin to dial the number and thank god I recognize the voice. He's Anthony one of my dad's people that always following my family and he's also the head of the bodyguard for my family.

"Anthony" i said.

"Yes Mrs Valerie, I'm at the lobby" he said.

"Where are you?" He asked.

"I'm at the lobby too, just got out from the elevator" i said.

"Okay stay where you are, Mrs Valerie said that there's going to be a lot of Mr Hamilton's people so we're going to take the basement" he said.

"Aren't some of them are actually in the basement too?" I asked him.

"You don't have to worry about it the car is ready at the basement once you walk out" he said.

I trust him like my family trust him, he's been so loyal to my family. He's been working with my dad since i was a little so yeah.

"Okay i'll meet you here" i said.

"I'm on my way Miss" he said before he hung up.

I'm standing alone in front of the elevator while looking at the mirror of my self reflection, i look like a dumb girl who haven't sleep for a few days. Suddenly i see Anthony is finally appeared with 2 other bodyguards behind him, i turn around and he smiles.

"It's good to see you again Miss Valerie, Lets go the plane is ready, everything's ready" he said before helping me with my suitcase.

"Thank you" i smile.

"Oh wait" he said reaching something from his pocket.

He suddenly pull a piece of sunglasses then give it to me, he hand me a sunglasses.

"For what?" I asked him.

"Just in case, so they won't recognize you" he said.

"Okay" i said putting it on my face.

"Lets go" he said then i began to follow him.

He's the one who's walking first and the two other are walking behind me. I follow him into the emergency door and we have to take so many stairs and we also have to move fast. We suddenly stop at one of the emergency door, Anthony is speaking into the earpiece that he always wears.

"The daughter is ready to go" He said.

"Roger that" he said.

He let two others bodyguards that walked behind me to carry my suitcases into the car first, when everything's ready he let me walk into the car that parked right in front of the door first.

We get inside and the car moves right away, my heart was beating fast and I'm so sweaty right now. I hope they aren't going to find out that I'm sneaking out the hotel without Apollo knowing it.

The car is moving pretty fast with another black SUV follows behind us, my heart feels empty when the car exiting the lobby. I'm looking up to the very top floor that used to be our room, imagining him sleeping alone in the room.

I know I'm acting childish to leave him alone without saying anything but I can't stand it anymore. Acting that you're okay especially in front of the person that hurt you is harder than I thought.

I know the consequences when i leave him like this, he's going to keep chasing me when he's back to LA. I know he won't give up until he reach me and I don't know if i can face that situation or not. And I don't want Mom, Gabriel and my friends to know about it. I don't want the situation get worse.

I want to talk to him about the problem but i know i need a time to clear my head so i can explain him what i want and we can look for a solution.

I open my phone and reveal a picture of me and him on my phone screen, a picture that we took when we were in Hawaii. It was the best memories that i have with him, when there's still just us in our relationship. A tear fall from my eyes and i immediately whipped it up, I don't want Anthony to found out that I'm crying.

"We'll be at the airport in two minutes miss" he said.

"All right" i said.

Just like what he said the car stops in front of the private airport, the airport is kinda full of some people. And I'm glad i have my dad's people around me, at least I'm not alone. I walk out with my bags on my hand, I'm still wearing the sunglasses. Glad Anthony gave me this so they can't see me crying.

The people around are now looking at us, it's probably because of the SUV an the man with a formal suite with an earpiece are spreading around me.

"Lets god Miss" he said.

We were walking passing everyone until my phone is suddenly ringing, my heart is beating faster what if it's Apollo and he's going to chase me here? But i was wrong it's Laura who's calling.

"Hello" i said.

"Sis sorry i passed out, how's it?" She asked.

"It went normal, thanks for arranging it just make sure the bodyguards around me here won't open their mouth to Mom or Gabriel" i said to her.

"Uhm" she stops.

"Laura don't tell me everyone knows about it?" I asked her.

"Not everyone, well Gabriel found out" She said and it's making my heart beats getting fast.

"But he still wants to know the story from you, he's acting normal he's not pissed don't worry he loves you and want all the best for his sister" she said and i feel relieved.

"Thanks to both of you then" i said.

"Okay, so you sneaked out of the room?" She asked.

"Yeah" i said.

"Miss Valerie can we have your Passport please?" Anthony suddenly asked which makes me have to put my phone between my ear and my shoulder.

I picked it up from my bag then give it to him, now we're waiting for us to get inside.

"Come home Lana take a rest clear your mind" she said.

"I'm on my way home Laura" i said.

"Is it okay for you to be on a plane?" She asked and i stay in a silent for a few seconds.

If Apollo here he's going to comfort me, he's going to tell me everything is going to be alright, he's going to hold my hand and make sure that i fall asleep while in the plane.

"I'm okay, i can handle it" i said to her.

"Just tell Anthony if you need Anything" she said.

"I will" i said to her.

"Safe flight Lana, i'll be there to pick you up tomorrow" she said.

"Thank you Laura love you" i said.

"Love you too sissy" she said before hung up the phone.

Everything is ready now we're on our way to the jet, i see one of the crew that wearing a grey uniform is greeting us. I sent her a smile before walks into the jet. I take a seat on one of the chair and put my bags in front of me.

I look out the window and wondering what is he going to do when he found out that I'm not there. I'm sorry Apollo but you hurt me and I cannot acting it up anymore, i love you but at the same time i hate you too.

Tomorrow is his birthday it supposed to be his special day but it's going to be the mess up day for both of us.

And deep inside I actually hate to leave him but it hurts.