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I was reading back on one of the chapters and I already spotted so many grammatical errors T-T

Im cringing help

it was my birthday on Valentine's day :D

thank you to the person who pointed out my mistake 'rested his lap on your head' I'm still laughing omg 😂

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"Lie down with me."

You completely ignored him, staring at the bright things on the ceilings. "There are stars in your room."

He hiccuped and giggled. "Th...Those are my lights."

"But there's... so many!"

"What do you mean?" Alec squinted and counted the number of bright things there are on his bedroom ceiling. "I can only see 8 lights. Wait... Last time I checked I only had one light..."

You shook your head. "No! There are definitely more lights than 8. There's like a bajillion!"

He scrunched up his nose at you. "I think you need glasses."

"Hey! I'll have you know my sight is verrrryyy good unlike your ability to hold alcohol!"

"W-Whatever, this is my party! Lie down with me." He pulled you onto his bed.

You complied with him, noting that his bed was quite comfy. Little did you know what your conversations would lead to...

"-and then we can have hot passionate sex on this bed; right here, right now." Alec wiggles his eyebrows. You and Alec had been conversing for the past 20 minutes and all he was doing was shooting dirty remarks at you.

"I'm lesbian." You lied, believing that would ward him off.

"That's fine, we can have two girls, one boy. Although I swing both ways, you know?" He leaned closer to you. You reached in your bag, grabbing your pepper spray.

"I'm leaving-"

"NO!" Alec sprang up and pulled you onto the bed and wrapped his legs around your torso, rolling you onto the bed so you were face down.

"Rapist! It's a rapist!" You wiggled and struggled away from his grasp. Managing to get one arm out, you adjusted the angle of your pepper spray and sprayed it above your head and hopefully into his eyes.

"Shit!" Alec loosened his arms, allowing you to push out of his evil clutches. "Agh, my eyes! My beautiful eyes! I'm gonna be blind forever!"

A sudden thought comes to your mind, finally remembering his name. "Wait. You're Grace's friend right?" You asked him, edging away from the potential rapist at the same time.

"Oh! So you're the Y/N Grace has been talking about..." Alec trailed off, still rubbing his eyes. "Doesn't mean I don't have the hots for you, though." He winked.

You wrinkled your nose in disgust. The effects of alcohol were fading and you were finally coming back to your senses. "I'm gonna go back." You stood up and walked towards the exit-

"Wait! I promise I won't make any sexual remarks! Just stay with me?" Alec whined, rolling around on the bed.

"Why?"

He sniffled and suddenly had the need to start ranting about his love life. "I got rejected THREE times today!"

"I-"

"First, was this hot girl. I forgot her name. I was just talking to her, and then she walked away from me!"

"What did you say?"

"Uh, You're like my pinkie toe? 'Cause I'm going to bang you on every piece of furniture in my home."

"I would do the same thing, Alec, I would do the same thing."

"But she was hot, and I got that pickup line from a website," Alec protested before he continued, "and then there was this guy that I thought looked pretty sexy as well. Turns out, he wasn't gay. And then, there was another guy; he was attracted to boys but already had a boyfriend! Why am I so lonely? I thought this was my party!"

Alec started sobbing hysterically. You assumed the alcohol you could smell from his breath was making him more dramatic. You smiled in fake pity and patted his back in a comforting manner. He rested his head on your lap and cried so more.

'I want to leave.' You thought while stroking his hair.

"Was I born too sexy...?" Alex started mumbling stupid questions about his existence. You took your phone out but a certain someone snatched it away.

"No using your phone while I'm crying about my love life." Alex huffed, snuggling into your lap more.

"Alec, you're drunk. Go to sleep."

"Only if you sleep with me."

"Fuck off."

Alec moped in anger. "Fine! Leave me for all I care!" He turned the opposite direction as you and crossed his arms, still lying down. You sighed and got off the bed, picking your phone up from nightstand. From the corner of your eye you could see Alec peeking at you.

