It's been a few days since i got back to LA, I haven't talk to lana. She needs some space, I'm here feeling so dumb like an idiot. How couldn't I recognize that she found out about it and why didn't I confess at the first place. Well i know both of my decisions are going to ended up with her walking away but at least i still can talk to her about the truth and how i really feel.

I want to talk to her again, see her again. I just need a one more chance to confess and tell her how to was it really happened. And i just want her to know that i do love her, I don't like Kayla at all. She's just a friends with benefits, well i know it is wrong when i have a girlfriend at the same time. It's all are my fault, I should've thinking about it. I should've think about how she feels.

My parents keep reminding me that i have to prepare some files for Harvard, i also have to take a look for an apartment near there. My dad said he's going to buy me an apartment by himself so he's the one who decide where am i going to stay.

My phone suddenly buzz and I wish it's going to be Lana replying to all of my text from yesterday, but i was wrong it's just my dad.

Dad :

Son, meet me at the Raflessia Restaurant tonight at 8.

Dad :

You're going to accompany me to meet a very important client.

Apollo Hamilton :

Where's mom?

I asked him, cause I don't really want to go all i want to do is staying in the house while waiting for Lana to return my text.

Dad :

She's going to visit her friend in the hospital

Apollo Hamilton :

Okay be there at 8 dad.

Dad :

Thank you.

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I arrived at the restaurant, this is my parents favorite restaurant. They love the steak here, they love everything here, I admit that the food is delicious. And it really worth to buy, both of them really like the steak, so am i.

I got out from the car before lock it up, i walk into the lobby and being greeted by one of the waiters.

"Good evening can i help you?" She politely asked me.

"Table for Philip Hamilton" i said as i keep playing on the keys in my hand.

"Oh okay follow me sir" she said.

I walk inside and follow her into one of the private area inside of the restaurant, we walk into the back of the restaurant until she stops in front of the door in front of us.

"This is the private room for Philip Hamilton sir" he said.

"Thank you" i said to him.

I open the door but the room is so dark, I'm sure the waiter is showing me the wrong room. I was about to close the door until the light suddenly being turned on.

"Surprise!" Everyone inside of the room suddenly cheering together.

I see so many friends and family are here, my eyes caught her beautiful appearance in the middle of the room. She's wearing a white spaghetti strap dress, she doesn't say anything. She's just looking at me then look away.

"Happy birthday Apollo" my mom said to me before pulling me into a hug.

"Happy birthday Son" my dad said before pulling me into a hug too.

"Thanks mom, dad" i said before i pull out.

I see Lana is walking closer with a cake on her hands, the cake has a candle on It. She keeps looking at the cake and seems doesn't want to look at me in the face.

"Come on everyone! Sing" Justin shout.

"Happy birthday to you.." everyone began to sing a birthday song for me except Lana who's standing in front of me.

Her face is not happy and uncomfortable with the situation, i feel bad for her to be here. It must be my parents who arranged all of these, they don't know that something bad is happening between us.

"Happy birthday to you! Blow the candles" my mom said.

I began to blew out the candle, the attention is right around the corner. Everyone is looking at me who's blowing the candle in front of Lana. And i wish it doesn't look obvious that we're not in a good situation.

She turns around once I'm done with the candles she walks into the table then put the cake on it, my eyes never left her as my dad begins to give a little speech on my birthday. I watch her slowly leaving the crowd, but I want her to stay I don't want her to walk away just like that again.

"Is there anything you want to say son?" My dad's word seems pulling me back from my focus on her.

"Thank you and Lets party" i said.

"Lets party!!" Justin shout then the music began to play inside of this private room.

Everyone is started to eat their food and some fo them started to get some drink, my mom seems knowing that everything's not right.

Once the attention isn't on me anymore i started to walk out of the room following where ever she goes, i wish she hasn't left. I have at least to meet her and say sorry.

"Hey Apollo happy birthday" some of the random girls from school said, which kinda hold me from walking away from here.

"Aa thanks" i said.

"Do you want some drink" she asked.

"No thanks, you guys have fun" i said before walking away from them.

I don't even know who they are, I don't even recognize them. Lana is ready to get out of this party by entering the emergency door, i have to run to catch her.

"Lana wait" i said.

She stops walking but doesn't even turn around to face me,

"We have to talk" i said.

"There's Nothing we have to talk about, everything's written on the letter" she said.

"You don't have to walk away like that, the letter is full of your opinions and side. You've never heard about my side, the relationship is about both of us not just you and not just me."

"I know i hurt you and I'm sorry" i said.

She slowly sit on the emergency stairs, i began to sit at the stairs next to her. Not brave enough to see her,

I take a deep breath before decided to tell her what's really happened,

"I was so fucked up and stressed about college, there's a pressure on my shoulder that I cannot handle all by myself. About my family's company, my family's name myself and my future"

"I didn't know what I'm thinking but it leads me to Kayla, I didn't love her. But-" the words seems doesn't want to come by itself, i feel so guilty to tell her about the actual truth.

"I love you and i always will, I'm not lying i do love you so much." I said.

"It was only a friends with benefits, and i really didn't know what I'm thinking. I was so stressed and depressed, I'm sorry"

"I know I don't deserve your forgiveness but at least i can explain and say sorry to you" i said looking down to the floor.

A silent started to fill around the emergency exit, cause it is the only place that seems bright and silent in this place.

"I forgive you" she suddenly said.

"But i want to break up with you" she said in a silent,

I don't deserve her forgiveness, I don't deserve her. She deserve someone else who will take a good care of her heart. And I thought I'm going to be that person but i failed, and I regret everything i did wrong.

I still in shock and can't believe I'm going to loose her just like that, I thought I'm going to marry her someday. But I can't be selfish and only thinking about my feeling, the feeling where i want her to stay while I'm actually hurting her.

She can't stay like this, she can't be with me. I'm not a right guy for her, the fact that I'm not going to be with her anymore breaks my heart. But this is the consequence for what i did.

"I actually come here because your mom asked me, and of course I don't want them to know that we're having a problem"

"And I don't want our friends to know the reason why we're fighting" she said.

She cares about my name, how can i break her heart. I'm a jerk, how can she still care about my name towards everyone when I hurt her so bad. I know it must be hard to come here with a smile when everyone thinks that she's okay to come.

"Besides" she continue.

"You're not the first guy who hurt me" she said.

"My dad is the first guy who broke my heart but now he's gone." She said.

"All about you actually reminds me of my dad, it makes me so hard to get over of the fact that my dad is gone." She said.

"I'm sorry" i said.

"I'm sorry" she said.

"I think i should go" she said.

"Just tell everyone that I'm not feeling good" she said while getting up from the stairs.

Her blue eyes reflect how hurt she is and seems telling me how disappointed she is.

"It's been a good time with you Apollo" she said and i know this is the time.

"I'm going to miss you" she said.

"I'm going to leave in two weeks" she said.

"There will be so many girls waiting for you Apollo, probably better than me"

No no, you're more than enough.

"I'm sorry, good bye" she said exiting the exit door and leaving me alone in the emergency stairs.

I can't believe it.

We broke up.

I lost her.