I walked to my cabin silently but my mind was filled with loads of thoughts.

They should have trusted in my ability!

They should have trusted me more!

Or was it me lacking?

I don't know what I'm going to do next?

Am I not smart enough?

They made me doubt my abilities!

They made me doubt my confidence!

I feel like a loser.

They bruised my self-esteem!

I'm fuming inside. I want to vent it out or it would eat me alive from inside.

God...what should I do now?

I want to confront them.

Walking to parking lot I was about to open my car until someone hugged me from behind.

"What the hell?",I gasped but the touch was familiar.

Only one person can make me feel giddy with his simple touch!

I closed my eyes to control my temper.

"Let me go Aaron", I said as anger took control over me.

"You are safe. Let's get going Bella. Get inside the car. I'll drive", he said in hurry.

He seemed tensed.

"I'm not going anywhere with you", I said plainly.

"Baby, whatever it is it can wait.Let's go home now", he said as his eyes laced in worry as he came in front of me.

"I said I'm not going anywhere with you", I said as my hands turned into fist.

"Bella,I'm warning you get in the car right now", he threatened using his scary voice.

"I'm not going anywhere with you Mr.Kingston", I said glaring at him.

My nerves are bursting to scream at him.

Within a second he throwed me over his shoulders taking me to car.

I lost my last sense.

I bit his shoulder really hard. Hard enough to drew blood.

He put me down in pain.

"What the hell Bella?", He shouted at me as his hand moved to the bitten area rubbing it.

"What the hell are you doing Aaron? How dare you taking me forcefully? Of course it's your nature to always force things you want on others whether they like it or not", I said gritting my teeth hard.

I haven't been this angry in my lifetime.

I'm fuming like hell.

"Why are you so stubborn Bella? I'll explain everything to you.Listen to me once. Get in the car baby", he sighed catching my eyes begging me to understand.

"You make me sick Aaron. It was always me to obey you, understand you but you never understand me. No you never tried to understand me. How do you feel now after making me as a joke?", I said as a sickening feeling took over me seeing his eyes hurt.

But he masked it well in next second.

"I did what I want and I not regret it", he said sternly adding fuel to my flame.

"I know Aaron you will not regret it. You always want things in your way. Have you ever considered my feelings?", I shouted as tears clouded my vision.

I was hurt. I was hurt as he came to conclusion that I'm unable to handle myself.

I was hurt by the face that he never understand me.

I was hurt when he always thought I was cheating on him.

I was hurt as he always having his own way in our marriage.

At first I thought he would give in my space and he did. Later he started planning things for me in my place.

I was trying to understand him. But I'm unable to.

He was unpredictable.

I wanted a partner who will be my other half.

I wanted my husband to stand by me and discuss details with me when we face a tornado.

Not someone to take the situation in his hands and keep me in dark.

Am I asking too much?

"What are you insisting here?", He asked gritting his teeth.

He lost his patience.

"Stop acting innocent. Who gave you rights to go behind my back and help me in most humiliating way? What are you to me? Please don't tell me you did that because you are my husband. We both know we are far from that", I laughed at my last statement.

Ignoring the sting in my heart I stared at him.

His face turned pale.

"Stop being stubborn Bella. I did for your own good. I can't wait and watch when you are having hard time. I know you are upset. Still I expect you to understand me", he said his hands gripping my shoulder.

"You are funny Aaron. When did I never tried to understand you? You know, it was always me putting effort on our relationship. When our parents visited us I was the one to be active. Do you know how hard it was? I never compromise on sleep Aaron. It may be a silly matter to you but to me it's not. Like you I should sleep properly to concentrate on my work. You always accused me of cheating with my male friends. Do you know how I felt at that time? I know you are guilty and you apologized and I did forgive you but still... some words cannot be undone.I had a hard time coming to your home to stay. It's not easy for me to stay in entirely different home and you are still a stranger to me when we married. I know we are married in name and

haven't accepted each other. I know we don't like each other and hate is the only word that describes our relationship. But still..", I said the words that I always wanted to say.

