'I'm sorry Bella. I have to go',I saw Aaron in pool of blood lying on floor smiling at me.

'No..Aaron...please..please don't leave me...Aaron... don't talk anything. We...we have to go to hospital.. you have to be okay ....anyone out there help us..", I shouted and screamed as no one came to help us in that dark room.

I saw Aaron closing his eyes in pain as tears started flowing my cheeks.

It's all my fault.

"Aaron..baby..please stay awake..please don't close your eyes...baby..please", I shook him while his eyes closed not listening to me.

"NO....Aaron..Baby...Aaron..Aaron..",I saw him disappearing.

"AARON", I screamed as unbearable pain took over my heart.

"Bell.. Bell..wake up", I heard someone calling me.

Waking up I saw Lay, Ryan, Adrian, Stella looking at me worried.

Lay wiped my tears making me realize that is just a nightmare.

I was having IV.

"Are you feeling better?", Ryan patted my hair.

Aaron.. my heart panicked.

"I have to go", I started removing my IV where Lay stopped me forcefully.

"Bell, Calm down. He is fine", she caught my hand and smiled at me.

He is fine. He is fine. Thank you for not taking him away from me.

"He was lucky that the bullet just affected his ribs. He will be hospitalised for two weeks. He is totally fine Bell", Ryan said still patting my hair to calm me.

I felt relieved.

I stared at ceiling all the time till my IV was finished.

I heard my phone.

It was Mia.

"Hey sis..how are you doing?", If my sister calls me sis she needs something from me.

"I'm fine Mia. What about you?", I asked composing myself.

"Umm..I have an good news and bad news to share", she said little worried.

"Both at a time", I said as I gave my full attention to her.

"You are going to be aunt one more time but I have some complications. I need someone to take care of me. I wanted to call mom but she is taking care of dad..so..", she dragged as I felt happy by the news.

"Congratulations Mia. Of course I will be there. I will speak to mom and dad. I will get back to you by evening", I said happily.

"What is it?", Lay asked smiling.

"Mia is pregnant. We are going to be aunt one more time. She want me there to look after her", I said laughing as her face lighted up hearing her giggle.

"That's..", her face changed suddenly.

"Wait..then who will look after your husband. Bell..it's not what I'm thinking right?", she questioned me with a glare while the others left the room for us as Lay signalled them.

"My laws will take care of him Lay. Mia needs me", I said as I stared at my hands.

"Girl..why are you acting like a bitch? I will look after Mia. You are going to look after your husband", she said sternly.

"I know what I'm doing Lay", I snapped at her.

I don't want to see him. I'm happy that he was okay now.

But seeing him in blood was enough to shatter me.

I know he will not blame me.

But me..it was my fault putting him in that place.

God...I..I don't want him to suffer because of me.

If I'm away he will be fine.

If I have done that from start I will be in his place now.

I was the one promised him to keep the distance between us.

It was my fault.

I'm scared to see him unconscious. It hurts like hell.

It's better I stay away from him.

We were always arguing. We never complimented each other. We never understood each other. We are not compatible.

We are entirely two different people.

My eyes watered as I realized it too late.

I should have realized it before I fell for him hard.

I gulped.

I miss him. I wanted to be with him.

But I won't.

"Are you coming with me or not?", I asked controlling my tears.

"I'm coming", Lay said.

I got out of bed and walked outside.

I saw Harry and Linda walking towards us.

Lay left us while they looked at me worried.

"Are you okay dear?", Linda sked searching for injuries in me.

"I'm okay", I said smiling a little.

"Aaron woke up. You can see him now sweetheart", Harry smiled back.

I stood there silently.

"What's wrong dear?", Linda took my hands and rubbed it to calm me.

Composing myself I started to speak.

"Harry, Linda, Your son is amazing. You both raised a beautiful son. I...Can you leave the things in our hands? Let us decide what we need for us", I said as their face turned pale.

"We both need some time", I added as sadness took over me seeing them sad.

"I hope you make a good decision dear", she gave me a encouraging smile.

I already made my decision.

I nodded at them with a sad smile and left the hospital without turning my back ignoring the painful cry of my heart.

I know I'm a bitch to leave him behind.

I really don't know what to do now.

Things happened in my life were easy to solve.

But now...

It's too much to handle for me.

They all made me doubt about myself.

I'm lacking in every thing.

And him suffering in blood...

Maybe if I listened to him.

Maybe if I tried to understand him more.

A sigh escaped my lips. It's all my fault.

Reaching dad's hospital I told mom that I'm going to Mia's to take care of her.

Mom asked about Aaron.

This time I'm never going to lie.

"Mom...I..I will tell you everything once I cleared my mind", a lie came out my lips as guilty took over me again.

Packing my things in my room I felt myself being dragged to his room.

His manly scent invaded me.

I'm sorry for being a coward Aaron. I don't want to face you.

If I face you I will remind myself how adamant I'm making you suffer in hospital bed.

Thank you for waking up baby.

I miss you.

The scene terrifies me. Not looking at his eyes I can manage.

But him not opening his eyes ever made me scared.

After ten minutes I walked downstairs.

I remembered how Aaron and me were playful every time in dining.

We were always at each others throat.

I smiled remembering it.

My phone ringed.

As soon as I saw the name I rejected it.

The caller ID showed again. Ticking Bomb 🤯

I rejected again.

Ticking Bomb 🤯

Where are you?

Why are you not answering my call?

Baby..tell me what's wrong?

Where are you? I will come to you.

Baby..please..reply me.

Bella..please. You are scaring me!

Are you okay?

Baby..

Bella..

A tear escaped my eyes seeing his messages.

You can do it Isabella. You want his happiness and you are not his happiness.

Please accept it Isabella that you are not made for each other.

You don't deserve him.

Wiping the tear I walked out with heavy heart.

Taking the jet I stared outside.

My phone ringed again.

Taking my phone I typed.

Me

Let's Divorce.

My heart panicked as Aaron saw the message the very next second.

I switched off the phone and throwed it somewhere.

I should have divorced him long ago.

I should have let him free from my hold long ago.

If I have, he will not be suffering now.

I wanted to be selfish.

In the end it punched me hard.

I'm sorry Aaron. I'm sorry for making you suffer.

I'm sorry.

When I and Lay reached Mia's home my mind got diverted.

After taking Mia to hospital and taking care of Ria my day seemed to be long.

I moved to terrace to get some air.

'Can I hug you Bella?', I remembered Aaron's words.

What is happening to me? Wherever I go I see him. Wherever I go I hear him.

I hope time will be the medicine to my aching heart.

Are you doing okay Aaron?

Are you having hard time like me?

Does your heart aches like mine for the distance?

Please don't hate me too much Aaron...

Hope you understand me!

How selfish of me to think that he will understand me when I couldn't understand myself?

When I'm about to sleep I couldn't sleep a wink.

As my dreams were now turned into nightmares.

A nightmare where Aaron was always in a blood pool while me heplessly crying and whimpering for him to wake up.

It's all my fault!

Question of the day?

1.Why do you think Bell is reacting this way?

2. Do you think Aaron will give up on Bell?