From: Kamal E Y [email protected]>

To: Sabrina [email protected] >

Sent: 28 September, 1999 02:20 PM

Subject: I won't leave you alone!

Dearest Sabrina,

No, I won't leave you alone not even for a minute, leave a matter of days. You can't run away from me. There is a song in our language which means "the valley is my lap, the streets are my hands, where can you go without me?" I am dedicating this to you. Why should you hide your feeling for me? I have never tried to hide from you what I feel about you. Take any of my letters and you can see what I've written is what I feel. I never felt the necessity to hide anything from you. And that is why I am so comfortable with you. I think I can understand all your feelings too. Your desire, love, lust everything I can feel. And that makes me feel I am talking to my woman because it is so frank and open I know the menstrual period can give you a strong desire to make love.

That is why I always tried to talk more with you these days. Do you still think you have to hide our feelings? The urgency in your voice and letters make me think more and more about you and our meeting. I told you why I wanted you to wait. That is because I want to establish myself somewhere. I can just come there and stay with you there all day in the house. But that is not the way a self-respecting man is supposed to be, right? You yourself told me how much you value independence. Being a slave in love is sweet, but being a slave in life...got what I said? There are times when I think of leaving everything and coming there. You still don't know how eager I am to meet you. I don't have a menses to tell you, but each and every day my heart is burning with desire. I don't know how to put this in a better way.

We have waited years and years to know each other, now it is only a matter of months. That is how I console myself. If it can wait this long, we can let us suffer a bit more. The more the iron is in a fire, the more the red it becomes.

I am proud of you because you manage your work so sincerely and dutifully. I won't ask you to leave your work now. But one day when we are ready for our dream tour...

I am going to disobey you. I will call you this week before going home. 30th is your menses date. I will call you on that day. Or do you like to call me? This is the only choice you have, wither I will call, or you have to call. There is no question of canceling this. OK? Tell me about your choice. This is to unleash our feelings.

So as I said, don't try to run away from me. I am not going to let you do that. Scold me or curse me, but I won't let you run away...

With you always

Kamal