'Waiting to be coddled,' You presumed.

"Alec...?"

If Alec was an animal, his ears would've perked up. He laid still, waiting for you to say something.

"Do you wanna-"

"Why didn't you say so? Let's go seduce some women!" He grabbed your hand and started pulling you out of the room.

"Alec, no!" you facepalmed, "I was going to say do you want to find your friends. It's almost 1 and I need to go home. I believe Gabriel and Melody do too as well."

"What? But it's so early..." Alec frowned sadly. "I want to stay with you a bit longer..."

You smiled. "We'll see each other at school."

"But that's days away!"

"It's Saturday."

"...fine. I guess I'll see you on Monday then. Please, allow me to take you back." Alec paused for a second before adding "With my chauffeur, of course."

You thought about it. It was already so late in the night so you should take up the offer. Grace was probably drunk and it was not safe for her to drive.

You turned to Alec. "Let's go."

Alec cheered. "Let's go!" He repeated, grabbing your hand again and ran downstairs.

"H-Hey! Slow down!"

'What is Y/N doing right now?' Leon wondered, as he stood behind a tree, hiding from your house. He's seen no activity in your bedroom through since he got here at 11. On a Saturday, you'd usually stay awake until 12 and browse your phone until 1.

Did you go to bed early? It's been 20 minutes. Should he go in? Leon looked up at your room again. Maybe he should.

The stalker carefully snuck into your room, just like like he did every time. Quietly, he peeked through the window. Huh. You weren't here.

'Maybe this is the chance to finally explore her room more freely.' Leon's hands twitched excitedly at the thought of going through her things again and again without fearing she was in the room. He opened your window and hopped in, instantly taking a whiff of your room.

'It smells like Y/N.' He sighed happily, burying his head on your bed. Leon never got to do that, since he was afraid you would wake up. He practically melted into a puddle on your bed, spreading his body all over your scent. Wait, there's a note?

If you read this, I'm definitely in big trouble. I went to a party and I should come back at 2 to 3 at the latest.

So that's where you were... He should've gone with you then. Imagine all those dirty boys looking at you, accidentally touching you... The thought of that... How dare they! That negative mindset immediately flew out the window when Leon was met with another 'attraction' of your bedroom.

"Oh! And this is the toy she always sleeps with! And the stuffed toy we won for our carnival date!" Leon gushed, hugging both of them. What a rare opportunity.

After rolling all over your bed (partly to rub his scent on to your bed and to rub your scent on to his clothes), he looked at the bookshelves. He's never gotten through your huge shelf since he feared it always made a lot of noise. That's why this was another rare opportunity to get through all of them, to get to know your favourite tastes - to get to know you.

'Then, for her Valentine's day present, I can get her one of these types of books. And she would look so excited and- Oh! Maybe I'll even get a kiss for myself.' Leon touched his blushing cheeks in giddiness at his fantasies. Still, he continued to look through your books.

It seems to Leon that you liked plots that had yanderes romance in them. But that was too vague. There were millions of romance books in the world! As Leon continued to skim through the books you have read, he came across a sheet of paper wedged between one of the pages.

"Huh...? What's this?" Leon slowly opened the piece of paper, only to be surprised that it was addressed to him! He quickly skimmed through the letter in excitement and read it again slowly just to make sure it was what he thought it was. Then, Leon pinched his cheeks. This has got to be fake!

Dear Leon Harts,

Even though this letter will never get to you, I'd like to confess my love for you for the first and final time. Over the course of these months, I've fallen deeper and deeper in love with you. I've always hoped that one day I might find my prince charming like in the stories. I really thought you were, you know. Charming, I mean. I wanted you to be the one for me. And you probably are because I've never loved anyone else more than you. Yet.

