From: Kamal E Y [email protected] >

To: Sabrina [email protected] >

Sent: 28 December, 1999 09:15 PM

Subject: don't worry about English

Dear,

I read that letter which I sent you on Sunday. I realize that was not a good way to write to you. Not only because of sarcasm but overall. When I wrote that I was clear what I am writing. But now when I read this today. It seems some things are not ok. Anyway, leave all those things. If I had said all those things, instead of writing, you would not have become angry. It hurt you? I really regret it, honestly.

I treated your kindness with sarcasm?? Hmmm...my dear, what I really wanted to convey was "don't try to make me happy when you feel sad." That is why I said give me your sadness. I didn't mean that I want you to be sad all the time. I couldn't bear the thought that you want to hide your problems from me. You wrote to me that you will pretend to be happy to make me happy, even if you are sad. But see, how I can accept that. You hiding your feelings to make me happy? No, I love you more than to allow you to do that.

There is a good news. My Visa has been approved by the Embassy. I will get it tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. Day after tomorrow I will go to Madras. And on the 30th night, I will board the plane and will reach there by 31 evening. That is what I hope. So be ready and start taking pills again! Is your menses already over? Actually, I would like to comfort and soothe you on your menses day. But now since we don't have many days for us, it seems impossible.

Don't be afraid of anything while you write to me. English is not a problem. You say it is causing misunderstanding while writing. Ok, it may. But while talking to each other, it will never. While talking through phone we have never had any misunderstanding, right? While talking we can always ask for clarification. So there will not be any problem. I am sure. And writing, see, I will always keep in mind bot to jump into judgments without asking you for clarification. You should also do that. If you feel something is not good in the mail, first you should ask me what I really mean. I will do the same for you. This will eliminate any chance of misunderstanding. Ok?

Today I was going to write a mail to you asking to forget everything that happened in the last 3 days. From time to time we have had misunderstandings. But we have overcome all of them. There is a strong binding force between us which makes us capable of over such things.

Please don't think of your English. You are writing very short mails. Write more as you used to write earlier. I once wrote to you that you have the ability to make the reader feel that you are talking to him. It is true.

So write to me a long letter, ok? I will be waiting...

Love

Kamal