I searched her eyes to detect any lies but all I saw was sincerity. I still felt anger and insecurity. It was something I did not want to fall back into. I was finally building courage..

She softly sigh and stroke my cheek, while looking at me with glazed eyes. I just fell harder for her but I don't know whether I could let her back in. She hurt me more than any of Carla's bullying.

"I know what I did was unforgivable. I swear it was not my intention to hurt you. I guess being with you made me forget everything" she smiled and looked away.

"I've been hurt so much, but what you did hurt me more than anything that I have ever endured. I fell for you, Nicole. I love you so much. Every time I doubted myself thinking I would do something wrong. I believed time and time again you would leave me. But I promised myself I would not be delusional or irrational. But you lied in my face even though you saw what was happening with me and what was wrong with me. I feel like a toy that you played with like a puppet. I followed your command like a puppy!!" Tears blurred my vision at this point.

"I loved you Nicole. No I love you!"I confessed.

"You do?" She questioned breathlessly.

"Since the beginning. I always will but...." I trailed off.

"But what?"

"I need time away from you" I whispered and moved away from her touch.

"Eva, honey please push me away. I'll do anything what you...."

"Please stop and just grant me this wish. I need to get myself together. I need to heal. I feel hurt and betrayed. All I need is time, please"

This hurt more than I thought.

"Okay. I'll give you time. But please just think about us." She stood up and walked to my room door.

"I'm in the process of divorcing him, Eva. It was coming a long time ago. But you came along and made it easier for me."

"Just so you know, I love you too sweetheart"

My eyes snapped up to her. My eyes wide with happiness. She loves me!!! She loves me!!!!

"You do?" I whispered breathlessly and in wonder.

"I do" she smiled at me.

"I'll see you around" she waved a small goodbye and walked out of my room.

I sat in a trance. I can not believe this. The front door shutting broke me out of my thoughts.

Giddiness swarm in my stomach. I felt rejuvenated. She loves me and she is divorcing her husband for me!!! Holy crap!!

This has to be a dream. No?

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