But I'm just not the one for you. It hurts me so much, every time I see you with my best friend. Ever single time I see you with her, it reminds me of how I will never have you. That I've been by kicked out of the small circle of friends and have become the unwanted third wheel. That I'm worthless of everyone's time. Every day, I hear Lizzy gushing about how cute and lovely you are and it makes my heart ache so much. I'm being selfish, every time I fantasize you holding me in your arms when Lizzy is the one who's meant to do that for you. It's unrequited love once again.

So, I'm going to let you go :)

I wanted to cancel the amusement park outing but I couldn't bear to because I am selfish. Please forgive me because of that. After this outing, I'll pretend you've never even existed. I'll be rude to you if you keep on persisting. So please don't make this any harder and talk to me. Maybe once I get on your bad side you'll become hostile towards me. That's probably the only way to get rid of an infatuation. I've never been lucky with love. So what makes me think that you'll just suddenly run into my arms? I'm wishing for too much.

But for now, in this letter, I'd just like to say that I love you so much and I'm sorry for the way I'm going to treat you. In reality, I just want to run into your arms and never let go. I want to cuddle with you. I want to pepper you with kisses. There are so many things that I want to do that I know can't. Besides, you look happy with Lizzy anyways.

Maybe I'm exaggerating too much. Maybe it's because of my inexperience with love made me fall for you. Maybe you aren't actually the one for me, although it may seem like it now. Maybe when I grow up, I'm going to look back on this and regret writing this letter. Whichever it may be, I hope that one day, I will gain the courage to say I loved you, Leon Harts.

Fluffy hugs,

Y/N L/N

Once Leon got through to the end, his eyes darkened. Lizzy. That damn bitch was the only person getting in the way of their love. Moreover, she had the audacity to steal his first kiss and confess to him yesterday. Leon cursed her to hell. He remembered it so clearly.

Leon stood near his locker, dumbfounded at what Lizzy was saying. With a few textbooks in his hand, he watched Lizzy's lips move soundlessly. It seems like she was fumbling while talking and acting shy, while twirling her hair. He believes Lizzy is confessing but it didn't really matter. Nobody mattered unless it was his love, Y/N's.

He was about to reject her but suddenly, Lizzy puckered her lips and came towards him. Leon himself started flailing but couldn't move because of Lizzy's tight grasp. His mind urgently told him to move, but he was paralysed in shock. Her disgusting lips landed on his. He could feel the thick layer of gloss and the lack of feeling on his unmoving lips. Yet, he stood still, like a coward. Finally, she removed her face from Leon's. It took a few seconds to process everything.

"Y-you stole my first kiss!" Leon spluttered, wiping away all the gloss and germs with his sleeves.

Lizzy smiled and asked. "So, do you accept my confession?"

Leon wanted to scream. He wanted pull her hair. He wanted to get a knife and stab her. Again and again and again. But then, who will be his ride home? So instead, he opted for a formal and polite rejection.

"I'm sorry, Lizzy. I can't accept your feelings."

Lizzy frowned. What? But she's never been rejected before. "Pardon? Did I hear that right?"

"I don't like you, Lizzy. I apologize." Leon emphasized the 'don't'.

'But she's probably too stupid to comprehend that into her fickle brain.' Leon thought, looking at her flabbergasted face.

"Wha...? But I've never been..." Lizzy started mumbling. "Oh, it's because of Y/N right? You like her, right? I can be like her. I can act naive and oblivious. I can pretend to be pathetic and weak. Would that make you happy?"

"Please don't talk about our friend like that." He stated coldly. How dare Lizzy make fun of his Y/N! How fucking dare she! She's gonna pay in the future. For now, he had to remain neutral.

Lizzy went back to her giggly facade. "Sorry about that. I'll see you when class ends." She turned around and walked away without much of a glance.

"Tch." If not for his financial situation, Leon would've already left Lizzy by now. Sadly, he still needed her to drive him home and to school. Because his family couldn't afford a car, Leon's journey to school and back is really disadvantageous. If Leon had gone to school by walking, it would've taken 40 minutes whereas taking a car could take 15.

