From: Kamal E Y [email protected] >

To: Sabrina [email protected] >

Sent: 28 December, 1999 12:39 AM

Subject: I understand what you want to say

Dear,

It's too late for you to read this mail today. It is 9:30 nowhere. I had to help Ojas in packing his things. He has gone to his home.

Don't think your English is not good. Yes, there are some grammar mistakes, but I can clearly make out what you want to say. You felt ashamed to me? Never!!! We don't have any ego between us. So there is no need to be ashamed of anything.

I didn't have any work to do here today. That is why I wrote such a long mail. And we will not have any time to spend on these things when we meet.

I still remember every line, every word of your mail. It was written in a rage and you for some reason felt angry on me. There were some sentences which I will never forget. But, no hard feelings or hurt. It was good we talked about our views now. It will help us in the future while dealing with each other. I will change some of my behavior to you.

Enough of this serious talk. As I had said, I would have preferred to say all these when we were together in each arm. Looking into the eyes, occasionally kissing and savouring the lips. The night I am feeling too romantic! The silence after heavy rain.

I am alone in this building now. Only the security guards are there downstairs. Most of my colleagues have gone home for Xmas. I am going to my new home this Xmas. That is yours, our home there in S city.

Let us ask you a question. You expected me to be mad after reading your mail, right? I know that because there were some words intentionally inserted for this purpose. For example, I am writing some sentences from your last mail.

"It doesn't mean if I have been in love with someone that I have to become a weakness woman and without any ability to solve my problems.

You only want my sadness but I don't have any sadness to supply, how can I satisfy you?

Not every my problem would become your duty!!!

You can't take all my problems to be yours that is not the way to love each other!!!!!!! It's a pressure and terrible pressure that I don't want it.

I am not an idiot and it's not your duty to change me to an idiot!!!

But you also make me feel myself is useless.

You know what I feel it sounds like a threat, a threat. "

There are so many instances, but I don't know why you want to make me angry. You could have written all these things in a different way, but you chose this. You have tried to make me angry before this mail also, right? I don't understand why!!!

Ok, leave it. This is a good night and I don't want to spoil it.

Today morning I got a small injury on my right leg from the bike. It is not paining, but it seems that it is going to swell a bit.

Ok, it is time for me to go to my house. I want to see your photo today once again.

Love always

Kamal