I'm too emotional now.

It was true that I entered his home when we were stranger.

He should have made a effort to make me comfortable.

I do know that we don't know anything about the other when we married.

But still..

God..why am I reacting this way?

"I'm sorry Baby..I know I'm wrong. I always have hard time in adjusting with new people and I should have eliminated those bad people from your life. I'm sorry I'm late", his words made me shock.

His eyes held sadness.

"You are unbelievable Aaron. You will never understand me. I hate you Aaron", I said with so much hate.

His care for me made my heart pound. But his method was wrong. I know he was trying to help me. But this is not the help I want.

I want someone to stand with me and not someone who clears the way for me.

"Bella", he screamed and pulled me to his chest shielding me from...gun..shots?

My eyes turned in horror.

Within second the siren sound was heard.

I saw Aaron's eyes in relief as it clouded with tears.

My eyes started watering.

I saw Catherine being dragged by police as she seemed as shocked as me.

Cupping my cheeks Aaron smiled.

"You are safe now", he whispered in my ears with a relief and started falling on me.

No...No..please..

"Aaron?", I called out as my hands went to his shoulder trying to balance us both.

Tears started flowing my cheeks when he didn't respond.

When my hand had blood, a loud sob escaped my mouth.

"Aaron...Aaron..please wake up...you are scaring me. Baby..please wake up...", I called out as thousands of thoughts took over me.

Before I collapse with him, policemen and medical team came to us.

I felt myself being pulled away from him.

I stood there watching when medical team rushed him to ambulance.

I followed them sitting next to him looking at his unresponsive state.

Those mesmerising eyes was far away from me now.

I watched him lifeless.

All I felt was emptiness.

It's my fault.

I should have listened to him.

I should have obeyed him.

He was trying to protect me and he did.

My heart whimpered in pain seeing the person it beats for.

I regret as my last words to him was I hate you Aaron.

I regret as my last memory with him was bitter.

Doctors rushed with him to ICU while me dragged to ward.

I wanted to see him.

When they put an IV on me I removed it forcefully and walked to ICU.

I sat in one corner, covering my face with my legs.

His alluring eyes. His beautiful smile. His seductive smirk. His enchanting look. His spellbinding talks.

Our arguments. Our flirting. Our laughters. Our smiles. Our heartwarming moments.

I miss him.

I miss him.

I miss my husband!

My body started shaking as uncontrollable sobs and whimper escaped my mouth.

Aaron please be okay..please.

I was arguing that he was the one not to understand me.

Now I understand the fault is with both of us.

We never attempted to have a talk.

A heart to heart talk.

We left our ego to take over us.

I'm sorry...I'm sorry.....Aaron..baby..please be okay..

"Bell", I heard Lay.

When I saw Bell covering herself in one corner and crying her heart out an unknown emotion took over me.

I never saw this side of hers. Her weakness that she never showed to anyone even me.

It was me who will always be vulnerable with emotions but Bell knows how to handle herself.

My heart wrenched in pain seeing my friend in pain.

"Bell",I called out silently.

When her eyes met mine, my eyes started watering.

I pulled her into my arms.

"Lay..it was my fault. It was me..who made him like this..I should have listened to him Lay...he..he was shot..and there was...blood...blood..I don't know what to do Lay..I argued with him...lay..I told him that I hate him....Lay...Lay..I..I...he will be okay right? Lay...what should I do now? My heart is aching Lay....will I be able to see him? Lay..he have to be okay...Lay..why I'm so adamant...Lay...Lay...", Her worry made me cry hard.

No Layla you have to be strong.

"Shh...Bell.. everything is going to be okay....I'm here..he will be fine..shh..it's okay Bell...he will be okay", I said as I saw her whimpering in my hands.

I prayed to god for first time to make things right for my Bell.

I don't want my friend in sorrow.

Please make my bell okay.

I want her only happy.

She is the best soul I have ever met.

Please make things easier for her.

Closing my eyes I let my tears fall silently hugging her tight.