From: Kamal E Y [email protected] >

To: Sabrina [email protected] >

Sent: 13 March, 2000 09:30 PM

Subject: You are so unique

Honey,

I try my best not to make you afraid or unhappy. But many times my words get wrongly interpreted. I know it is because you care for each word I say. I also do the same. I think the main difference between us is that you always clear your mind. If you are angry, you express it, if you are sad, you cry, if you are happy, you laugh. But I am not like that. I won't say I am calm, but I control my feelings. That is because of my ego. I am the eldest son of our family, I am supposed to be strong. That may be the reason I have always controlled myself. Expressing my emotions to someone makes me feel week. You are not someone. So I have tried to express my feelings. But even then there are times when I myself am not ready to accept my feelings. I don't accept that I am angry or I am sad. In such cased, you also won't know what is in my mind, because I also don't know. I always try to behave jovially.

I very well know what you wrote about being afraid of me. I am afraid of losing you too. I don't want that. You are the first woman in this world, with whom I lived together as lovers. You are so unique in many ways.

There has been not a single moment since we met, that I had any feeling of hate towards you. You don't know how much pressure I have got from the people around me, against our relationship. Why I have taken the risk of coming to a foreign country without knowing anyone? Because you have become very much a part of me. To separate you from my heart will be more painful than anything in this world.

Always with love

Kamal