Additionally, after Vince and Lea cut off the bus fee since he gained a new way of going to school, he's seen improvements to their family. Although it's just a little bit of money, his family could now use it for better purposes like purchasing medicine or buying more groceries; they could even save that money for next month.

"I guess I'll just have to get rid of her slowly then." Leon smiled in glee. He couldn't wait for that time to come.

"Hm. I should start Y/N first." Leon murmured, stroking the letter you wrote just for him. Checking the clock in your room, he noticed he spent a lot of time daydreaming. Before he could leave, he heard footsteps stop towards your room. Was that you? It couldn't be. Your footsteps were a bit faster and lighter while this one was a bit heavier and relaxed. Frantically, he hid behind the door and prayed it wasn't you.

"Y/N...?" An adult female peeked into your room, realizing that the bed was empty. This familiar voice, it must be your mother. "Y/N! Where are you?!"

M/N stomped into the room and found the note that he had previously read. "That brat is dead!" And left the way she came in.

With this time, Leon made a quick escape.

Checking that love letter was in his bag, he went out the window as quietly as he could. This letter was enough for the day - in fact, this letter probably made this day the best day ever! Leon couldn't keep the smile off his face as he hopped down the tree and left. Then, he noticed a limo driving up to your house. Coming out of the limo was you and another boy. From what he could see in the dark, the guy was quite handsome and had quite a lean-ish body.

Who the hell was that?

"We'll see each other on Monday right?" An unfamiliar male voiced out to you. From behind the tree, Leon clenched his fists in anger as the two of you conversed. How dare he talk to you in such a casual manner - at night, at that! Y/N was his, his, his!

You nodded and hugged the man, allowing the man to squeeze you back just as tightly making Leon seethe in extreme anger. "Bye!"

Leon glared at the limo which was now driving off. Was this the reason you didn't ride with him and Lizzy yesterday? But Lizzy said you had after school activities. That lying bitch!

When Leon got back, he immediately started working more on his plans. From what he can deduce, this boy must be extremely rich. By narrowing the list of boys down, he was left with 22 of the wealthiest boys in his school. Leon was extra attentive as well, since some of them looked down on him. He had brown hair, narrowing it down to 18 boys. You said there was a party so Leon will assume that the guy was present as well.

Although there's a possibility that the boy he saw might be a grade above or below, the likeliness of you befriending them is unlikely, since you felt more comfortable with people your age. There were 10 guys left on the list from your grade. 2 of whom which he was pretty sure didn't enjoy partying, leaving 8 guys left in your grade.

Now, since this guy probably goes to parties (or even hosts them), he'd want to keep his social media public. By simple taps of a keyboard and a few clicks of a mouse, Leon easily found the guy you were with. He played one of the videos that had his voice and voila, it was an exact match to the one he heard.

"Alec Johnson, huh?"

When you opened the door, both your parents were waiting for you angrily. You cringed. Aw, shit. Here you go.

"Where have you been!" Your mother screamed. "Do you know how worried sick I thought you were missing?"

You stayed silent, waiting for your mother to finish her rant and begin her long lecture. M/N started going on all about the dangers of the night and rapists and everything you made sure to look out for tonight. Your father sat beside her, nodding and adding to your mom once in a while.

In the end, you were robbed of your freedom to go out for the next two weeks. To be honest, you were expecting worst. You wondered why they were so lenient on you even though you had clearly gone out late at night without permission and clearly drank alcohol. Nevertheless, you didn't want to question your parents and increase your punishment so you simply went upstairs for bed.

"Should we tell her?" F/N asked your mother while she wiped the table as he recalled all the partying he and she had done in the past. "How we were like when we were her age, I mean."

Without hesitation, M/N swiftly replied. "She should never know of our dark past."

"It wasn't really dar-"